1Disclaimer: I do not own these characters as JK Rowling has all rights to her characters as they are hers. I'm just using these things for my own morbid pleasures.
A/N: Lyrics don't belong to me or Sirius they are none other than the lyrics to 'Its Been Awhile by Staind.' Sorry this took so long to get out... mind block. Please accept my apologies.
HappyDappyDrunk:
Well no worries for this chapter then. This chapter is total
fluff.
Lily Among the Thorns: I'm glad you love it so
much D
Natsuko-Dai: Hehe well I hope yer looking
forward to more fluff!
xbreakawayx: As requested here's
more and no worries. The girl doesn't get preg!
starlollie:
If you thought that was sweet then you'll probably think this is
sweet too.
the-mpreg-spirit: Romance is sweet. So
here's some more of it.
Dollface786: The fluff is now
being kicked up a notch.
halfblood princess and Summer:
Another update as requested. Sorry it took so
long!
perfect-feline: Yes yes it is a happy day, and
now its gonna get happier.
MrsBlack-Lupin: Here's the
next chapter. Tho I'm sure not as soon as you'd hoped.
Elizabeth
Turner: Yet another update as requested tho late in its coming.
Minightmoonlight:
Here's the requested update but its definitely fashionably
late.
Black Ice Maiden: I was actually thinking of
making it her... but with the other stuff I want to do with this
story it didn't fit. A very good guess tho.
CittiKitti:
You do a mental dance to?!? Sweet! I'm not the only one!! LOL
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If You're Not The One
Chapter Fifteen: A Christmas To Remember
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Christmas was dawning on the Hogwarts grounds. The snow was falling, the wind carrying Jack Frost on its tail, icicles forming on the edges of the castle's roof. There were few sounds inside the castle however, as the majority of the student body had gone home for the holidays. Incidentally, there remained only two Gryffindor students at Hogwarts. Sirius still wanting to have Remus' full trust back went out of his way to make sure they were the only two Gryffindors left so he could have all the alone time he wanted with his boyfriend.
They had just finished dinner in the Great Hall with the other students that had stayed at Hogwarts, and were presently walking back to Gryffindor Tower. Remus clutched lightly onto Sirius' arm, smiling to himself. He had been unsure whether he made the right decision in giving Sirius another chance, but his boyfriend had done nothing to dissuade him. In fact Sirius kept amazing him with little things to show affection. The most recent having been Sirius convincing all other Gryffindors to go home for the holidays. A part of him still couldn't believe they had the whole tower to themselves.
Remus' thoughts were suddenly interrupted when he realized they had stopped and Sirius was tying a blindfold on him.
"Siri... what are you doing?" Remus asked as his fingers grazed the blindfold.
"You didn't think I'd go without giving you a surprise on Christmas Eve now did you?" Sirius asked almost mockingly as he made sure the blindfold wouldn't come off.
"I should've known," Remus replied, chuckling fondly.
Sirius had been planning this surprise for weeks. He just had to prove to Remus once and for all that he really cared about him. Sure he had done other things, but they were too small to be worth much in Sirius' opinion. So with James' help they had conspired together and came up with his plan. He just hoped the house elves had everything ready as it was too late to give them any more time.
"Pepper Imp," Sirius said to the Fat Lady as he scooped up Remus in his arms making his boyfriend make an 'eep' sound.
"Siri... put me down," Remus giggled as Sirius carried him into the Gryffindor Common Room.
Obediently, Sirius put down the squirming werewolf and took off the blindfold. Remus was then revealed to a gloriously decorated common room. The fire was blazing brightly, making the room comfortably cozy. There were garlands hung around the room in the shape of snowflakes made from ice that must have been bewitched not to melt since the heat from the fire would have inevitably melted them in a short period of time. The Christmas tree was decorated, upon close inspection, with bobbles depicting the symbol 'S R' inside a heart in assorted colours.
"Oh Siri..." Remus whispered, awed as he stood in front of the fire where a little picnic blanket had been set out with candles and snacks. "This is all so wonderful."
"I knew you'd like it," Sirius said grinning as he held his hand out to help Remus sit on the blanket.
"I can't believe you went to all this trouble for me," the awed werewolf said as he sat cross-legged in front of his boyfriend.
"Well we didn't get to spend last holiday together so I had to make this one extra special for my extra special someone."
As Remus flushed with delight he noticed that Sirius had the house elves bring in his favourite sweets, from treacle fudge to chocolate truffles. There was even butterbeer and a muggle carbonated fruit beverage he enjoyed. Sirius had definitely gone all out for this occasion, leaving Remus to feel nothing but love and affection for his animagus.
"I know we agreed not to give each other our gifts till tomorrow but I wanted to give you one early," Sirius said as Moony nibbled on some treacle fudge.
The sandy-haired teen tipped his head to the side as he waited to see what Padfoot had in mind to give him. To his amazement, Sirius pulled out his guitar from under the couch and settled it in his lap.
"You seemed to really want to hear me sing something I wrote so... I'm gonna sing the song that I wrote in hopes that you would forgive me."
Not sure what to expect from the song Remus brought his legs up to his chest, and waited while Sirius quickly made sure his guitar was still in tune before strumming the first few chords to open the song.
It's
been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been
awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I
could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since
I could call you
And
everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The
consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my
means
Remus hugged his legs close to him as Sirius sang the song quietly in a strong, powerful voice that never wavered. Remus could tell he was singing straight from his heart and soul.
