Hey everybody, so sry for such the long wait. I was drawing a blank on how to handle this chapter. It is a lot shorter then all the other ones but only because I am ending the story next chapter. This chapter contains some sucicide attempt. I don't think that any of you are offended by this but if you are i apoligize..please enjoy and i am sry again for the long wait...RR like always

-xo-JeSs


"Dear Ms.Davidson,

We are sad to imform you that your father has passed away. One of the duties that come with being an Auror is giving up your life for the sake of the protection of the magical world. There was a suspicious person that his team was trying to track down. Sadly, he gave up his life in the time of action. Please let us tell you how much we greatly appreciate his courage, love, and loyalty to the rest of us. Your mother will be getting in contact with you very soon. She now has full custody of you. You will have to be moved from your London apartment and live in the United States where you will live in the same house as your mother. After your school year term ends she will come to retrieve you. We are very sorry for your loss."

It was left unsigned. I looked down at the note as tears started falling down my cheeks. Chloe looked up at me with pity. I dropped the note on the ground and ran out the dorm room. I ran and ran, ignoring anybody that saw me. I made it to the quidditch pitch and walked to a far corner. The night was cold and dry. I shivered but didn't let it bother me. I hugged my knees to my chest and rested my head on top of them.

"How could he leave me like that!" I screamed. I brushed off any thought of somebody finding me.

"Now I have to go live with HER. I have nobody…there's nothing left for me. Not even Oliver can fix this…" I cried harder and harder by each minute that went by. I sat there for a good 2 hours before I heard someone walk out into the pitch.

"Jess?" I heard the person call.

I didn't answer. The figure walked closer and finally stopped before me.

"Go away!" I snapped. My sobbs could be heard in between my words. The person squatted down and rubbed my head.

"Oliver, I mean it. Don't touch me, don't tell me you love me, and don't think you can fix this! We're over; I'm done…just leave. I'm not going to ask you twice." I screamed and looked up into the eyes of the boy I loved.

"Jess? What are you talking about?" I could see the compassion in his eyes. It killed me. I got hurt and I was hurting the only person I had ever loved. I couldn't take it.

"Wood, my father's dead. He's gone. Now I have to go live with my mother and I'd rather die than go live with her again. I really can't explain this and I'd rather not try. Bye" I felt the tears coming on strong now and I was gasping for air as I ran. My whole world was collapsing. I ran to the private girl's bathroom on the top tower of the Gryffindor common room. After sneaking my old blade, I sat in the corner of the room on the cold tile floor. I had the blade in my right hand and a wet cloth in my left. With each cut I made the blood dripped and the cloth turned a brighter shade of crimson. My left arm was displayed for my own sick viewing in front of me. There lye the story of my life. I sighed with the final cut and wiped my arm once more. I got up dizzaly and staggered to the exit. I made my way to the entrance of mine and Chloe's dorm room. With a gasping breath I fell forward and crashed into the door. I saw black.


"She's okay; she'll just be light headed for some time." I heard a voice in the distance explain. It was female so I knew it wasn't Oliver.

What happened to me? Why am I lying down in the hospital wing?

I looked down at my arm. It was covered in heavy bandage. The color of red could be seen slightly seeping through. I remembered. I looked around at who Madam Pomfrey was talking to and saw Chloe. I felt a small feeling of relief but then I saw him. He walked in and turned to Madam Pomfrey with a worried expression. I loved him, but I couldn't face him after what I said. Even if he was willing to forgive me, I would hate myself even more. I made eye contact with Chloe. She smiled and tiptoed over to me. She sat on the bed and looked me in the eye. I felt tears well up in my eyes and I started crying. I felt her wrap her arms around my shoulders and rock back and forth.

"Jess, I'm here. It's okay, I'm here. Don't worry about anything" She whispered into my ear. I started crying harder. She broke away after a minute and I closed my eyes, covering them with my weak hands. Pain surged throughout my left arm. I leaned forward. Another presence over took me and hugged me. It was all too familiar.I snuggled in deeper and let the warmth take over me. I raised my head. Oliver looked up at me sadly. I stared into his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I said pleadingly. He just looked into my eyes lovingly.

"Jess, you didn't do anything wrong. We're a couple and don't think I would give up on you that easily. I waited 6 years to finally be with you, I'm not giving up now. I'm here for you always remember that. I don't know what could stop me from loving you." He explained. I didn't feel any different. I don't know if that was a good or bad thing. I closed my eyes and felt him place a sweet kiss on my lips. I fell asleep, Madam Pomfrey said I would be returning to class the next day.


"Ms.Davidson, will you please stop falling asleep in my class!" I heard Snape scream. My head shot up and I looked around embarrassed. " I'm sorry Professor, I haven't really been feeling good." I said. "So you think that gives you an excuse to fall asleep and not pay attention in my class?" He snapped at me. I sighed and shook my head. I opened my mouth to reply when I was cut off. "I don't want any excuses, this is the third day. You either start going to bed early or sleep in another class besides mine. I'm afraid I'm going to have to give you detention." He stated. "But..." I begged. "But nothing Ms.Davidson, you have detention" Snape ordered. I threw my head down on the desk in frustration and closed my eyes.

I didn't head to dinner. Instead I went up to the empty dorm room and lay on my bed. I felt a single tear fall as I kept a steady breathing rhythm. Finally, I pulled out a raggedy box from under my bed and opened it up. Inside were old pictures of my father and myself. I pulled out some recent one. They were from my move to London that fall. One showed me twirling on an empty room with a huge smile on my face. I went through each picture, each getting harder for me to handle. The last one broke me down as I remembered and realized the loss I had just experienced. There in the picture was my father with a straight face and the littlest smirk on his face. Next to him was myself kissing his cheek and eyes closed. I had my arms wrapped around his shoulders. We looked so happy. I put the picture from the box to under my pillow as I placed the box back under my bed and flew back onto the bed lying down. I lay on my stomach and pulled the picture out from under the pillow as I stared and remembered. I turned around again; this time with the picture held close to my chest and closed my eyes. All my homework was said the hell with and I could care less. I had detention with Snape, just what I needed.

I woke up about 2 hours later and changed into my pj's. I decided that I would fall asleep in detention anyway, might as well dress the part. Most of all, it was to piss off Snape. I walked into the detention room and faced my sentence.


About 2 weeks passed and I was getting bitterer by every day. I stayed away from most people and haven't even really spent time with Oliver. Except for the practices, the N.E.W.T.S. took up most of our time. I couldn't get back into cutting again cause of the close watch of Madam Pomfrey and Chloe. Then the constant reminder of each day that went by was a day closer to moving in with my mother made me even more depressed. I kept like this for the rest of year and pretty soon, graduation was up and I was the only one that wasn't happy to be leaving Hogwart's.


alright ppl, yes i kno it is really short but like i said i am ending this and i am really eager to start the sequal which is going to kick ass lol..well read and review like always and a special tahnk sto everybody that has and still does review religiously...i love you for it lol..thanks be back with the final chapter in a few days..cya

xo-JeSs