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Last time
Once again Kouga woke up. This time he woke to the smell of meat cooking and soft voices talking. He looked around and noticed he was in a lodge. He felt the warmth of pelts covering his body. His body hurt, especially his backside, he groaned and closed his eyes remembering all the things that had happened to him.
"Kouga?" Hakkaku's voice called out to him. "How are you feeling?"
Kouga opened his eyes and turned his head to Hakkaku's voice. Kouga places his hand on his small round belly, "My body hurts." A single tear fell from the corner of his right eye, "How are my cubs?"
"Don't you mean, how are our cubs?" Kouga turned his head to look into the golden eyes of Inuyasha. Inuyasha kneeled next to the other side of him, looked down into his blue eyes.
Chapter 4
Kouga tensed hearing Inuyasha's voice rise in query. He did not want the half-demon to find out about the cubs this way. He quickly wiped away the tear rolling down his face away with the back of his hand and looked away.
The 'Mother' part of him was afraid of Inuyasha's reaction. What if the hanyou didn't want the cubs because they were now becoming his? The part of him that was a demon-wolf prince didn't give a damn about what the half-demon thought or said.
Hakkaku shook his head slightly, "We had to tell them everything, you were out for two days."
Kouga nodded, closed his eyes and inhaled a deep breath. His entire body ached, especially his ribs and bottom. His mind flooded with images of paint-streaked warriors swooping down on him, and golden brown eyes filled with confusion and concern.
Another voice from the side of the room got his attention, "Kouga? Do you remember what happened?" Kouga nodded but kept his eyes closed, "When you were brought here you were given a herb that helped you rest." Sango kneeled beside him and spoke softly, "When you were attacked, you got a few broken ribs, and your shoulder was displaced. The worst injury you have is from the rape, there was a bit of tearing, and because you are losing your demon powers it will take about a week to heal."
Kouga didn't want to hear about what had happened, all he cared about was the welfare of 'his' cubs. With effort he opened his eyes again to look at everyone in the room, "Are my cubs all right?" His voice tired and irritated for having to ask again.
"Both seem to have weak heartbeats according to Inuyasha and your friends. We thought we had lost them for a little while, but they are hanging on." Sango gave him a small smile.
"Why didn't you come and tell me about my children?" Inuyasha's voice questioned, laced with anger and worry, "They could have been killed because of you."
Kouga turned and looked at him with a scowl, "When I was running to save 'my' cubs lives, you were the last thing on my mind."
"Do you actually think I will let you have them?" Inuyasha yelled, "You can't even take care of yourself. How in the hell do you think you can take care of 'my' cubs?"
"I can take care of them a lot better than you can. I can show them how to act like a full demon, not like some half-breed mutt." Kouga tried to shout back, but his voice sounded like it was being forced through his dry throat.
"And what did being a full demon do for you? I had to come save your sorry bunch of full demon asses when you we getting ra . . . " Inuyasha got cut off when Sango slapped him upside the head.
"INUYASHA!" Sango stood in between Inuyasha and Kouga, "What the hell is wrong with you?"
"Don't yell at me. He wouldn't have run off without telling me about my and Kagome's children." Inuyasha glared around the exterminator at the wolf prince.
"You need to calm down, and Kouga needs to rest." Miroku firmly told the half-demon and grabbed him by the arm and pulled him out of the lodge. Everyone could hear the anger in Inuyasha's voice as he and Miroku talked outside.
Sango turned her attention back to the wolf prince, "Here drink this, then we will get you something to eat."
Hakkaku helped him sit up, then Sango held a bowl full of water to his lips. He gulped the cold water greedily.
"Drink it slowly," Sango admonished.
The warning came too late. Turning his head to the side, Kouga retched, then lay there panting, thinking he had never felt more miserable in his entire life.
Sango brushed his hair away from his face, then offered him another drink. Kouga rinsed his mouth out, then took several slow sips. When he was done, he looked at Hakkaku, "Are you guys all right?"
He nodded, "Ginta, Miki and the cubs are resting. We are lucky they came to help us, or we would have been killed." He said.
Kouga took a deep breath, let it out in a long slow sigh and thought 'There are worse things than death.' When Inuyasha and Miroku came back in he closed his eyes again. He knew someone was standing over him. He opened his eyes to find Inuyasha staring down at him.
"We will talk later," Inuyasha glared down at Kouga, who glared back, "for now I will let you eat and rest."
Kouga glared back, "We have nothing to talk about. As soon as I'm better, we're leaving."
"As long as you are pregnant with 'my' children, you will not leave this village!" Inuyasha told him then turned around and stormed out of the lodge.
"Don't worry about him," Miroku said, "He is trying to accept the fact he is going to be a father. And other things."
The growling of Kouga's stomach reminded him and everyone else how long it had been since he had last eaten.
