Title: Our past, Our present, Our future.
Disclaimer: I don't own, you don't own em yada yada yada yada ya.
(No seriously I don't anything..)
Summary: A flashback in time.. to when Gil and Catherine first met,
and the events that led them to where they are today.
It's be done before..but I'm doing it again! (heheh)
Chapter 5
"Do you ever miss it?" Catherine asked handing the cup of coffee she got from the break room.
Gil looked up from the book and took the mug she was handing him. " Miss what?"
"High school..seriously. there were bad times but in general would you ever go back?"
Gil shrugged " I never really thought about. I mean there maybe things that I would have wanted to do different but then the outcome at the end would be different so honestly I don't think I would want to go back. I like being here now. " he smiled
There was a brief silence between the two before Warrick came to the door.
"Hey Cath" he walked in with a bouquet of flowers. " These were dropped off for you, I was going past the desk so I grabbed them."
Catherine looked over at Gil as she took the yellow roses from Warrick.
"Gil? " she sat next to him " What are you doing?"
Gil put his mug down and put his chin on her shoulder " Nothing" he replied " You like?"
Catherine nodded " I always love getting flowers."
Gil kissed her cheek " Like on Valentine's day?"
Catherine turned to him " of course, you got me roses just like this, you cooked me dinner, then you burnt it and then we had pancakes, and that was our first time together" she smiled
FLASHBACK
Catherine walked into to homeroom ten minutes late and flopped down in her seat. He hadn't seen Gil yet,and it was Valentine's Day, she hadn't had time to eat breakfast and her mom had got in her face and caused another fight and worst of all, the only seat left was next to Eddie.
"Miss Grey, you're late did you sign in at the office?"
Catherine nodded at the teacher before rolling her eyes.
The teacher continued with her lesson and Catherine caught up.
"I called you last night" Eddie whispered to her
Catherine sighed and ignored him and flipped the page in her math book.
"Here" he smiled handing her a single rose " Happy Valentines day"
Catherine scoffed " I'm not you're girlfriend so what is this?"
Eddie didn't reply
"I don't want it, leave me alone."
"Look Cath, I'm sorry, for what ever I did for you to dump me and leave me for that weirdo, but I want you back I need you!"
"Eddie I-"
"Miss Grey! Mr Willows! If you are not here to learn, then leave!"
Catherine looked up at the teacher
"NOW"
She gritted her teeth and slammed her math book shut, with Eddie close behind her Catherine stormed out of the room.
"Great! Could this day get any worse?" she screamed heading down the hall to her locker.
"Cath Stop!" Eddie grabbed her arm " Talk to me!"
"What do you want Eddie, were done, I can't be with, you don't.." she paused " You didn't have any faith in me, you didn't think about what I wanted, you just.."
Eddie cut her off " I miss you, and if this is about Steph you need to hear me out, I never got her into drugs, she did that all on her own, her parents assumed you got her into it and they moved to Chicago to get her help, I had nothing to do with it."
"That's not why Ed!" she protested " That's not the only thing, me and you..were not right for each other."
"So in a whole year you never felt it?"
Catherine as confused " What?"
"Tell me right now, you never loved me, that you were never happy."
Catherine sighed " I can't Ed, but that's not the point!"
Eddie handed her the rose again "I love you and we are right for each other, you know it."
Catherine opened her mouth to reply when she saw him.
"Gil." she brushed passed Eddie " I've been looking for you." she smiled
With his hands behind his back he leaned in and kissed her.
Eddie watched from a distance as jealousy raged through him.
"Happy Valentine's Day" she whispered
"Happy Valentine's day to you too." Gil commented looking over her shoulder to see Eddie watching them "What's going on was he bothering you?" Gil questioned. " Wait shouldn't you be in math class?"
Catherine turned back and shrugged " Got kicked out and You know Eddie, he's been trying to charm since we broke up, nothing unusual."
"You sure?"
Catherine nodded " Certain"
"Okay" Gil replied seeing see was a little upset " You'll tell me if her tries anything right?"
Catherine nodded once more " Of course,we should get out of the hall."
Gil smiled "yeah but" he handed her the flowers he had hidden behind him " I want to give you these first."
"Gil these are yellow roses"
Gil nodded
"There beautiful Gil, thank you, but I don't have you're gift here, I thought we were going to do presents tonight."
"We are, these are just..there just flowers" he kissed her again " A rose for a rose."
"Oh..you're melting my heart" she smiled taking his hand in hers as they headed toward the library.
Later that night...
Catherine rang the doorbell and waited for Gil to answer. The two of them were going to spend the evening together while Gil's mother was away in California at a clinic for her hearing.
