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Chapter Fifteen: The Unknown Past and the Known Future:

Her cheeks are pale ice caps of mountains and her lips are open white crevasses in the ice. Her skin is the texture of a cold cloth. She has disappeared from this world. The happy world she calls a home. How is it possible to lose something you cherish most in this place you call a home. You were supposed to protect her and care for her and instead you failed her.

Time is lost into oblivion as I watch her every move. If only she moved at all. If only she would squeeze move hands that fit like a puzzle piece into mine. The ache spreads through a shattered heart… my shattered heart. I long for those black eyes to gaze into mine again, making me whole and complete. Those black holes know every move I'm going to make and every thought I wish I had.

Forgive me my love I have failed you my Panny. No don't forgive me save your apologies for someone who deserves them. I have failed you. My life, my love, my Pan, I love you. Please come back. Cause god only knows I'm dieing without you.

I can't sleep at night without the scent of your smooth black hair, or that beautiful body within my arms. I'm so lost without you. She grows inside you everyday and I cannot even lie next to you to watch you both. All of us growing together, forever. Your heart no longer beats next to my chest. That same heartbeat that gives me assurance that we are together for another day is gone.

You tried. You tried to stay with me, and to stand by my side forever. I saw the blood escape from your hands that were clenched in fear. I saw the love in the depths of your eyes. I saw the look of determination that crossed your face as you left this world, my world, and our world.

You've been fighting for years and I'm sure you wonder when it's going to stop. When the chaos and tragedy that rules our life will end? I can't set a time limit. Because the time we once knew is lost. But I know our destiny and our will. I pray you come back to me. No! You will come back to me. I need you.

I'm in love with you baby please come back to me.

"Hey Trunks?" a voice interrupted his thoughts.

"What?" he growled.

"I was talking to one of Pan and Bra's psychiatrist…"

"Yeah so?"

"Man shut up just trying to help…look they said that if you talk they can hear you."

"Then tell me why isn't she talking back." Trunks yelled and growled in frustration.

"Look man she was my cousin before she was your mate! I don't know how it will help but sitting around moping around and not taking action isn't going to help! I love Panny dearly and if you love her too you'll do everything possible to bring her back!"

Trunks sighed. He knew he was right. "I'm sorry Spiziker. I'm just …scared. I've never been this scared before in my life."

"I feel you man."

"So what did the psychiatrist say?"

"They said to talk to her a lot. Maybe she will respond. She's stuck in a coma. Or at least that's what Dr. Gen and Shaper say. But Mrs. Willow, their psychiatrist, says that they are stuck in a different world and they don't know how to get out. We need to guide them out."

"How do we even do that?"

"Well I asked her that question too…"

"And…"

"The Diary."

"No."

"Trunks…"

"N-O no. Absolutely not. Pan and Bra said they did want anyone going through their diary. It was a memory of the past. I heard some of it. And it was horrible."

"Trunks it maybe the only way we can get them out."

Trunks sighed, ready for defeat. "Are you sure this maybe the only way?"

"Yes. Think about old movies we used to see Trunks. You know where people would be stuck in their own worlds and people would have to get them out. It was like their whole world was something like a huge metaphor. Well Mrs. Willow thinks the same thing."

"Ok."

"Ok what?"

"God Spiziker! Are you really that dense? I give permission to read the diary. Just bring it to me. We'll all read the entries together."

"Man you do know this is the right thing, right?"

"I wouldn't bring that stupid thing out if it wasn't the right thing to do."

"Good. Where is the diary now?"

"On their old room on the bed."

"Alright I'll get it."

Spiziker left the room at a running pace to gather everyone and the diary. Trunks was left behind, alone with Pan. Or at least that's what he thought. In the corner lurked a shadow of a man that he grew up to know as father.

Vegeta watched his son grieve over his lost mate. Normally by now Vegeta would have dragged him into the training room and taught him a lesson about showing such weakness.

But he knew this was different.

He recalled such a time in his mind when his son was born. He remembered when he first laid eyes on his son. He himself thought he was seeing this. His son was born with purple hair and his eyes contained the beautiful blue deepness as the ocean, same as Bulma's.

