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Chapter Three- Destroyed
Who am I? I don't know. All I know is that hell rules my life. He rules my life. I tried to smile but the gravity of it kills me each time. Every moment, every day, goes unnoticed. My insides are empty my heart is punctured with thousands of needles but I don't feel them. I feel nothing but guilt. Most of my family has died and it's my fault. He tells me so every single day. 'You're nothing. Just drop dead. You killed them all! You're a worthless whore. You're nothing. Do you hear me? NOTHING!' I can do nothing but agree with him. I killed my family and the boy I loved.
Icy cold shadows from hell drop in every once. They try to feed off my fear and pain. But they go back to hell with an empty stomach because I have none of those feelings. I don't envy the people on the street when I see that they feel pain, fear, happiness and even the most forbidden of all feelings ...love. I don't envy them because they take advantage of their feelings. Stupid bakas. They can never appreciate a good thing that they have.
I can't lie to myself though. Maybe I do feel a little love. That is the only reasoning I have for not making my mother cry when I want to. That is the only truth I have to on why I visit the tombs of my family and the boy I loved every day. Or why I burn letters so they can reach them in whatever heaven they are in. The letters tell them every time how sorry I am for what I did to them. But maybe it's not love after all. It could be guilt. I don't know I don't really care. I haven't really cared about a lot of things for the past seven years.
When I was thirteen I got my first boyfriend and I lost my virginity to him. We did it all the time. Then after awhile lavender locks and blue eyes of endless seas haunted me. I felt that I had betrayed the boy I loved. So I ended the relationship with my boyfriend. He was heartbroken. He had truly cared for me and I had broken his heart. I wouldn't blame him if he hated him. I don't understand why he even cared. I was a heartless girlfriend, I never smiled, I never joked, and I didn't even show emotion when we had sex.
So after my whole 'sex phase' was over I moved on into my pot phase. I did it to smile again. I guess you could say it worked, but it only brought me fake smiles, never real ones. I liked the numb feeling it gave me. Bra joined me in it as soon as her sex phase passed over as well. We both went through everything together. We felt the same, acted the same, talked with the same dullness, and even thought the same. We basically were the same. He made us this way.
He caused our nightmares and our suicidal moments. In our dreams he raped us. It was so real that we considered ourselves raped. We woke up in the middle of the night sweaty but never fearful. It was so unreal. We liked it.
We liked feeling pain in our dreams because we actually felt. Eventually he caught on to our happiness. So he stopped. He still fed our guilt through our dreams. Telling us it was our entire fault. Who could disagree with him. It was true. When we woke up at night we felt a strange but distance surge of happiness. But it would go away as quickly as it had come. It was almost like we had a good dream, too good to be true, I know. Impossible. It could never happen. We give ourselves mental slaps every time we even think of it.
It's been seven years since the 'incident'. When he showed up. We don't give him a name. He doesn't deserve it. It may have been our fault that they died but it was his ki blast that destroyed them all. We've tried to escape him, seventeen times to be exact. But the woman in our family each time saved us. They felt our kis go down. We tried everything hanging, slitting, choking, poisoning, pills, jumping off of buildings, you name it we've tried it. We couldn't get our hands on a gun though. Who on Vegeta owns a gun. I mean we have ki blasts not guns. Since we have ki dampers on we don't have ki blasts.
We have to find a way off of this planet. He tries to convince us to steal the remote to the ki dampers and destroy everything we have tried to protect. His bond here is more powerful than anywhere else in the universe. Our grandmothers taught us many tricks. But we cannot block everything he says.We must escape. If it's not in death it's in escape. It's our only option...
"Pan we don't have much time till the sun rises. Run faster!" Bra whispered harshly, "We must protect Vegeta."
"I know that Bra!" Pan snapped.
The girls ran faster and faster to the secret caves. It wouldn't be long before Queen Neva and Futura woke up. They had to escape Vegeta, and him. They finally reached the caves when a yellow light took a peak at them over the horizon.
The secret cave held an emergency escape pod that Pan and Bra would have to share. Inside the cave it was damp and wet. Bra slipped in a puddle and pan tried to old on to the stalagmites.
"Where the fuck is it?" yelled Pan.
"Do you think I would know if I'm in the puddle Pan. Thanks for helping me by the way."
"Stop being such a bitch Bra I'm trying to hold on so I don't sli...wait I see something! There it is."
"Thank Kami. Now stop standing here and get me out of this fucken puddle."
"Stop ordering me around I'm in the same rank as you."
"Pan just shut the fuck up I'm tired of being wet!"
"Fine hold on."
"Okay you're up."
"Finally!"
"Hurry up Bra we have to get inside before Freeza wakes up too and stops us!"
"I'm coming."
The girls ran in to the pod. Both of them were skinny enough to squeeze in and have their own personal space. Pan pressed a red button on a key board.
"Welcome please enter destination." The computer rang out through the pod.
Bra typed out the word 'Earth' on the screen and pressed enter. The space pod began to launch itself.
"Wait Bra why earth?"
"Well we are half earthling. We should go to earth. I mean why not."
"You're right I guess. Maybe we could find this happy feeling we've been searching for."
"Maybe."
"Well goodnight Bra for the next month."
"Yeah same to you Pan."
Gas filled the chamber of the pod and the girls were instantly asleep. When they would wake up a new life would await them.
Back at the Palace-
"Should we chase after them your majesties."
"No."
"But..."
"Look Nappa we need to let them go." Said Neva.
"They need to be free I think they will be more safe for them and the planet." Futura added.
"What do you mean safe for them?" Bulma and Chi Chi cried.
"I don't think it's a good idea," added Videl.
"They've tried to commit suicide over a dozen times!" yelled Ayla.
"No they didn't," said Neva and Futura.
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!" Bulma screamed out.
"YOU WERE THERE EACH TIME! BOTH OF YOU!" Chi Chi screamed too.
"We know you two. Please calm down." Said Futura.
"Things are more than what they appear to be sometimes. What you saw seemed to be suicide but it was more than that. It was their way of escape. Ever since Freeza possessed them they've been prisoners of their own minds. They are also afraid. But they will never admit their fear of losing us. They seem emotionless but we must remember Freeza made them this way. If they leave this planet Freeza will lose half of his power towards them. They may find peace after all." said Neva.
The inhabitants of the throne room didn't question the queens. They were right. Maybe the girls could find peace after all. Every therapy lesson they tried didn't work. In fact, all of their therapists had given up on them. They were going to die soon anyways. The doctors had said it could be a rare heart disease. But their families knew better. It was because they had lost their will to live. Maybe the girls could find a will where ever they would go...
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