Disclaimer: Fox and Josh Schwartz own The O.C. not me...even though it's summer and what not.
"Summer," K.C. called coming up to her as soon as she got to the studio.
"I really don't want to deal with this right now. I have enough on my plate. I don't need this," Summer said as she kept walking.
"Summer, please just talk to me. I'm going crazy. We need to talk about this. I have to know how you feel," K.C. persisted.
"I don't know how I feel. Just leave me alone."
"Summer."
"K.C., I just want to film this movie and get all of this over with," Summer sighed, putting a hand to her head to fight the coming headache.
K.C. stood rooted in his place as she walked away.
"I love you!" he exclaimed. "Why can't you get that? I love you! And I know you have feelings for me!"
"Oh my God," Summer muttered turning around. "Just drop it."
"I can't drop it. I love you. I can't stop. There's nothing I can do about it and you have feelings for me, too. Just admit it. There's nothing you can do about it either. I don't know if you love me but I know there's a chance that you could."
"K.C.," Summer sighed.
"I love you," K.C. repeated.
"What?" came a voice from behind them.
"What are you- what are you doing here?" Summer asked, shocked.
"I came to see you," Seth said calmly.
"Cohen-," Summer began.
"I was actually hoping I could hang out on a movie set for a few weeks."
"A few weeks?"
"Yeah. I mean, I miss you."
"Cohen, I need to explain-," Summer started.
"No, you don't actually. I think I understand anyway."
"Listen-,"
"I quit my job," Seth said suddenly.
"You what?"
"I quit my job to be with you," Seth repeated, his voice cracked with emotion.
"You quit? To be with-with me?"
"Well you know, I mean, I hated that job for years and…I miss you."
"K.C. and I kissed," Summer confessed quickly.
Seth stared at her in shock and pain.
"It was more like he kissed me, but…it still happened," Summer said, not meeting Seth's eye.
"I see," Seth replied tightly.
"We kissed and they took a picture. They have pictures. The story will come out eventually and they have pictures."
Summer seemed to say all of this in a daze.
Seth just nodded stiffly.
"It just sort of happened. Cohen, I didn't mean to," Summer tried to explain.
"Yeah, I know. I alreadysaw the pictures, thanks...do you have feelings for him?" Seth asked eerily calm.
"I don't-I don't know."
Seth nodded again.
"I'm so sorry. I didn't want to hurt-," Summer tried to explain again.
"Do you have feelings for him?" Seth asked again, sounding more hurt than angry. He couldn't look at her.
"I don't know…I don't-I…possibly," Summer whispered the last part as tears slipped down her cheeks.
"Possibly? You don't know? It's a simple question. Yes or no, Summer?" Seth asked, looking at her now as his eyes welled with tears.
"I…I think that…I think I do," Summer replied softly as she cried.
"Ok."
"That's it?"
Seth snorted and shook his head sadly.
"What now?" Summer asked.
"I don't know. You tell me," Seth said, swallowing the growing lump in his throat.
"I don't know either," Summer whispered as the tears continued cascading down her cheeks.
"Why don't you call me when you figure it out."
With that Seth walked away.
"Cohen," Summer called after him.
He didn't stop.
"Cohen!" Summer shouted.
He kept walking.
"Seth!" she cried desperately.
Summer ran after him and grabbed him. When she pulled him around to face her, she was shocked to see tears running down his cheek.
"Seth," Summer whispered, cupping his cheek with her bare left hand.
Seth tore his face from her grasp.
"I'm sorry," Summer sobbed.
"And that's supposed to make it better?" Seth asked as more tears slipped down his cheek.
"No. I don't know. I'm so confused."
"Do you love him?" he asked suddenly.
"What?"
"Do you- do you love him?"
"I don't know," Summer replied honestly.
"You know where to find me, once you figure it out," Seth said sadly and turned away from her.
"I don't know if I love him, but I do know that I love you."
Seth was silent.
