Author's notes: Hello everyone, and thanks for reviews! First off, thanks for the comments and suggestions. I think Tristan's baby will have the pointy hair. Of course the apple doesn't fall far from the tree so… Second of all, I don't think I'll have Seto dying so soon in the story. What fun would that be? You can't really die from falling asleep while drunk, and Seto has a pretty high tolerance level. Anyways, the way this story is going so far, is that they all seem to be falling apart. Who knows what'll happen in the end. Write more reviews and comments. Thanks, mirage.

Disclaimer: Do not own Yu-gi-oh.

Rated for: Language

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Luminance

I woke up today and the first thing that came to my mind when I opened my eyes was 'justice hath come at last, I am ultimately dead'. Yet something felt out of place. 'If I am now lifeless,' I thought, 'why am I staring at white?' I always knew that when I die, I'll most likely end up in hell for all I have done during my worthless life.

I then looked around, and what I mistook as 'life after death' was indeed my own bedroom. My body was aching in all kinds of odd places considering that I slept on a cold hardwood floor, probably tossing and turning all night. Alcohol does have that strange affect on me.

Once again, I assumed I was dead, but no such luck, for I have as usual found myself looking up at my white ceiling after a night of long, nonstop drinking. Someone up there or down there really doesn't want me dead.

I sigh with frustration. I feel better now, or sober at least. Pushing away unhappy memories of the past two days I ran my fingers trough my slick, brown hair, and though about what exactly am I going to do. And in that prospect, I don't mean only with my day, but my life. After all, I have nothing now and seeing how it's that I'm probably going to have to die of natural causes, there's one hell of a long life to live.

What would be the point returning back to school and work anymore? Why did I continue going there after my sunshine's death anyway? There's truly no reason. Perhaps I should think of returning like Pegasus on his stupid island. But than again, if I ever end up like Pegasus, I'd probably suffocate myself. I'm surprised why they didn't lock that old, gray-haired psychopath up yet.

That old bastard. I should have locked him up myself a long time ago because of all the pain and suffering he caused Mokuba. That once again proves how mindless and selfish I have become. I have always felt sorry and guilty about that time in Duelist Kingdom. It has become even more unbearable after his death.

Guilt that is.

I feel guilty for so many things, and yet so many of them I'll never be able to correct. I have always taken much of my life for granted, always working and busing myself with what back then seemed important. But now, I find myself opening my eyes to things that truly matter. Ironically I am opening them too late.

Too late to show them to my brother, too late to experience them myself. The most unfortunate and pathetic part is that it took my own brother's death for me to understand all of this. That's what hurts the most. It is true that one can never know what he has until it is lost. I lost everything, and finally realized that all that I had, all that I needed to be happy was a just one touch away. Now, that touch is nearly impossible. It is not realistic with all that I have myself destroyed. And I find myself reaching an abysmal precipice of darkness and despair. It sucks me in, and yet no one hears, not even looks up as I scream hopelessly for help. And I realize that this is the end.

And yet, what is it an end of? My life? My hope? I have reached a dead-endbut I keep living. Why? I cannot think of one remotely close answer to that question. I also cannot find one thing I can do now. There is nothing now.

Another troublesome matter that bothers me as of late is that I'm now very close to getting locked up with the psycho Pegasus. I know I will be if they find me talking to myself. Then again, I am so lonely that I'm my only company now. No one else to communicate with. I might as well be locked up in a cell block.

The phone starts ringing. I probably shouldn't pick it up, but I do it anyways. 'Mr. Kaiba, thank goodness I finally reached you. We're all so worried about you. You didn't come to the office, and we thought something might have happened and since your brother's accident you haven't been yourself and –' before he could utter another word I slammed down the phone and threw it furiously into the nearest wall.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW ABOUT IT, HUH?" I screamed. "YOU DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ME !" Tears of anger and despair were funning down my white cheeks, as I broke down and fell on the floor.

"I hate all of you! None of you get it! Than I just screamed and screamed in pain throwing anything within my reach at the walls, the door, just anywhere. I felt my fury growing into utter madness.

'They all left me! They all abandoned me! All of them!' I threw another vase into the wall watching it shatter as the pieces of glass fell on the floor.

"EVEN YOU LEFT ME, YOU BITCH!"

'Nooo' I thought 'not for long. Nobody abandons me and gets away with it. I'll kill all of you if I need to, and then I might as well go to hell.' I held on to the desk as I was trying to get up.

'You all think you're so smart, huh? You all think you, can just walk away from me? I'll show you. I'll show all of you how not to fuck with Seto Kaiba. You'll be begging for mercy at my feet. You and your moronic little friends Yugi. You'll all suffer like I have suffered. Ohh yes I'm done crying, this is the last straw.'

I finally got up and opened the shelf in which I put the clip from my gun yesterday. I snapped it back into the gun and looked at it.

'Yes, that's what I'll do. If I can't be happy no one will. I'll get back at all of you.'

I put the gun into my trench coat while putting it on. I smiled sadistically, as a new, strange feeling washed over me.

'I'm doing this for you, Mokuba, little sunshine. We might be together sooner than I thought.' I kissed Mokubas' picture that hung around my neck and went out the door.

'Yami, come out, come out, wherever you are.'

To be continued…

Hey, read and review! Sorry I haven't updated for so long, but no ideas came to my head. I decided to give a new direction to the story, 'Kaiba's gone insane'. Because of his nervous breakdown, he now wants to kill everyone. Anyway, thanks for reading.

Until next time.

kisses,

mirage