Catherine looked at her watch, she had been standing out there for almost five minutes and was getting inpatient.
It had only been a few more seconds when she saw his face peek out the side of the front room curtain and disappear.
"Gilbert Anthony Grissom you let me in there right now!" she demanded ringing the doorbell again.
Another second passed before the door slowly opened and Catherine slowly stepped inside.
"Gil?" she called closing the door behind her "Gil where are you?"
Catherine stopped in the dim light hall way to find rose petals scattered on the floor. A soft smile appeared on her face as she continued through the house to find him.
In the living room a small fire was glowing and in the background soft classical music was playing.
Still following the path of rose petals she was lead to the kitchen where a table was set for two, candles were lit, and Gil was wearing dress pants and a shirt and a black bow tie.
He was leaning against the counter with a grin on his face and a rose in his hand.
"What is all this?" she whispered walking up to him " It looks amazing Gil you didn't have to do all of this for me."
Gil nodded and handed her the rose " I know, but you're worth it and I love you, besides I like doing this stuff." Gil smiled and leaned in allowing his forehead to rest against hers, taking her hands in his .
"It's very romantic" she replied as she gazed into his eyes " You're very romantic." she paused " Gil? umm..what's burning?"
Gil pulled back letting go of her hands.
"No" he ran to the oven and dropped the door open. " No!" he shouted " Damn it!"
Taking the pan out of the oven he dropped it in the sink and allowed the smoke to settle and the dish to cool.
Catherine walked over to him and put a hand on his shoulder " What ..was it?" she whispered trying to hold back the laughter.
Gil turned to her " you think this is funny do you?"
Catherine just shook her head
"It was pot roast" he admitted " and I thought I knew what I was doing obviously I had no clue." he flopped down at the table a little disappointed.
Catherine followed him and sat in his lap. " Gil sweetie it's not that big a deal, just pot roast right?"
Gil shrugged " I wanted this to be special, I wanted to cook for you and.."
Catherine put her finger to his lips " Shh..I like my pot roast black." she teased as she planted her lips on his.
Soon the burnt pot roast was forgotten and the kiss they were locked in was growing more and more intense.
It as Gil who broke the kiss.
"What?" Catherine was a little confused " What's wrong?"
Gil shook his head " Nothing" he took her hand and led her to the living room. " It's just more comfortable in here" he paused "and it doesn't smell like burnt pot roast"
Catherine giggled and as soon as they hit the couch the kiss continued. Within seconds the kiss had escalated. Catherine had pulled Gil forward and he now rested on top of her, her hands were running up and down his back, and his hands were doing there own exploring.
"Cath.." Gil whispered " Cath.."
Catherine stopped and pulled back " What's wrong?"
"Aren't you hungry, don't you want to eat?"
Catherine raised an eyebrow. " Not right now, besides I like this better"
"But I don't ..think..we should.." he stammered
Catherine sat up "You don't want to be with me?"
"No..no that's not it..god I want to be with you so bad but..I'm not re, I don't think..I don't" he tried again
"You're not ready?" she asked trying to figure out what he was saying
"No no..that's not it , I am ready..I just...This is so dumb" he murmured
"What is it then?"
Gil sighed " You're going to think I am a loser for telling you this but...I'm..I'm a virgin..there I said" he sighed resting back on the couch " I've never done this and I don't want to do it wrong and "
Catherine cut him off " What do you mean do it wrong, How would I even know if you did it wrong?" she paused " Can you... do it wrong?"
Gil shook his head " I don't know .. I have no clue and I" he stopped processing everything she had said " Wait, you've never.. you and Eddie haven't?"
Catherine shook her head " No, me and Eddie never...had sex..I'm right up there with you, just as much a virgin."
Gil sighed " I'm sorry, I shouldn't have assumed, it's just that Eddie is ..well..he's Eddie Willows..and you're..you know..I just...No I should have never assumed."
Catherine smiled and took his hand in hers " It's okay, every one does , like my mom.."
"What do you mean?" he replied
Catherine shrugged it off " Nothing..This is kinda weird you want to eat?"
Gil nodded " What should we eat, I shouldn't cook anymore, I just burn.."
Catherine smiled and lead him back to the kitchen " No more pot roast.." she paused " What about pancakes?"
Gil furrowed his brow " For dinner?"
Catherine nodded " You never eaten pancakes for dinner?"
"NO" he replied " Breakfast."
"Oh, I see..well be spontaneous then.."
Gil smiled " Okay, but I am making them so you just have a seat."
END OF FLASHBACK
"Were you serious that you had never eaten pancakes other then at breakfast?"