At that time they were all still on earth before they had wished back planet Vegeta. At that time Vegeta still harbored the evil he had for so long in his body. However, Vegeta knew that his evil started to slowly evaporate from his heart when he had moved in with the blue haired goddess.

Bulma.

He wondered why she even put up with him sometimes. He knew that he himself was impossible to deal with. He didn't know when he fell in love with her. Actually he did. He figured it out when he saw her crying that one night when she got home from that date she had with the turd…

Flashback

Vegeta had just finished training in the GR. It was three o'clock in the morning. He needed at least three hours more sleep until he could start training again at six. As he walked past the woman's room he heard a sound he thought he could never hear from her.

Crying?

Without even thinking he opened the door to her room. Bulma looked up immediately at the sudden sound and saw the flamed haired man before her.

"VEGETA GET OUT OF MY ROOM!"

"Woman have you been crying?"

"GET OUT!!!!!!!!"

Vegeta ignored her and went over to her.

"Why have you been crying?"

"That's none of your business asshole. Look since you're staying her in MY house then the least you could do for me is just leave right now."

Vegeta felt something ache in his chest. He decided to ignore it. It was just probably something from training hard.

"Woman my payment to you for staying here is destroying those androids. Now tell me why you're crying."

"Look prince of all assholes, why do you even care? You don't even have a heart."

Vegeta felt that ache increase again. He needed to take some Advil or something now.

"Woman out of all the times I've yelled at you, made fun of you, and played tricks on you, you never once have cried. Not a single drop. What has made you cry now?"

"Oh I get it. You have hurt pride now. Someone has made me cry and you haven't."

"I have never had the intention to make you cry. I never even had the craving. Stop playing these games with me. But now I know someone has made you cry. Someone. Who is it and why? I don't want you hear those sobs when I'm trying to sleep."

"Well if you must know I broke up with Yamcha tonight."

All the sudden Vegeta didn't need Advil anymore.

"Can you leave me alone now?"

"Not until I know why."

"Jesus Christ Vegeta when are you ever going to leave me alone."

"Well stop stalling and this will go faster onna."

"I had to use the bathroom at a gas station about a mile from here when Yamcha was driving me home. So I went to the bathroom and when I came back he was…"

"Woman come on I'm tired get out with it."

"He was having phone sex with some girl on his cell phone!" she practically screamed out.

She started to cry some more.

"Get out Vegeta."

"I don't understand." He said confused.

"Understand what?" She snapped at him.

"How is it possible to be with some one and then be with another?"

"It's called cheating Vegeta."

"I've never heard of it."

"How have you not heard of it? I'm sure you've cheated on somebody before. I mean you are the biggest jerk I've ever met in my entire life."

"Onna I honestly don't think that ever happened on planet Vegeta."

"What do you mean?"

"Well if you were mated on my planet you were mated forever."

"Well that doesn't happen on this planet."

"Why not?"

"I don't know Vegeta. People get divorced or break up. It happens."

"This planet is retarded."

"What…"

"I'm sorry but if you vow to somebody shouldn't you stay with them?"

"Vegeta, Yamcha and I didn't make any vows…"

"But you were in a relationship that you'd hope end up in mating."

"You mean marriage. I know. Well it's over no. And I've given up on men. The only thing they're good for is sex."

"Woman…" Vegeta's voice was threatening.

"Shut up Vegeta. You know that women are only a good lay to you."

"We'll see about that."

"Oh really?"

"Really."

Before she could say another word Vegeta kissed her and it took off from there…

End of Flashback

That was the night she became pregnant with Trunks. He'd never forget that night. He had fallen in love with her. He loved his family more than anything. But he'd never admit it. He'd deny it to his death. He would never say those three words to her but he should her he did every chance he got. Actions were more powerful than words to him.

His son however was different. He knew that. He told Pan every chance he got. Vegeta knew it was time for a father/son talk right now.

"Brat."

"Hello Father."

"I want to see those journal entries."

"Are you sure?"

"Pan and Bra's brains were practically merged together for years. I want to know what my daughter was doing. As well as my daughter-in-law."

"It's hard to listen to."

"I'm not weak boy I can take it. It's not like they wiped out entire planets like I have."

"I know."

"Boy she's going to be ok."

