A/N: I have not said this yet so I will say it now, I regretfully do not own Third Watch, its characters or anything do with Third Watch. If you live in Ontario check out the TV Guide theirs a little article about Bosco being the sexiest cop on TV, Tia Texada was mentioned too it was quite funny what said. Sorry if you can't follow what was being said I tend to jump from thought to thought, person to person. Enjoy! PS: I added breaky thingy's to help you know when a the pov changes.
He was late and his mother surely would be up, hopefully she wouldn't mind, he had his own way of mourning, if he didn't have her he wasn't sure he would be able to get through this. She sensed when he needed to talk and when he didn't, he was grateful for that.
He didn't know how with just one look she could turn him into jelly. He liked it. He'd come close to feeling this way before but somehow this was different, more real, more what? He gave himself a mental shake pushing everything from his mind as he made his way to the door.
He didn't want to do this alone, how much he wanted there holding his head and whispering reassuring words only that he could hear. He knew that would never happen. Neither were ready for that kind of step letting everyone know that were an item, especially Faith who thought he hated her. He couldn't hate her not when he felt so connected with her.
He opened her door but hesitated walking out, he turned to look at her, he was turning to jelly again he could feel it. It was now or never.
He didn't know how to ask, will you come to Mikey's funeral with me? Why couldn't he say it? He was ready he was sure of that now, more than anything he wanted her there. Would she go if he asked her?
"Would you like to….go to Mikey's funeral with me? Only six more words to say come one say them.
"Would you like to have dinner with me after?" Stupid, stupid, stupid. Ask her. I can't.
Disappointment fell across her face but she quickly covered it up.
"Ya I would like that" Had he imagined the disappointment? She was all smiles now. He left his post at the door walking towards her, he didn't have time, but for her he would make time. Just one more kiss. His lips meeting hers knowing that one kiss wasn't going to be enough, so that one kiss turned into 3, then 9 before she pulled away. He had to go. He looked into her eyes before walked away wishing he saw what he felt for her but knew he wouldn't, she hid her emotions.
"Midnight sound good to you?" Her eyes following him as he neared the door.
It would be an eternity till but he could wait, would have to wait.
"Perfect" she offered a half smile before he walked out and closing the door behind him.
He hadn't asked her, he was going too she could see it in his eyes as he asked her to have dinner with him instead. It felt like her heart ripped in two, when he needed her the most he brushed her off and asked if she wanted to have dinner instead. Sometimes she was glad she was bitch that way men couldn't hurt her. She couldn't be that mad they were having dinner together, going out or eating in she didn't know. Deep down she knew the answer; he would be bringing food over to her place. He was ashamed of her, of what they had.
He was shutting her out and that her more than anything she had every experienced in her entire life.
He didn't know how to act around his mother, he was hurting too but he'd lost a brother, not a son. As if guessing her son didn't know what to say she brought up a safe topic.
"Your precinct sent a very beautiful arrangement"
"Yeah, they're nice"
"Michael would've loved them"
"Flowers from the police. He would've got a kick out of that" It was funny really the very people that destroyed him were sending him flowers.
She had other things to deal with then her own broken heart as she went into work that day. A raid, possibly her biggest yet, the adrenaline pumped through her veins as she started gearing up. It was short lived however when Yoshi wants to go to the raid instead. How could he do that? Glenn was back, his partner a little sooner than expected but that was ok. She needed all the help she could get.
"You're gonna leave your partner hanging?" her voice oozing with sarcasm
"My partner?" No he wouldn't know
"Glenn's back" Last chance to change your mind before she gets mad Yoshi take it.
"He is?" Shock was understandable for Glenn's return hell she was too
"Yeah, he's getting his gear" Thinking about changing your mind?
"He wasn't supposed to be back until next week." Now why would shock turn into fear?
"Yeah, well, uh, I guess he's dedicated to the mission, unlike some people I know" her voice now traced with resentment and disappointment.
"Maybe you should just call this one off, huh? Go to the wake, too".
"First of all, most of the third watch is gonna be there. She didn't want to have stolen glances between her and Bosco "Somebody's gotta stay back and watch the shop. Second, I don't call off a raid like this for anyone. Or anything. Third, I wasn't invited." She held back the tears that wanted to spill breaking back the hurt she felt this morning.
