Tony's hands were shaking, he felt so lost and broken, it was almost like he had been torn and was now bleeding upon the soft white sheets of the hospital bed. He sighed shaking his head, he was paralyzed, and he knew that but...was there more? His dark eyes slid down the sheet to look at the lifeless limbs that had once carried him. He shoke his head again, he couldn't think that way. If he started to think that he was useless he would be giving up and there was no way he was going to give up. He had alot to lean on, a family not his real family but they were close enough, and the one man that was more like a father to him than anyone.
The door slowly slid open and from it walked the form of Caitlyn Todd, he sighed and lowered his head. "I'm not much for visitors today Kate if you don't mind."
"Someone die or something?" She asked with a slight smile, though she felt the pang of guilt in her chest when his pained dark eyes hit her own. "Tony? What's wrong?"
"N..nothing...just having a hard time." His voice was still just above a croak though it was made worse by the fact that he had been crying since Gibbs had left some time the day before.
"Is it your heart? Cause if its your heart you should tell the doc..."
"Not the heart."
"Then what is it Tony?"
"Just...don't worry about it Kate go on and get to work you're going to be late."
With that he indignitly shut his eyes, barring her form from his view. Though his body language was saying that he wanted her gone, she remained. In fact she marched right up to his bed and promptly plopped her slender body down next to his waist. Her hand smoothed over his chest and sides before gripping his as she leaned over and spoke softly to him.
"Tony, whatever it is, you aren't alone. You never will be alone again, I promise you that this family will not foresake you."
"Kate...just...go..." He sighed and turned his head his torso turning with him, her hands gripped at his arm violently.
"No! I won't leave you, this team won't leave you!"
Tony gripped her hand, his eyes were streaming wet hot tears as he leaned up to kiss her gently. "Shh, hey its alright Kate. You don't have to leave." He ran his fingers through her hair, suprised she hadn't noticed the dead weight that were his legs.
"No..its not alright...I can't help you..." She cried her head falling upon his shoulder as she now laid acrossed his chest.
"Shh you are helping me more than you know, but you need to get to work and help people that are dying or already dead..."
"Tony...unless we get you a heart...you are dying too that means I have to help you." He sighed and kissed her forehead.
"Kate...I'm already dead."
