Disclaimer: I do not own this show or the characters. It belongs to Mr. Warburton and co.

A/N – EDIT:This chapter used to contain lyrics by Green Day to set the mood, but I recently discovered that lyrics written by others cannot be used in fanfics. So that's why this chapter seems a little bare.

When love's not enough

Chapter 5

I walked down the street, finally, after picking myself off the ground. I was feeling terrible, my heart aching. You know, it's true what they say about getting your heart broken. It's not just a figure of speech. My chest hurt. I felt that my heart was bleeding.

I'd decided to walk around aimlessly, just to try and calm myself down. Not that it helped. I was now freezing because my clothes were soaked. My shoes were filled with water, and my hair was a mess. But I didn't care. I was to hurt to care. I just felt like walking.

It was late now. It was dark, except for the streetlights, lighting up my path as I walked. I had no idea for how long I'd been wandering about the neighborhood. The rain was about to stop falling form the sky. Whatever… I put my hands in the pockets of my wet pants and lowered my head even more.

I wondered what Kuki was feeling right now. Was she thinking about me? Thinking that I was the biggest loser in the universe? I let out an irritated growl. I felt so lonely…

No, worse than lonely. I felt like a wreck! My life was officially screwed up, thanks to my big mouth and my stupid consciousness. I just wished that I could turn the time back, making sure that I never ever said what I had said. If I hadn't said it I wouldn't have been there I was at this moment, feeling sorry for myself. I felt sick to my stomach, and suddenly felt like throwing up.

The others would laugh at me if I told them about what I'd said. Numbuh 1 would probably think I was being silly. Numbuh 2 would think I was stupid to actually have feelings for Kuki in the first place. He'd frown at me and tell me to get over it. Numbuh 5 would also think I was stupid. How could I ever face them again if they happened to get to know about my shameful secret? Kuki had probably already told them. Since it was getting so late, they were probably wondering about where I was.

For how long would this stupid event haunt me? For how long would I see the images of me making a total ass out of myself in front of her pop up in my mind? I sighed and leaned my head back to let the silky rain cool my face.

Why did she react like that? It was as if she'd rather die than become my girlfriend! Or was that just all in my mind? She could at least have reacted in a different way! Didn't she understand that I liked her? No, that's right, she didn't… She had laughed at me! That seriously hurt. She thought I was joking or something. And she was worried about me liking her! What the crud? My sorrow turned to anger now.

What if she liked a guy, and when she told him about her feelings he'd turn her down? Wouldn't she feel the same way I was right now? At least, I didn't think life could be any worse. I mean, I loved her. Maybe not that obvious right then, but I still loved her. So I felt like most of my life was ruined, and that there was nothing left to live for. Now, I'm not the suicidal type, but I kinda started to think about what Kuki had done if I disappeared. Would she be sorry about what she'd said? Would she feel as alone as I did now? Would she at all understand that it was her fault I was gone..?

Not only was my heart broken. My dream about being Numbuh 3's boyfriend had shattered. It was now only a broken dream. And it hurt. It hurt really badly. I had no idea love could hurt this much! If you've never ended up with a broken heart before, you have no clue what this really feels like, and be happy you don't!

Now that my heart was broken, I actually felt better when I blamed Kuki for this. I knew it wasn't a nice thought, but how could I possible think anything nice about her now? Her pretty face, her raven hair, her violet eyes that sparkled so enthusiastically when she was happy…

Argh! Shoot me! Just freaking shoot me!