Gil nodded " I was, my mom was strict,breakfast food for breakfast, dinner food for diner"
Catherine scrunched up her fast "What? My mom was strict too, but she didn't give damn what I ate or when."
"Why are you complaining, as I recall you loved my pancakes and you still do!"
FLASHBACK
After finishing up with their dinner Gil placed the dishes in the sink and took Catherine by the hand.
"Shouldn't we clean those up, I don't want you to scramble around to clean after I leave." Catherine asked a he led her
Gil turned to her after sitting her on the couch " Don't worry about it,I wash dishes all the time, it's not a lot." he paused " Stay right here, I'll be right back"
Before she could ask where he was going he disappeared from the room.
Moments later he returned with a neatly wrapped package surrounded by a red ribbon.
With her gift in hand, she waited for Gil to sit next to her before she spoke.
"So, I didn't know what to get you, cause your not really a trinket kind of guy, do you remember back in November when you did that report on the monarch butterfly and the class went to that conservatory and you said about wanting to start a collection?"
Gil nodded as she handed him the box and began pulling away at the wrap.
"It's not much, it was the only Monarch they had so I thought since that one was you're favorite you should start your collection with it."
Gil looked up at her stunned beyond belief " How do you always remember theses things?"
Catherine shrugged " I just did, I liked you more then you knew."
"You're amazing" he whispered " This is amazing, I can't believe..Catherine..I..thank you,I..I.." he stammered
"I get it " she smiled " You're welcome."
A small tear escaped from Gil's eye and he quickly brushed it away.
"I'm sorry" he whispered " It's just, you know me better then anyone has ever known me and it means..it means so much to me.." With that Gil pulled her into a hug.
A few minutes passed before Gil let go.
"I guess I should give you yours, um ..there really isn't a story with it but um..." he handed it to her
Catherine pulled on the ribbon and the package slipped open, inside was a small wooden jewelry box with gold trim and lining.
"The man at the store said that I should have it engraved, I didn't want to scare you away or make you think we were rushing ...this but I thought it might be nice to have it done too,so I had him do it,
Catherine flipped open the lid and " To Catherine, on our 1st Valentine's Day, Love always and forever, Gil."
Catherine looked up at him, tears forming " Just when I think you can't be anymore romantic...you just...I've never anything like this Gil..it's so..it's beautiful and It's so amazing that I feel like It's to good for me, "
Gil shook his head " Nothing is to good for you" he smiled brushing a strand of hair from her face.
Catherine placed the box on the table and pulled him toward her. Placing a kiss on his lips, she took his hand in hers.
"Gil" she whispered " Take me upstairs?"
Gil let out deep breath and looked deep into her eyes " Are you sure, I don't want you to think that you owe me something or that you have to do this because.."
"I don't think that," She cut him off "I want to do this for us, for me, I love you"
Gil nodded and blew out the candles. " Okay"
Gil led her upstairs and to his room, Catherine sat on the bed and watched him. Before sitting next to her he asked again.
"Cath I.. Are you sure?"
Catherine kissed him and reached for his bow tie pulling it off and dropping it to the floor was all the answer he needed from her.
Gil reached for her dress and slowly unzipped the back, soon it joined the rest of the clothes the two were wearing in a pile on the floor.
"I love you Catherine.." he whispered in her ear
" Love you too" she whispered back.
End OF FLASHBACK
"If I remember correctly you knew exactly what you were doing,so all that am I going to do it wrong talk was a waste of time."
Gil chuckled " Hey, I was scared, don't make fun.."
"I'm not" she smiled " But seriously you weren't that bad."
Gil smiled " Neither were you."
FLASHBACK
Gil was laying on his back with Catherine in his arms content with being together.
"Cath?" he whispered
"hmmm"
" You okay?"
"Yeah..are you okay?"
"mmmhm...I didn't hurt you did I?"
Catherine sat up " No" she paused " Gil...Do you think I'll be good for anything else?"
Gil sat up on his elbow " What do you mean?"
"I mean...It's just that,no one thinks I can do it, no one thinks that I can go to college or university and be a somebody."
Gil sighed " You already are a somebody, who cares what anyone else thinks anyway."
Catherine sighed and curled back up next to him " You're right, never mind, I'm just being dumb."
"No" Gil replied " Where is this coming from?"
"Someone told me that it was in my nature, I just don't want you to think of me like that."
"I don't " he whispered " And whoever said that to you doesn't know you at all."
Catherine nodded as her tears fell from her eyes and onto his chest.
"You going to be okay?" he whispered as he ran his hands through her hair.
"Yeah, thanks" she smiled to herself through the tears and slowly drifted off to sleep.
TBC
