Title: Lonely Heart
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Rating: G
Words: 100
Disclaimer: Not mine, they're Whedon's. sob
Written for: LJ Community Open On Sunday's 80's Challenge.
Notes: Inspired by the song "Owner of a Lonely Heart" by Yes, the #8 song of 1984. Buffy's POV, sometime in Season 6.
Spike loves me.

No matter how much I deny it, I know he does. He's proved it often enough, before and after Glory. He protected Dawn, almost with his unlife, he patrolled when I was dead, and he helped my friends. He didn't have to do any of that. But he did, because he loves me.

But I can't let myself love him back, can't let him in. Love just hurts way too damned much. I loved Angel. I loved Riley. Look where it got me.

Loneliness is numbing, but it hurts less than loving and getting your heart shattered.