"Here," Sango offered him a piece of meat, "You must eat something"
Kouga tried to raise himself up onto his elbows but failed and involuntary whimpered and grunted.. He lay there and began to eat from Sango's hand. Lying there, eating from her hand, took a hefty slice out of his pride, but he hurt too much to care at the time.
When Kouga finished eating, he moved tired eyes from one person to the next. He tugged the covers up to his neck. He ignored the pounding in his head, and tried to focus on his cubs. Moments later, he heard whispers, he chose to ignore them also and close his eyes and fall back to sleep.
The next day, Kouga was woken by Kaede saying she had to check him again. He still had trouble moving but it wasn't as painful as the night before. Kaede gave him herbs to relieve the pain and he often slept soundly. He couldn't do much but lie there and let his wounds heal. By the end of the week he was finally healed, but was still weak. He wanted to do things on his own, but no matter how much he fussed, someone was always there helping him, telling him not to overwork himself, trying to feed him, and treating him like he was about to break. With the exception of Inuyasha, they had all agreed not to bring up the rape, thinking Kouga would talk about it in his own time.
Inuyasha didn't believe he should baby Kouga, and when he did try to talk to the wolf prince, his confusion, and anger usually got the best of him. During the entire week their short yelling matches usually ended when Inuyasha stormed away, and Kouga was left upset and annoyed.
When Inuyasha and Miroku had to go to a neighbouring village for a few days, Kouga became very weak and ill, causing him to faint. When Kouga woke, he looked around and tried to remember how he ended up laying in Kaede's lodge. He was out with Hakkaku and Ginta gathering wood in the forest, after that his memories became very hazy. He placed a hand on his stomach and remembered the pain he had before everything went black. He sat up and looked down at his stomach, it seemed that had grown even bigger during the past week.
"Kouga, ye are awake" Kaede appeared in front of him.
Kouga nodded, "Yeah"
"How are ye feeling?" she asked handing him something to drink.
"Tired." Kouga said, wincing as sat up a little and reached for the drink Kaede handed him, "What happened?"
"You fainted out in the forest," Inuyasha came into the lodge carrying four small dead animals in his hand, "You've been out for the entire day."
Kouga nodded absentmindedly. He drank the beverage . Everyone started filling into the lodge to make sure he was okay. They asked him all sort of questions and when he was told he was getting weaker and that the cubs' heart beats dropped again, he closed his eyes, and instinctively wrapped his arms around his stomach. Everyone except Inuyasha, knew exactly what was happening with Kouga and even if he didn't want to admit it, he did too.
Inuyasha left the lodge after he put the animals down. Sango and Miki decided that it was time to go and talk to him about Kouga and his cubs.
Inuyasha sat outside with his face buried in his hands. He still hadn't accepted the fact that Kouga was going to be the mother of his cubs/children/pups or whatever they were. He hated being around the wolf prince, because he could still smell the last fading scent of Kagome coming from his body, bringing back memories and the feelings he was trying to forget.
He didn't even have a chance to know she was pregnant, the morning after they had mated the battle started and she and Kouga had switched bodies. He was surprised the cubs still carried her scent at all. He prayed to whoever was listening that the scent would go away completely, because smelling her scent even a little bit and seeing Kouga's black hair, that reminded him of Kagome's black hair, often turned him on.
"Inuyasha." Sango and Miki stood above him, interrupting his thoughts. "Can we talk to you?"
Inuyasha looked up at them, "What about?"
"The cubs." Miki said sitting down beside him. Sango sat down on the other side of him.
"I know you were not expecting anything like this to happen but it has." Sango started, "You need to know some things about male-demon pregnancies." She paused making sure she had his full attention. "I brought Miki out here to tell you some things that will help Kouga and your cubs survive."
"What do you mean? I thought they were going to be ok now that Kouga is safe" He sounded worried.
"They are dying along with Kouga…" Miki said sadly "You need to understand when two male demons have cubs together it's usually because they both really want it. There is always a dominant male and a submissive male and it always stays that way. A mating ritual is performed for pregnancy to become possible. The dominant demon will take the submissive demon and tie him down to an altar with his hands above his head. The entire clan will circle around them and start chanting. A witch demon will then give the submissive demon a potion to drink and wait for the dominant one to fully insert himself in the other's body, then she will start her incantation causing the submissive one's body to change and adapt to carry the life that will be growing inside. The dominant demon then starts chanting during mating and then he will draw symbols on the stomach of the submissive. The ritual will last as long as the dominant one does.
