Disclaimer: I don't own Yugi or Yami-Jesus, or Joey-Jesus, or the Dice master, Okay! I don't own Yugioh, or any songs that I am thinking about using...
I cocked my head to one side and looked at the boy. It was Bakura. He was here. In my barn. I stared awkwardly at him as he stopped clapping and smiled. I stared blankly at him and he stared smiling at me. I was so confused. Sage grew impatient and moved a little to shake me out of it.
"Bakura, what are you doing here?" I asked him.
"I came to see if you were alright. I didn't get to talk to you after the incident with Duke." He said hopping down and walking towards me. Sage snorted and rolled his eyes. I dismounted and blinked.
"Yes. I'm fine now. I'm going to be made fun of the rest of the year, but I'm alright." I said.
"Well. I don't know what to tell you with your popularity at Domino, but I want you to know if you ever need anything I'd like it if you came to me." His voice grew soft as he ended that sentence. Why? I have no idea.
"Thank you Bakura. You're a sweet friend." I smiled at him as he turned a slight shade of pink.
"Stop your going to make me blush!"
I laughed at that remark "I think it's too late you have already turned a little pink." At that he blushed a little harder feeling embarrassed. I smirked.
"Well if you're alright ill be going." He said turning.
"You don't have to go. I'd love it if you staid for awhile." Sage pushed me with his nose and I turned around. "What?" I asked. Sage snorted and looked away from me. "I'm sorry Sage. I know I promised to ride you all day, but how about we go on a trail tonight...or Bakura could ride on your back next to me?" Sage looked at Bakura for a moment then whinnied. "Alright, then its set. How about it Bakura? Want to come into the field and ride with me?"
"Sure." He said shrugging. I smiled then waved him to follow me. I led Sage to the field and then mounted. Bakura got up on the fence and got behind me. I smiled as he put his arms around my waist blushing slightly.
"Have you done this before Baku?" I asked.
"Loads of times." He smiled and held tighter.
"Alright Sage, walk on." I said as Sage moved forward. I sat up strait and looked ahead at the field. It was amazing how far it stretched. I looked over towards the Kiaba mansion and blinked. There was no fence that divided us up. The fence ended at the wall of the mansion. Somehow I was curious on what the Kiaba brothers did in that big place. I turned my attention back to the field. I started to slouch a little as I became bored with walking. Unfortunately when I did slouch Bakura's hands touched my breasts. I felt my face heat up quickly as I shot up strait again. Bakura tensed at that. We said no more. It was an honest mistake.
"I'm going to ask to canter now. Is that okay?"
"Y Y Yea." He stammered. I kissed and Sage started to canter He gained a lot of speed though I allowed him to. I let the reins drop a little as we raced though-out the field. Bakura seemed uncomfortable. Not by the ride, but by being close to me. My mind kept going back to the thought that he liked me. My mind wandered and kept telling me how nice it would be to kiss him. How nice it would be for him to...touch me again. WHOAH! How did that come out! I decided to go in. This ride was going to my head. I rode into the entrance and dismounted. Bakura quickly got off and I dismounted as well. I took Sage in quickly not waiting for Bakura. I started to un-tack very quickly and when I put the saddle back Bakura stood there staring at me.
"I'm sorry I wasn't holding on tight enough then when you moved" I cut him off.
"No I understand this is about something else. What happened out there was an honest mistake." I led Sage over to his stall.
"Well...I think I'm going to go." I gave slack into the rope and looked down.
"Only if you want to." Fuck it. I said to myself. "Listen it was really no big deal. So what? You touched my boob's big deal. Just let's keep it to ourselves and never speak of it again." All was silent as I looked up and Brown met silver blue for the truest first time. I had never noticed how pretty Bakura's eyes were. After several minutes Sage grew impatient and pushed me into Bakura's arms. Bakura caught me and I looked up at him.
"Thanks. Sorry about that." I stood up again.
Bakura nodded. "Kestrel remember I am your friend. That's all I came here to say." He turned around and walked out really fast. I watched him go and turned to Sages stall hitting my head on the wood.
"I'm so fucking stupid. Stupid!" I banged my head one more time and opened my eyes. "I will not love anyone. No one, not Bakura, not I don't know Tristan, not ANYONE!" Sage stuck his nose though the feed hole and nuzzled me. I looked over at him and pet his nose. "I'm sorry Sage. I should have just let him go. We would have had more time to ride. Forgive me?" I asked. Sage grunted in a "yea, guess so." Type of way and I smiled. "Thanks love" I said. I turned around and walked to the hay bales getting a stack and throwing it in to Sage to eat and getting a few cups of oats as well.
