The morning came too soon, before they knew it the night sky began to lighten and with it brought a new day. Alan got up and looked at the sleeping Raquel lying next to him. She is so beautiful he though to himself.
Who would have known a few months ago that this would have happened? I know I would have rather died then do this with her, but now things have changed. Alan's eyes began to fill with tears. Is this the love my father felt for my mother? Will everything change before my eyes? Will I wake up one day and think to myself I hate this so much I am going to leave? Alan now had tears streaming from his eyes. I am not my father I will never do anything like that to Raquel. I will never leave her with out a reason or treat her the way my father treated my mother. I am not my father! I will never do the things he did!
Alan got up and walked into Raquel's bathroom to wipe the tears from his eyes. He could hear the sound of Raquel's voice coming from the bedroom.
"Alan?" Alan quickly wiped his tears and walked back into the bedroom and got back into bed and kissed Raquel's forehead.
"Good morning."
"Alan, were you crying?" Raquel could see his tear-streaked face. "Was it something I did?"
"No! It wasn't you I wasn't crying I have allergies that's all."
"Alan, you know you can tell me what's wrong. You can always tell me."
Alan was reluctant to tell her because he had never talked about his feelings towards his father. Raquel and I hadn't talked about my family since the day Jason attacked.
"I was just thinking… I will never leave you. I promise! I won't leave you to wonder what you did wrong and what you should have done to fix things. I won't let you drive yourself into a hole that you can't get out of. I will never break your heart and then do it again and again. I will not be my father!" Tears were filling Alan's eyes again. Raquel pulled him into a hug.
"I know you won't be your father. You're better than that."
"No! You don't understand my mother is killing herself now because my father left me with her and I drove her insane. I am the reason she is the way she is. She is always drinking. She always tells me how she wishes I was never born and how I ruined her life. I will never do that to you! I promise!"
Now Raquel was crying, she hated to see Alan so upset. She tried to comfort him using every way she knew. She reassured him that he was not his father. She tried to tell him how much she loved him and much he cared for him. But nothing seemed to work. She realized that the best thing to do for his was to let him get out his frustrations and listen. She held him in his arms until he was done crying tears of anger and disgust. When he was finished he tried to apologize for what had just happened but Raquel silenced him and told him it was fine. She was always there when he needed her. Once Alan had gotten all of that out of him it seemed he was back to normal. So they went and made breakfast and watched some TV.
After lunch Alan said it was probably best if he went home. So they said good bye and I love you and Raquel watched him drive away.
Last night had been a fairy tale for Raquel and her insides felt like they were going to explode. Last night she thought that this morning she might regret what happened last night but now that it was morning she had no regrets. She knew she loved Alan with all of her heart.