And
it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And
it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And
it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I
always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to
disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't
remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that
I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Tears sprang to Remus' eyes as he lost himself in Sirius' deep mournful lyrics. He couldn't quite believe Sirius would write this just so he'd forgive him. And yet there it was pouring from his beloved.
Why
must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more
peaceful day!
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at
myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm
sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle
lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember
just the way you taste
As tears streamed down the werewolf's face he noticed that his weren't the only wet eyes in the room. Sirius too, had tears silently gliding down his cheeks but still his voice did not waver. It held strong and true as he brought his song to an end.
And
everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the
best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could
hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm
sorry
Not quite ready to meet Remus' eyes, Sirius took his time placing his guitar back in its case and sliding it back under the couch. He took one more moment to take a deep breath before turning back to Remus. Slowly, he lifted his eyes and was met with a very teary eyed werewolf. His heart skipped a beat as his uncertainty kicked into high gear, but was then met with Remus flinging himself into his arms.
"Oh Siri! I love you so much!" Remus exclaimed as he hugged the shaggy haired teen tightly.
"I love you too Moony," Sirius said, relief flooding through his body. He had longed to hear those words, and say them too.
Remus then began to shower kisses on his boyfriend while saying loving words that Sirius couldn't quite make out under the bombardment of kisses. The dark haired teen pulled his boyfriend into his lap and stopped the torrential kisses by capturing Remus' lips in his. But before they could completely lose themselves in the kiss Sirius pulled away.
"I have one more surprise," Padfoot said grinning that mischievous grin he used when pulling pranks.
"Oh? And what's that?" Remus asked suspiciously, arching an eyebrow in question.
"You'll have to come and find out," Sirius replied, as he got to his feet, bringing Remus along with him.
Sirius took Remus by the hand and led the way to their dormitory, but when they arrived everything looked exactly the same.
"Am I supposed to find something?" Remus asked, not sure what he was supposed to be seeing.
"No. Look up," Sirius instructed.
Upon looking up, Remus gasped as he saw the ceiling was covered from end to end in mistletoe. He then broke out into a grin as he turned to his boyfriend and slipped his arms around Sirius' neck.
"I guess that means I'll have to kiss you all night long then."
"Looks like it," Sirius said as he pulled Remus closer to him so that their bodies pressed together.
Lost in a kiss, time became nothing to them. There was no time, no world around them, just the two of them. It wasn't until Sirius' hands found their way under Remus' shirt and having him pull away that they came back to reality.
"Oh, I'm sorry Rem," Sirius said pulling his hand back. "Do your scars still hurt?"
"Well no... its just..." Remus stammered as he bit his lip lightly and looked at the floor.
Sirius stepped back towards Remus and pulled him close, lifting his chin so that the werewolf had to look at him. For a moment Sirius didn't say anything he just brushed Remus' hair off his face, and traced the small scar that had cut across his eye to his cheek.
"No matter how many scars you have, no matter how many hairs you lose, or how many pounds you might gain I'm still going to think you're the most beautiful person in the world," Sirius whispered as he traced Remus' face with his finger.
"Are you saying I'm going bald and getting fat?" Remus asked, smirking.
"Oh sure, ruin the moment Moony," Sirius mocked. "I was trying to be sweet and caring."
They both laughed, and Remus pecked him on the nose.
"I know... thanks. I guess I just need to be reassured sometimes."
"Aww my little self-conscious Moony needs some extra tender, love 'n care," Sirius cooed, tapping Remus on the nose.
"Pa-adfoot..." Remus murmured as he blushed deeply.
"What? Don't you want some extra T.L.C. from me?" the animagus asked.
"That depends on what you're offering," Remus whispered into Sirius' ear and grabbed his ass in the process.
A little shocked that his boyfriend was being so bold, Sirius didn't respond at first, but quickly recovered and swooped the werewolf into his arms. He gave Remus a long hard kiss as he carried him over to his bed, and continued to kiss him as he laid him down onto the bed.
For what seemed to be hours, no thoughts escaped either of them except ones of lust and love as they explored each other. It wasn't until they were both clad in their boxers that the silence was broken.
"Siri..." Remus murmured, his voice thick with lust.
"Mmm?" Sirius mumbled as he nipped playfully at Remus' hip.
"I want you to be my first," the werewolf said quietly, trying to suppress his blush.
That had certainly caught Sirius' attention. He stopped his exploring of Remus' body and crawled up next to Remus and looked his boyfriend in the eye. This had been one of the last things he had expected from Remus. Especially since they hadn't that long ago got back together. Not to mention the fact that Remus had told him and the other Marauders how werewolves mate for life.
"Are you sure?" Sirius asked in all seriousness. "What about-?"
"I know," Remus said cutting him off. "I want it to be you I mate for life with."
"Really?" Sirius asked still stunned by his boyfriends request.
"That is... if you want to be," the werewolf said shyly, his blush taking over as his self-consciousness kicked in.
"Of course I want to be!" Sirius assured his boyfriend. "I just didn't think you'd want to. Not yet anyway..."
Remus smiled, glad that Sirius did in fact want to be his mate. He had been so scared that he might not want to. Though it did surprise even himself that he wanted Sirius to take his virginity this night. However, he didn't regret making that decision. Not one little bit.
"Well... if you're not up to the job..." Remus said, feigning disappointment.
"Oh I'm up to it!" Sirius growled as he attacked Remus' neck sending him into flurries of pleasure.
With the decision made, they let themselves get lost completely in the physical pleasures of life. The couple finally became lovers.
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TBC...