"There you go. Ill see you tomorrow." I said as I walked out. I took the road back to the house. When I reached the porch I walked inside to the kitchen and sat down on a stool. I took a deep breath and exhaled. Nothing was going right. All good things came to an end at that point in my life. Nothing more. Mostly what bothered me were the words that went though my head after the "incident" With Bakura. I looked down and sighed. Getting up I swung myself around and took a Root beer out of the fridge. Popping the can they sticky soda sprayed me. I wiped my eyes and took in some air. Grabbing the towel that hung over the sink the doorbell rang. I started to wipe my face as I opened the door to see my mother.
"Welcome home mom. Have fun at work?" My mother rolled her eyes and pushed past me. I shrugged and shut the door. "Where do you work anyway?" I asked damping the towel in the sink and washing my face.
"I can't tell you. All you can know is that it pays well." She threw herself on the couch and turned on the Television. I decided to leave her alone. Usually when my mother watched T.V she drank like hell. I decided to go up to my room and listen to music. Hell it was spring break. I had two weeks to do what ever the hell I wanted! Everything should be perfect and good. I kicked open the door to my room and flung myself onto the perfectly made bed. Flipping myself over, I grabbed my C.Ds and started flipping though. All the blood was rushing to my head as I lay off the side of my bed.
"Lets see. Green day, Three days grace, Evanescence, or Twisted?" Because I wanted to feel mean as shit I grabbed twisted and put it in my player. The intro came on and I stood in front of my mirror and looked at myself saying the words to the evil bitch in the mirror.
"Behind this gate is a place, a damp dark place, where sunlight does not shine, a place where people who are different can call home. And what home would be complete without a family, a family of Hideous abominations that were cast out of your world, the world that brags and boasts of love. The world didn't love when they branded us freekshows! Ah yes that deplorable little name that you embrace like the night. It was you who turned your back on them! And now there going to rip your soul apart. There's no way out now. The mutation process has already begun. Just like that. Whether you change or decompose is no concern to me now. My job is done. Welcome to the freekshow!"
I stared at myself as those words hit the other side of me. I looked away and waited for the next song. Hopeful that it would be my favorite, it was. I smiled and reopened my eyes singing as loud as I could.
"I swallow razor blades and spit up blood
Cut out my heart and gave it to my love
I hung myself with an extension cord
And dangled high above the ouiji board
I heard the wind in the trees and it made me scream
I'm wonderin' if it's real life or just another dream
I need something, someone
To help me with my brain because it's fallen apart
I fall apart
I've fallen to pieces but I don't know why
It's all because
It's all because we're all afraid to die
And if you think
And if you think about it, it will eat you
From the inside out till you don't know what to do
You fall apart
I'm drinking gas smoking square after square
I'm looking for this place but I don't know where
I'm just a soul in the land of the lost
I feel the blood in my lungs when I cough
I cut my hands off in the dark and just sat there and bled
Why the whole world fell apart inside of my head?
I need something
Someone
To help me with my brain because it's fallen apart
I fall apart
I've fallen to pieces but I don't know why
It's all because
It's all because we're all afraid to die
And if you think
And if you think about it, it will eat you
From the inside out till you don't know what to do
You fall apart
I broke my brain cage open with a butcher knife
And open up the wound to show my life
I'm not the devil but your momma swear were one in the same
And we didn't make it this way so were not carry in the blame
I've been down and out
I know what that's all about
You fall apart
I need something, someone
Help me with my brain, help me with my brain
You fall apart
I need something, someone
Help me with my brain, help me with my brain
I've fallen to pieces but I don't know why
It's all because
It's all because we're all afraid to die
And if you think
And if you think about it, it will eat you
From the inside out till you don't know what to do
You fall apart
Jumped outta twenty story window today
I got back up and then I walked away
My head was screamin' for a Tylenol
Open the bottle and I ate 'em all
My head was spinnin' in a daze and I need to relax
So where's my chainsaw, butcher knife and muthafuckin' axe?
Something, someone
to help me with my brain cause it's fallen apart
I need something, someone
to help me with my brain cause it's fallen apart
I fall apart
I've fallen to pieces but I don't know why
It's all because
It's all because we're all afraid to die
And if you think
And if you think about it, it will eat you
From the inside out till you don't know what to do
You fall apart
I've fallen to pieces but I don't know why
It's all because
It's all because we're all afraid to die
And if you think
And if you think about it, it will eat you
From the inside out till you don't know what to do
You fall apart
I keep falling apart I never wanted to die. I keep falling apart.
