krista: well, hate to say that, but yeah it WAS the ending :(
I'm sorry...
anyway, thanks for your review :)

well, and here comes the last chapter...


14. Epilogue

Ponyboy was despaired and didn't know what he should do without Selena.
His life was empty again without her and he missed her completely.
He really wouldn't mind, if he also would have died. Then he would be in heaven at least.
And then he could see his parents and also Selena again.

But it seemed that he should live on...

And make something of his life.
It still had further surprises ready for him, cheerful ones in the same way as sad ones.

Ponyboy thought very much after Selena's death; about his life, about death...
His brothers and friends would say it would be unnecessary things he thought about, but they just seemed to be important for Ponyboy.

Why should you still go into any relations at all?
You only will be disappointed anyway again. Open your heart to someone and they already leave you!

And so Ponyboy got into his work and brought good grades home only to forget the pain.

But how can you forget that you are what you are, if you will be shown permanently what you are?

How can a Greaser forget that he is a Greaser, if he's shown permanently by the Socs that he is a Greaser?

So you probably should be contented with that what you have and who or what you are and not constantly regret, what you don't have or who or what you not are.

And so Pony began to accept that he was a Greaser; even if he couldn't be proud of it right away, in contrast to Two-Bit, Dally or Tim Shepard.
He still tried, whatever, to see the good in people and in things.

So he read, painted and watched the sunsets full of admiration.
And every time he saw the golden sunlight he thought to recognize Selena's face in it.
So he watched sunrise by sunset and slowly the pain about the loss of Selena and the parents dried up and he became cheerful and bright again.

THE END


A/N: Thanks to all those who reviewed this story and also thanks to those who read it so far :)
and sorry once again for my bad grammar and the errors and so on, but as I said english isn't my native language...