This is a companion piece to "He lingers on"
The will of the force
The only thing I hear as I fall is the terrified voice of my padawan. The young man who is my son in all ways but one. The son I hurt, again and again and yet always forgave me, without a thought. The pain I feel from the wound, subside as his feelings reach me through the bond. He is afraid. That is evident. Don't be afraid my padawan "fear leads to the dark side" this he has been told more times then I can count. And I feel it now, as I lie dying. I feel the darkness rising inside him, nesting in his heart, tainting it with hate. And in my mind I beg. Plead the force to save him. To remove the darkness from his soul. My Obi-Wan has always been a child of light let him stay that way. Let him continue to shine with his own light and let the hurt bathe in its brightness. The force doesn't let me down I know this as I feel the sith diminish. I hear his footsteps, and feel my head get lifted of the ground.
All my life I've followed the will of the force. Going against the council if that is what was needed. Always knowing that when I my time was up, I would become one with the Force. And now in my last minutes, with the Force calling for me to come home, I wish I could stay. Stay with Obi-Wan who has tears rolling down his face. But nothing can save me now; we both know this, even as he desperately tries to hold onto me. How I wish I could hold on. At least long enough to tell you all the things you need to know. Force, there are so many things I wish I could tell you. How much I love you, how proud I am of what you are and what you have accomplished. I wish I could say that you were the one that brought light back into my life, that you taught me how to trust again. And that you showed me that I could be trusted. That I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you, and that I forgive you for all the times you hurt me. And yet, what I want to say is not important. It's what I have to say, that matters to the greater good. So I tell you to train Anakin. I trust you with this great assignment. He will be of importance in the future. He is the chosen one.
I see your pain in your eyes, and feel it echo across our bond. And I know that I hurt with these last words. I know you ache for some advice. It will be the last time I hurt you, my padawan. I feel my grip on life slipping and I reach up to touch your face, wiping away some of the tears. I hope you understand as I send my feelings for you through the force, that our bond isn't already dormant and broken. That you understand that you matter.
All my life I've followed the will of the force, and do now too, despite the wish to stay. To stay with him, my apprentice, my padawan, my son.
The end...
