Title: Moment of Decision
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Rating: PG
Words: 100
Disclaimer: Not mine, they're Whedon's. sob
Written for: LJ Community Challenge100's "all is not lost" drabble challenge
Notes: Spike's thoughts directly after the attempted rape in "Seeing Red."
What in the hell had I been thinking? Well. That was the problem, wasn't it? Thinking hadn't had anything to do with tonight.

Not a monster, not a man. This sodding chip has made me weak--vulnerable to Buffy. But my demon makes it impossible for her to love me. And after tonight, she'll never trust me again.

Unless.

I've heard about this demon. In Africa. He can do things. He can make me what I was. She'd have to love me then, right? If I did that for her?

All is not lost. Not by a bloody long shot.