This only happens when the females of the pack are not able to produce male offspring or if there is no female's present. They usually use the lower class demons because they know they will submit easily and their off spring will be full-demons born of two males." She paused and took a deep breath, "Once the ritual is done, the submissive one is taken care by the dominant one until the cubs are born. During the entire pregnancy they must mate constantly and their physical contact can never cease with each other in order for the cubs to survive. The cubs need the strength; essence and energy form both parents. Male demons were not meant to carry cubs, so it takes both of them to sustain their offspring. If the dominant one is not around it will take all the energy from the one carrying them. Full demons cannot survive without their demon essences, or strengths. If they loose those, the end result will be the death of the carrier and the cubs. It is up to the dominant one if he chooses to make a mate out of the submissive one or not. If he does then they will continue to have cubs together, if he doesn't then another may take the submissive one and do as he pleases with him."
Inuyasha just looked at her like she had just grown another head, "Are you telling me that I have to perform some sort of ritual to save my cubs?"
Sango rolled her eyes, "Were you even listening to what she said?" She couldn't believe that he was that slow, "He is already pregnant so you got to have intimate contact with Kouga to save your cubs," she watched his face squinch up in disgust, "If you want your cubs to live, you will do it"
"I can't do what you are saying I should do. He is my enemy," He still looked like he was going to be sick, "He is… He is a 'he'"
"I cannot believe you are being so childish about all of this. We didn't think that Kouga would need you since you guys never did the ritual but he does." Miki's eyes began to turn red from her anger at him, "He lost everything to save those cubs, and now that they are dying you can't even do what it takes to keep them alive." She yelled and stood up.
"What do you expect me to do? I didn't want this to happen. He is the last demon I wanted to carry my babies." He stood also, followed by Sango.
"Then they will die." Sango said bluntly, "if you don't get over your animosity toward Kouga, then you will loose them."
Inuyasha looked at the two ladies and some how knew they were telling him the truth. He sensed the weakening state of his cubs and Kouga, but thought they would be fine if Kouga was taken care of by Sango and Kaede. Now he found out that the only way they will survive is if he is with Kouga.
"Will touching him be enough?" He asked them.
"It will help but he will need a lot more." Miki still frowned but she calmed herself enough for her eyes to change back to their natural color, "Coupling creates the largest amount of physical energy and love is the greatest emotional energy you can give." She added, hoping he would understand.
He closed his eyes and sighed. He wanted to ask why those other two wolves, Hakkaku and Ginta, couldn't touch and mate with Kouga but his little bit of common sense told him that if that had worked then the cubs would have been fine due to all the time they had spent together already. He opened his eyes, and knew he was the only one who could save his babies.
"How am I supposed to touch him and try to be intimate with him, I don't even like him?" He asked, getting angry and frustrated. "He was raped, do you actually think he will want me touching him after that?"
"You could start off by being nice to him, talk to him and gently touch him in places like his arm or hand." Sango suggested, and he frowned.
"Then you can move up to hugging and kissing," Miki added, and he looked queasy.
"Then you could start caressing him in all his special spots." Sango said, he grabbed his stomach.
"Yeah, and then you can lick and suck him all over, especially his nipples for those are really sensitive when you're pregnant." Miki told him, and he covered his mouth with his other hand.
"When it's time to mate just take it very slow, show him that you care about him," Sango said and he ran off toward the forest making gagging sounds.
They watched him run off and turned to each other, Miki asked "Do you think he will help Kouga?"
"Yeah. He may be an ass but he won't let them die. Its just going to take time for him to get use to the idea of being intimate with someone he is not too fond of. He will first have to help Kouga deal with the attack."
That is when they agreed that they would help Inuyasha and Kouga in anyway they could, then they walked back into the lodge.
After the half-demon had time to think, and Kouga was feeling better, Inuyasha started bringing the pregnant wolf-demon meat and berries every day. He even tried to touch Kouga on the hand a few times to see if what Sango and Miki said was true. Miroku said it was the most pitiful thing he had ever seen. Not thinking clearly one day, and without giving the wolf-prince any warning, Inuyasha reached out and tried to feel Kouga's stomach. . Not only did Kouga lashed out at him but also it started the argument and insults between them all over again.
Finally Miroku, Hakkaku, and Ginta were able to corner the hanyou, and talk to him. It was not easy due to Inuyasha's stubbornness. First they talked, then they argued, then Inuyasha and Hakkaku fought while Miroku and Ginta tried breaking them apart. Finally, after Miroku hit Inuyasha with his staff, the hanyou calmed down enough to listen. Hours later Inuyasha agreed that he would try again to be nice to Kouga, but only because he carried his cubs.
So Inuyasha tried to talk to Kouga about how he felt, but during their conversations Kouga completely ignored anything to do with his rape, seeming to go deaf if Inuyasha even tried to bring it up. The half-demon still didn't think he should be coddled so they often ended up sitting in silence.
