Chapter 11.

Hana

I lay on my bed gazing through hazy eyes at the grayish ceiling.it wa dark and dull like the rest of my room.It fitted my mood perfectly.Torhu...i thought.When i envisoned her hurt seeped through me.She does'nt care about me..only the somha's!she ditched me for them! i did'nt cry and never would have."i must be selfless.if torhu is happy that's all that matters"but the owrds were meanigless now.I had waited for an hour in the cold,fierce wind.Waiting to see her.Wanting to see her.It had been so long since we had talked..like an enternity.

She never showed up.She never called and eventually i had headed home.A knock on the door brought me out of my thoughts but i did'nt answer.Go away i thought willing the person o leave me in my misery.The knocking was countinual and demanding.Finally with an irratated sigh i pulled myself out of bed and opened the door.

It was torhu.She was out of breathe and pink.

"go away"i said and tried to slam the door.

"please let me explain"she said grasping the door so it would'nt close.

"no." memories crossed my mind over and over.Waiting.Wanting to tell her the exciting news.Bitter words and emotions spat from my lips as i spoke to Torhu " i waited for you for an hour.we had planned this so long ago!where to go and...i wanted to tell something in my life that acuatlly made me happy! but no all you do is spend your time with the somha's.I thought i was your best friend!did'nt we make a promise that we'd always take care of each other! tears slid down my cheeks, you don't care about me!you never did! I HATE YOU!"

Torhu stood their stunned and did'nt try to stop me when i slammed the door.I thrust myself on my bed and cried.Not sure if the tears were for me or Torhu.