I never really missed having a mom until now. I mean I always felt bad at mothers day, and things like that, but until know I was aways fine with just sisters, and Grams when she's home. Prue isn't my mother, and never will be. But thats not a bad thing,... or is it? Never had I even wanted a mother, I mean I always wanted a mother, but I never wasted time wishing for one past the age of seven. It's not like I could magically bring her back. Now I want a mother. I wish I had one, she would understand why I'm acting this way, she would treat me right, and not bug me about how I dress, or who I like to hang out with. She would understand me.

"Paige!" I can hear Prue call, but she'll never find me. I'm lying under the porch. When Glen and I were five or six we used to play hide and seek, and I would always hide down here, and he would never find me. Then one day there was a spider, and I screamed and he came to 'save me'. That was the day Glen and I became 'best friends for life'. This was our special spot, and we would play under here and no one could ever find us. Then one summer we just stopped coming down here. Sometimes I come here to think though.

After a while Prue's voice fades and I can tell she has given up. Things have changed so much sinceI turned thirteen. Prue on her hunt to find herslef-through wicca or being a 'mom' to me. Glen, and school. I liked it better the way it used to be. I miss being a kid and having family dinners and all talking about good stuff then watching disney movies together.

"Paige!" I hear the screaming coming back.

"Where could she have gone?" I hear Piper say.

"You think we shoud call Grams?" Pheobe asks. How long have I been down here?

I wriggle out from under the porch and go inside through the front door because my sisters are looking for me in the back of the house.

"Paige is that you?" I hear Piper yell. She must have heard the door.

"Yeah, I'm going to shower" I say. I got very dirty and muddy from being under the porch.

"I think we should talk" She says

"I'm all talked out for the day" I yell back and rush upstairs to lock myself in the bathroom.


"Paige, your sisters say that you were gone for three hours earlier, and now you wont talk to them" Grams ambushes me when I come out of the bathroom.

"Yeah, so?" I say clutching my towel around me. I really don't feel like talking to anyone right now. I don't know why, but I just want to be alone.

"We're worried about you" Grams says

"Sory, I'll tell someone where I'm going next time" I say.

"Paige, I'd like it if you could talk to me or one of your sisters. You've become distant in these past few days" Grams says. Grams has always wanted a tight knitt family. I used to enjoy it, but now I wish they could all just leave me alone.

"Later" I say pushing past her and going into my room. Pheobe isn't in here thank god. I change into pajamas and get in bed. Even though I'm hungry because I missed dinner, and I know I am supposed to talk to someeone I decide to go to bed. I can't be bothered if I am asleep.

"Paige, Paige" I hear someone calling my name in the distance. It gets clearer and clearer until I open my eyes and see Prue. Well, I guess I was wrong I can be bothered while sleeping.

'No" I say shutting my eyes again. I open them a minute later and Prue is kneeling by my bed.

"Look, I'm sory. I know I'm not mom, and never will be, but I am worried about you" Prue says. Why is everyone all of a suddon worried about me?

"Sory for yelling at you, I don't know what came over me, but I just felt like suddenly angry" I say sitting up.

"Do you want to talk?" Prue says.

"Do I have a choice?" I ask. Prue doesn't answer, so I figure if I don't want to permanently damage my relationship with her I should talk.

"Where's Pheobe and Piper?" I ask.

"They went out for ice cream with Grams" Prue says. I guess I can talk to her if no one else is around, and it was nice of her to stay home to be with me.

"This is between you and me" I say. Prue nodds.

"So tell me whats making you so angry" she says sitting next to me. I turn to face her.

"I don't know" I say.

"Is school okay?" Prue asks.

"No, school is great. I mean exept for being in trouble" i say

"Why did you flick the teacher off?" she asks

"She was being a bi-" I stop myself," mean to me" I recover. Prue supreses a laugh.

"So?" she says

"I don't know, Okay? I don't know why I did it? Don't you ever just do things? It seemed right at the time" I say confused.

"That is never right" she says. I give her the finger. She laughs this time.

"You and Pheobe and Piper do it all the time. I'm not a kid, and you out of all people should know because you've been trying to get me to grow up forever. So please treat me like an adult, and don't try to shelter me" I say getting something off my chest that has been bugging me for a while. I feel a lot better, but I know there is more we need to talk about.

"Alright, but you still are a kid, I'm sill barely a kid. There are a lot more things coming, and since you don't have a mom to talk to seriously about it, I want you to be able to tell me." Prue says. I don't think it could get worse.

"Fine, but sometimes I just don't want to talk, and I want to keep some things private" I say

"Okay, where were you today?" she says.

"Thats a thing I want to keep private" I say

"Paige, we need to know where you are so we can make sure you are okay" Prue says

"I was around the house okay, I could hear you, and had I been in trouble amd screemed you could have found me" I say

"Fine" she says.

"Well, now that I'm awake,you want to take me to dinner" I say. I'm starved.

"Sure, we can go anywhere you like" Prue says.