All he remembers was getting out of the way as the car came barreling towards them. He tried to grab his mother but he was too far out of reach. Noise slowly came back to him as he got up, he looked around, everyone was out. He just hoped they weren't dead.
Cruz pulled back the tarp that revealed what she dreaded, a bomb. She started running but not soon enough as white light surrounded her.
"They're gonna kill her" broke through his thoughts
"What are you talk---" he didn't have time for this, he was glad he hadn't asked her
"I got a bomb!" how could the day get any worse than is?
"How long's she been like this?" some paramedic asked him, who the hell was she?
"What do you mean?" how long had she been like what?
"In this position?"
"Five minutes I guess. Why?" sorry if he didn't check his watch every time something bad happened
"Because she isn't breathing" there are times when one word fit a perfectly. Shit!
When he walked through the hospital doors, the last person he'd though he see was her. She didn't look any better than herself then he did, or at least thought he did. He hadn't looked in a mirror since her bathroom one this morning. Had this all really been only a few hours?
"What are you doing here?" knowing as much as she wanted it he wasn't here for her
"I don't know. Someone drove a bomb into my brother's wake. What are you doing here?" Something obviously happened today, her hair and clothes were a mess
"Someone blew up a building we were raiding" his heart leapt into his throat knowing that he could have lost her today
"What?" he couldn't believe his ears, why now, why today?
"That's quite a coincidence, huh?" Faith just had to be the funny one didn't she? How would she react when I told her that her precious partner and I were sleeping together how would she react then?
He was so close she could almost touch him, breathe him in. Yet he was so far away, he was acting, showing everyone that he didn't hate her but yet didn't like her either. She just wanted him to sit down but he paced. Why did she have to be in here with us? It was her keeping me from him. He was trying to impress "Goody-two shoes" by loathing her. He wouldn't make eye contact, why? Was it better this way, afraid if he made eye contact that his act would collapse and she would guess? Time for that later, now she has to think about getting revenge on Mann. No knowing she started thinking out loud.
"He tried to kill us all at the same time"
"Son of a bitch why did she always have to put her two sense in, she was right but still. And why was she answering her, she'd spoken out loud. Great.
Just to add affect to the mood that everyone was in, Davis enters.
"Hey… I was just talking to Jelly… Laura Wynn was killed explosion"
"This is war" Good boy Bosco, good boy
"What's going on? Who is this guy?" he had a lot to learn and she wasn't the one who was going to tell him, Good two shoes did it for her
"We were in a car pursuit last week with his son he went under a truck and he was decapitated"
"Mikey… You think he killed my brother?" poor Bosco he was still hurting
"He woulda known where to find him" if she could find anyone so could he
"How bout that son of a bitch with the car? He know anything?" he looked so sexy when he started putting two and two together.
"I doubt it he's pretty much a victim here too" no one was a victim, every one had choices you just had to make the right one
"Son of a bitch. Hurt my whole team trying to get to me…except Yoshi" He wasn't going to get away with this
"Yoshi's all right?" Yoshi was at the wake
"Yoshi didn't get hurt at the wake?" that sleezeball, how could he be so lucky?
"I don't remember seeing Yoshi at the wake" how could he not of seen him, he was there he wouldn't lie to her
"Yeah, me neither." Came from Goody
"Yoshi wasn't---" Cabron, Son of a Bitch! He was a deadman, just like Mann
"Oh, who cares about Yoshi? What are we gonna do about this son of a bitch Mann? That's what I wanna know." He almost got killed and all she could care about was fucking Yoshi. Me. What about me?
He's looking at her only if he is pissed off, it was hard for her to breathe suddenly
"We're gonna be smart. We're gonna find out all the information that Laura had on him. We're gonna start locking people up one by one until someone gives him to us. You don't go to war with the New York City Police Department" No one messes with her, Donald Mann you have met your match
"Hey guys…" she looked at Goody two shoes who was looking out the window, then suddenly up out of her seat but yet still looking out the window. Why the hell could be so fucking important?
"Hey Guys" she turns to see what Faith is looking at and sees it only a few moments before, bullets break the glass, she sees Bosco go down taking Faith down with him.
So much noise, she closed her eyes wishing that it would all go away.
(A/N): I have to say that is my longest chapter yet. I apologize if anything is out of order, I tried to keep it as close to the original plot as I could but with my tape disappearing mysteriously (Damn Aliens, I will get back everything you have stolen from me!) I had to rely on Review or don't it's up to you.
