Title: Our past, Our present, Our future.

Disclaimer: I don't own, you don't own em yada yada yada yada ya.

(No seriously I don't anything..)

Summary: A flashback in time.. to when Gil and Catherine first met,

and the events that led them to where they are today.

It's be done before..but I'm doing it again! (heheh)


"It was hard letting you leave like like that, thinking I had done something wrong."

Gil sighed pulling a weeping Catherine into his embrace " I'm sorry I made you feel that way, It hurt me so much inside to have to leave like that, to have to leave at all but I was afraid for you I wouldn't have been able to forgive my self if Eddie would have hurt you in any way."

Catherine nodded as she pulled away. " Promise me, you'll never leave."

Gil nodded as he felt his own tears coming on " I promise Cath," he took her face by the chin " I promise you, I'll never leave you or hurt you ever again."

Catherine smiled as Gil wiped a stray tear of her cheek "Nothing in the world could ever make me leave you and Lindsey." he whispered into her ear " Nothing."

"It was hard for me." she admitted pulling g away once more " I hated feeling weak and helpless, I hated that I let a guy hurt me and make me feel that way, bu you weren't just any guy, you were Gil and I loved you. My mom was so pleased with herself when she found out you left, like she had something to do with it. And Eddie..well much to my surprise he was sensitive, he was there for me, that's partly why I went back with him,everything happened so fast,I thought we were happy, and then you were just gone,instantly I crumbled and then Eddie seemed like he had changed. He took me hook, line and sinker and I fell for it because I didn't want to..I didn't want be the girl who cried all day because she let the love of her life slip away."


FLASHBACK

Catherine stood there string at the empty road. Gil had disappeared into the distance but nothing could break the state of shock she was in.

Eddie watched from is car in satisfaction.The look on Catherine's face told him Gil had obeyed his every command and Catherine would be his again.

"Catherine?" Eddie called climbing out of the diver's side. "Catherine sweetie what's the matter?" he pretended.

Catherine slowly turned to him, confusion written all over her face. " I don't know .." she began " I don't know what I did." she whispered

"Cath.." he took her face in his hands " What do you mean, what's going on?"

Catherine backed away from him " I have to ..I have to.." she stammered. " I need to.." before she could finish her sentence tears washed over her and she broke down.

Again Eddie was smiling to himself with satisfaction " Here." he reached out his hand " You should go home, let me take you home."

Catherine hesitated for a moment, but Eddie was right, she did need to get away from the school and she was in no state to walk. "Okay" she whispered wiping her face

"Thank you."

The ride to her home was completely silent until he reached her driveway.Catherine turned to climb out of the car when he stopped her "Catherine?"

She stopped and turned "I just want you to know that, that I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to.."

Catherine nodded and slightly smiled " I know Eddie" she whispered "Thank you for the ride."

Eddie nodded " If you don't want to walk tomorrow, just call me I can come get you. If you want, that's if you feel like going back."

Catherine nodded " I 'll call you, and let you know."

"Okay" he waved to her " I'll see you." as she turned and headed inside

END OF FLASH BACK


"I regret it so much." he whispered " Everything could have been different, but then again, you got Lindsey and any life without her wouldn't be right. It wouldn't be complete"

Catherine nodded " That's true, Lindsey's the best thing to every happen to me." she smiled " Lindsey and You. If hadn't had Lindsey, I probably still be a drug addict, I probably be dead."

"Let's not think about that. Your here and you're happy..." he paused " You are happy right?"

Catherine nodded as she sipped her refreshed mug of coffee " I'm very happy."

"Me too." Gil replied " But it doesn't change the fact that Eddie used you and lied to you."

"I was in a vulnerable state Gil, it's not all his fault, as much of a jerk that he was, it really wasn't all him." I mean it was me who called him first and it was me who asked him to come over that night , it was me who asked him to be my new science partner. Big mistake that was. I was confused and angry... at you"

"Yeah, maybe so but he should have never taken advantage of your vulnerable state..."

"But it was about what he wanted..it was all about getting me back.. so he did."

Gil nodded " I guess I can't blame him, you are one of a kind."


FLASHBACK

Catherine sat locked in her room staring at the picture of her and Gil when they had gone on skiing trip. The day everything began for her, for him..for them.

As the memories of that day faded she looked around her dark empty bedroom. Here she was alone and confused and to be honest..afraid.

Already a week and a half had passed. Gil never called her, he didn't write, she didn't know if he had even made it to California. She was worried, and angry and sad all at the same time. She wanted to scream out loud and tear up anything and everything he had given to her. She wanted to forget him and at the same time she wanted to remember him. She wanted to hug him and hold him and at the same time she wanted to smack him and scream at him. She ripped the picture in her hand as fresh tears streamed down her face, her hands trembled as she stared him in the eye. She decided in a split second that she would be angry at him, she threw the picture frame in hand across the room and listened as it shattered in the pieces. And again the room was silent.

Gil stared at he wall of his now empty home. Truth be told he had driven his mother back to California and had came straight home two days after she was settled in. He had been back almost six full days and hadn't left his house. In his hand he gripped the wooden cased Monarch butterfly that Catherine had given him on Valentine's day. His heart ached inside of him as he sat back in his bed and closed his eyes. He could see her ad he could hear her and he wanted so much to hold her and touch her and tell her just ho much he really did love her and how Eddie had threatened her safety and taken his away. He wanted to call her and tell her he was sorry. But how could he. The longer he waited the harder it became ..so he did nothing at all.

Not wanting to have to deal with the pain anymore he went to his desk drawer and pulled out a envelope. Weeks before he had received a job offer in San Francisco, where he could still study for classes and work in his spare time. He had decide he wasn't going to take it unless she could go with him but now with the sudden turn of events he decided he was going to go. It was easier for him to run away from her then to have to face her.

Three weeks had passed and still n word from him Gil. As she spent most of her days alone or being consoled by Eddie, she decided she wasn't going to cry anymore. She had stopped going to biology class and her grades began to drop and with one a month left of school she didn't care even if she graduated.

Catherine stood in front of her mirror adjusting her cheer leading uniform.. With one last glance she sighed and headed out of her room.

Down in the living room was her mother. " I see you have finally come to you're senses" she smirked " You should have never broken up with Eddie in the first place, you are lucky he took you back, don't screw it up again."

Catherine nodded " I won't" she whispered and ran out side to Eddie who was waiting in his car.

TBC