I keep falling apart I never wanted to die. I keep falling apart.
I keep falling apart I never wanted to die. I keep falling apart.
I keep falling apart."
I smiled as I finished the song. Stopped the C.D and put the C.D back. I heard clapping from my door and turned to see Mokuba and Seto. Mokuba was clapping and Seto was staring mouth opened. Blinking I felt my face heat up. I had been so lost in the song that I hadn't heard the doorbell ring.
"You're a good singer Kess!" Mokuba said smiling as he let his hands fall down to his side. I wanted to speak, but I couldn't. The older Kiaba brother just kept staring. Being bold I decided to swallow my pride and talk.
"Thank you Mokuba. And Seto would you kindly stop staring at me?" I said calmly.
Seto shook his head and stood back up again.
"Did you mean everything you said in that song, because if I were you I would get help." Seto said still wide-eyed.
I got up to level with Seto Silver blue eyes meeting midnight, a serious expression on my face. "The only problem with that is...you're not me you of all people should understand that." I lowered myself and turned back around walking back to my bed. "So what do you guys want?"
Mokuba spoke up. "I wanted to in" Seto growled.
"Nothing! Forget it. Sorry Mokuba I'm not having her in my home." He grabbed Mokuba and walked off gracefully making the wrong turn and heading farther down the hallway making random turns trying to make it back to the front door. Quickly I ran to the open door and watched him get lost. Laughing I followed.
"Mokuba, do you remember how to get out of here?" Seto asked looking angered and confused. The younger Kiaba looked around and blinked.
"I think you went left instead of right big brother." He said innocently his eyes looking back.
I followed them in the sense to allow them to go back home and not sleep in the halls or the extra rooms tonight. Sighing I lifted my hand and ran it though my dark brown hair putting a stray piece behind my ear.
"Seto Kiaba!" I called out to him looking left then right seeing him turn around to see me a small look of relief on his face. "You're going the wrong way. Unless you want to stay in an empty room tonight I would suggest you follow me." Mokuba heard that and started running after. The older Kiaba just muttered to himself
"I could have found my way out on my own." And he followed as well.
As I slid down the banister into the main hall I looked back to see Mokuba follow suit. Smiling I jumped off and moved so Mokuba could do the same. As soon as Mokuba hit ground Seto appeared around the corner and started down the stairs. Folding my arms I waited getting impatient. Seto walked right past me motioning for his younger brother to follow. Turning I spoke a smiling tugging at my lips.
"Seto Kiaba. Always so serious and proper...a true gentleman at all times. Showing no emotion whatsoever" He stopped his fist clenching tighter and tighter he walked on. Satisfied I turned and started walking. Seto stopped and turned around to face my back.
"Kestrel Morgan, a true bitch in every way, how can anyone stand her? I think that's the real reason she's traveled the world. No one could stand her so they kicked her out of their country." With that he smirked and walked out. I went wide eyed and my tension and anger levels rose. I wanted to kill him. That bastard I calmed myself and cussed him out as I walked back to my room.
"He'll get his. Ill get him back for saying that to me. Bastard."
Meanwhile outside as Seto walked Mokuba had a worried facial expression.
"Big brother, that was a little mean I think you should go and apologize."
"Don't be a fool, Mokuba. She said all those things about me why shouldn't I do the same?"
"Because all those things she said." He stopped turning to look his brother who he cherished so much. It was hard to say, but he said it. "Were true. I don't know what has happened to you, Seto but I don't like it. Your heart has frozen. I like Kess. She's really nice to me. And if you can't see that...Then that's your problem!" He yelled and ran off to there mansion. Seto was standing there dumbfounded. Sage was watching the whole thing He was actually next to Seto grazing. He looked up and shook his head and snorted. Turning Seto looked at the beautiful stallion.
"What are you staring at?" He asked with a hurt voice. Sage only whinnied in response and cantered off to the back of the field.
I was laying on my back thinking of a way to hurt Seto. Something that was held special needed to be destroyed...or burned, but what? 'Maybe I could call Yugi to find out. I'm sure they have his number in the Directory.' I said to myself. I smiled as I slide off my bed and grabbed my backpack finding the large clump of papers. Shifting though papers I grabbed a stick of bubble yum, then grabbing the phone I dialed Yugi's number.
Well then. Isn't that nice? Kiss Kiss Kess is going to find out what Seto's prized possession is. Then what IS she going to do to it? Hmp. Hell if I know. I'm making this up as I go along. I kinda like this story. I still have no fucking reviewers. I'm going to go cry now. I feel so ignored. Well. Time to start working on the next Chapter, Review for me!...please?
