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I'm really glad that you like the story
10. Questions - and the answers?
When Pony came to the front door he saw his brother Darry sitting on the table with some bills.
He really didn't seem to notice Pony.
Pony looked at him for a while and then he began timid, "Darry?"
"Hmm?" came as answer, but Darry didn't look up.
"Darry, ya see me?" Pony kept on asking.
"Yeah." Darry answered, but still didn't look up.
"Ya really see me?" Pony repeated.
There Darry looked up and watched his kid brother frowning with a confused glance.
"Pony, why ya askin' me such a thin'? Of course I see ya!" Darry wondered what the whole thing was supposed to mean.
"If ya see me the way, other people see me, how come that some overlook me and ignore me and even despise me?
Am I a bad person?
Is this why they despise me?
Did Mom and Dad have to die for that reason?
Am I to blame for their death?"
"Pony, what's that supposed to be?
Who despises ya?
What are ya talkin' 'bout?
What makes ya think such rubbish?
And don't start with that again. Of course their death ain't ya fault. Ya have nothin' - nothin' at all - to do with it.
But we explained this to ya so many times! Don't ya understand that?" Darry said and would hug his brother.
But Pony yielded back and screamed now completely furious, "No, ya don't understand! Ya understand nothin' at all! Ya ain't interested in me. Ya don't care 'bout me!"
Then Pony turned around and ran out of the house.
Darry stood there as turned into stone.
What was just the matter with his brother?
"Pony! Ponyboy, stay here!" he called after his brother, but Pony wouldn't stop.
Pony ran back to the brothel again.
He had tried to get rid of this feeling.
That's why he would start a talk with Darry, but he only thought about Selena.
And so he couldn't manage a reasonable talk, but only a mess, what was expressed through his feelings.
"Darry? What's up? Was that just Ponyboy?" Soda asked sleepily and appeared behind Darry, who stared to the door frowning and completely confused.
"Yeah. Come on, Soda. We've to go behind him. Somethin' ain't right with him!"
And the both already started running.
They ran straight to the lot, because they thought he would be there where Johnny would be, too.
But when they arrived there they only found Johnny.
"Hey Darry. Hey Soda. What's the matter?" Johnny asked, when he noticed the both brothers, which looked around the lot quite worried.
"Johnnycake, is Pony with ya?" Soda asked worried.
Johnny shook his head.
Do they perhaps know now? Should I tell 'em now 'bout it? Johnny wondered and he really began, because he saw the worry in Soda's eyes, "He... he ain't been here any more for quite a while..."
"What the heck do ya mean? He always said he would go to ya..." Darry turned to Johnny.
Johnny winced.
There he had caused himself a glorious mess now!
Now he had to tell the truth, if he would it or not.
Darry would stick to his guns until he finally heard what he wanted to know.
Now he had to say it, even if he would betray and disappoint Pony with that now.
But there was no other way for him.
He just couldn't lie!ยด
And so Johnny gulped and told the both about Selena.