"How do you know?"

"She is like her father that's how I know."

"That doesn't tell much. Besides it's not like you care too much anyways."

"Don't even take that tone with me boy! Look if she dies you die. It's plain and simple."

"What are you talking about?"

"If she dies you die. That's what happens with mates."

"I highly doubt that you would die if mother did father."

"I wouldn't but I would want to. See your mother and I had you and Bra. If mates produce children they won't die if one does. You and Pan have made no children."

"I won't die if Pan does father."

"Boy are you that stupid? YOU WILL DIE! YOU HAVE PRODUCED NO CHILD TOGETHER."

"Father come here."

"Boy I don't have time for your fucken games."

"Father, please."

Vegeta sighed and walked over to Trunks and his sleeping beauty.

"Yes?" Vegeta grumbled.

Trunks didn't say anything. He grabbed his father's hand and shoved it onto the area over Pan's lower stomach.

Vegeta's eyes widened and his heart skipped a beat.

"Kami." Vegeta almost whispered to himself.

"Her name is Kayma." Trunks said quietly.

"You already have the name for your unborn daughter?" Vegeta said quietly as well.

"Yes."

"Did Pan choose that name?"

"Yes."

"It's a good name."

"I thought so too."

"So this is why her ki has been so high?"

"Yeah the doctors haven't figured it out yet. I told them she was going through her period."

"The baby's ki is very strong. How many weeks is she on?"

"Two weeks."

Vegeta's eyes went wide. You couldn't read a ki at two weeks. It was impossible.

"Boy that's not."

Trunks cut him off.

"When the legends come to our blood and their children bore, four will come and even the score. Years of separation shall come to an end two royals shall become one and mend. Love shall prevail again."

Vegeta was silence for a minute.

"Have already forgotten father? We were meant to be. So were Goten and Bra."

"Boy the last time I heard the prophecy was when you were three. When was the last time you heard it?"

"Twenty-one years ago."

"You remember that?"

"I will always remember that day. It was April 18th, 2008. I was three and that was the day Pan and Bra were born. I stole Pan from her hospital crib and Goten stole Bra."

"You're right. The children you four produce will be the strongest this universe has ever seen. I'm guessing she'll be a super Sayain by the time she's five."

"I was thinking that too."

"Are you going to tell anyone else?"

"Nope. I don't plan on it. The doctors will find out anyways."

"You do know that a Sayain pregnancy is different than a human pregnancy right?"

"Yes Father," Trunks sighed, "The baby will be here in about three months."

Before Vegeta could even respond the door to the patient's room burst open with Spiziker entering breathless and with a black book in his hand.

"I got it and everyone else."

Everyone on both sides of the family entered the room as well. The soundproof plastic barrier was pushed aside only to reveal Goten and an asleep Bra on the other side.

"Give me the diary. I'll read it."

Spiziker passed the diary to Trunks.

"We ready to start?"

"Yes." The whole room practically answered.

"Ok get ready for the creepiest stories you've ever heard." Said Goten.

"Shut up, man." Teabin said as he elbowed him.

"Ok I'm starting."

Trunks took a deep breath. This was the hardest thing he could do. Looking into their terrible, horrifying past was already terrifying enough.

"Ok you've all already seen the first entry obviously. Everyone has. It's the only entry that the psychiatrists have copies of. So I'll start with the second one."

He sighed again. This was going to take awhile.

"Dear Diary,

The Darkness should not make us afraid of what's around us. The light helps us see but do we really see? Do we see the emotions of others? Or are we truly blinded by the shells of others. In the dark we're all the same. Things can be heard but faces are not seen. The dark casts your emotions away from your bodies so that others can hear the truth.

But what if you have no emotions? What if the darkness cast every emotion you once recognized as happiness, or sadness? What is left? Are you apart of the light or dark? The answer is neither. You're stuck in the gray. The doldrums except without the depressive states. There's a dark though. The tall trunks of trees tower over you. They are guarding. Not us. They're guarding the skies from letting any emotions strike down to us.

Some would say this is a horrible fate. But what about those who have to emotions? Should they feel the same way? No. They can't. We can't. We never will.

Sincerely,

Gray Nothingness"

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