Inuyasha would sit and stare at Kouga's stomach, when he did talk he would try to find nice things to say to the 'mother' of his children, like Miroku has suggested. He would tell Kouga things like 'You have big blue eyes', or 'You don't smell bad today.' That caused wolf prince to say something hateful to him, but he didn't react angrily. Instead, Inuyasha would look as though he was stung by Kouga's anger and sarcasm, not understanding why the wolf-demon didn't like his so-called compliments. In the end Inuyasha decided that he didn't know what to say to Kouga and went back to staring at his stomach.
It wasn't until Kouga began having nightmares that Inuyasha started to act like he cared for him. The wolf prince would dream not only about the attack, but also about Kagome coming back, and accusing him of stealing her babies, then she would take them away from him. He would wake up in cold sweats and wrap a blanket around himself shaking violently.
At first Inuyasha acted like he didn't hear Kouga wake up in the nights then his instincts told him he should try to comfort Kouga as much as possible. So he sat on the bed and slowly wrapped his arms around the wolf prince To his surprise Kouga allowed him to comfort him. Inuyasha sat uncomfortably holding him until he was sure he went back to sleep.
Not knowing that Sango and Miki already talked to the half-demon, Kouga never let Inuyasha know that he felt a lot better whenever he touched him, or that it was because of him that he was able to heal as fast as he did. When Inuyasha told him that the cubs' hearts sounded stronger, Kouga tried his best to keep the peace between Inuyasha and himself so that he would continue to touch him and help him get back some of his demon abilities.
At night Inuyasha continued to let Kouga sleep in his bed with him. When Kouga started whimpering and moaning in his sleep, Inuyasha would wake him up and try to speak to him, but he always refused to talk, then he would turn over and pretend to go back to sleep. After a few nights of this, Inuyasha became frustrated, because he didn't know what to do or how to help. Inuyasha had decided that he would protect Kouga as long as he carried his cubs but when it came to anything concerning the wolf's emotions, he wasn't any good with comforting him making most of his attempts to talk to Kouga awkward at best.
Inuyasha started to get concerned when Kouga didn't stop having nightmares. He talked to Miroku and Sango about what to do and they told him that he was doing a good job just being there for him, but he needed to make Kouga talk about what had happened.
So being his normal self, 'go into things mouth first', he approached Kouga and started talking. First he told him how happy he was that he saved the cubs, and that he wanted to help him. Kouga smiled a little, but When Inuyasha told him he needed to talk about the attack, Kouga stared hard at him, and then the wolf-demon felt his anger and shame creeping up inside of him and knew they would be arguing again soon. Before Kouga had a chance to snap, Inuyasha stopped him, by grabbing him by the arms.
"Everyone is worried about you. You don't sleep, you hardly eat, and you're getting weaker everyday. I don't know why no one will talk to you about the rape," Kouga tried to pull away, but Inuyasha held on to him firmly, " I know for a fact that there wasn't anything you could have done to stop what happened to you. I'm sorry you were hurt; but I'm not going to let you go on the way you have been." Inuyasha said harshly.
Kouga looked away and snorted in disgust, and Inuyasha reached out and dragged his face back.
"The rape was not your fault. It was done to weaken you." He paused "you will never be weak to me, you proved that by giving up everything for my cubs" He placed his other hand over Kouga's protruding stomach, "for our cubs"
Inuyasha then grasp Kouga's hands, "No one can change what happened, and by you not talking and laying around all miserable, you and our cubs are the only ones that suffers." Kouga frowned, "It has been hard for me to except this, but I'm here for you and so is everyone else." Inuyasha's voice softened.
Kouga gazed painfully into Inuyasha's eyes. The half demon could see the tear that ran down his face. "At first I only kept them because they were Kagome's, but…" Kouga's voice was just above a whisper, "But now I want them. I don't want them to suffer."
"Then you need to let me help you." Inuyasha let his hands go, and sat down on the bed. He looked at Kouga and moved over to give the wolf-demon some room. Kouga crawled into the bed next to him. Inuyasha put his arm around him, and they sat there feeling awkward. After a few moments Kouga's body began to feel boneless against Inuyasha's and he started to yawn.
"Um..." Inuyasha kept his gaze forward, "Miki and Sango told me what needed to be done to help you and our cubs.".
"We can talk about that later," Kouga said in a slurry voice.
"Later," Inuyasha said almost inaudibly.
Kouga drifted off to sleep curled up against the hard, lean body of the half-demon, thinking things weren't so bad after all.
TBC...
I haven't gotten a lot of reviews for this story so I am still really nervous about this whole ideal of Kouga being pregnant , it is so hard to write Kouga as the sub one and the one who got raped, especially when I hear his voice on the cartoon. For a long time I only seen him as the dom one so when I started this story I actually had to ask some guys how they would feel or act. I hope I did this chapter justice. I'll keep going and I hope that more people like the 4th chapter. Thanks to everyone who read and reviewed so far I hope to see more in the future
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