"I love you so much, Seth. I never wanted to hurt you. I'm sorry," Summer sobbed.
Seth shut his eyes to keep his own tears at bay and took several deep breaths to try to calm down his emotions. Finally he turned back around to her and pulled her in his arms.
"So am I," Seth whispered as Summer sobbed into his shirt.
Eventually they pulled apart and Summer tried to contain herself.
"I have to go," Seth said slowly.
"Please don't leave. I don't know what to do. This wouldn't be so hard if you were here. Maybe I could…maybe I could-," Summer started.
"What? Choose between us if you could actually compare us side by side?" Seth spat out.
"No, that's not what I-,"
"It shouldn't be like this, Summer. I want to marry you and I thought you wanted to marry me. It shouldn't be this hard."
"The hard things are worth fighting for," Summer whispered as she began crying again.
"I don't even know what I'm fighting for anymore. All I know is I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of hurting. I'm just…tired."
"Please don't give up on me. I'm sorry," Summer bit her lip to keep back another sob.
"I can't give up on you. Not even when I know that I should or at least when I know that I should want to."
Summer began to sob again.
"We've been through so much already. I just don't know if I can take much more. I don't know if I'm fighting for us or just fighting for you. Is it me and you against the world? Or is it just me against all the K.C.'s? Maybe it's just me against everyone else thinking that you'll be there once I conquer the world. I'm not a knight in shining armor. I can't conquer the world for you, but God knows I'd die trying. But are you even going to care? Or will K.C. get there first?" Seth asked.
"No. He can't. He won't. He hasn't. It's you and me, baby. It's us together. We'll do it all together," Summer cried.
"Together? Together with all of your feelings for another guy? You couldn't even tell me you loved me on the phone. You couldn't tell me until now, until you thought you would lose me if you didn't say it. You couldn't say it unless you had to. It doesn't work like that, Sum. I'm sorry. I can't be second best to you. I don't want you to settle for Seth Cohen. I don't want you to be with me just because I called you first. If you can't even say you love me then-it doesn't work that way."
"But I do love you. I'm sorry I didn't say it enough. I'm sorry. I love you! I do!"
"Maybe you do, but you could possibly love him! You can't have two guys! You can't have us both! Maybe he's fine with that but I want all of you, all of you…or none of you. I want to marry you. I can't do this halfway and I can't share you with someone else. If you have feelings for him, if you love him…then I'm out," Seth explained.
"So that's it? This is it for us?" Summer asked incredulously. "After everything, this is how it ends?"
"That's up to you…you know where I'll be if this is really what you want. If not then…well I just hope you'll be happy."
"I love you," Summer whispered.
"And I love you more than anything…and that's it. I'll see you when I see you…if I see you," Seth replied and walked away.
Summer stood absolutely still and watched him walk out of sight. Once he was gone she broke down completely and fell to her knees sobbing.
"Are you okay?" K.C. asked coming from behind her.
Summer just cried.
"It'll be okay. Everything will be alright," he soothed wrapping his arms around her.
After a few minutes, Summer pulled away from K.C.
"This isn't right. It doesn't even feel right. I'm sorry, K.C. but…you're just not him. You don't feel like him. His arms, his everything, this is just…I have to go. I'm sorry."
"So it's him?"
"I love him."
"And you can't…" he didn't want to finish the question.
"I'm sorry. I…I can't."
K.C. nodded and stepped away from her.
"I'm sorry, K.C.," Summer said softly.
"Yeah. Whatever Summer," K.C. snorted bitterly and walked away from her.
Summer nodded after him and ran towards her car. She had a plane to catch.
(AN: Ok so that's it. That's the big confrontation. Seth went to see her. Obviously he's already seen the pictures and such. Summer is kind of stupid, I have to admit. But if she wasn't stupid then she wouldn't make mistakes...and everybody makes mistakes. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Keep on reading and I'll keep on updating. I've got the rest of this story planned out...and I think I might have an idea for my next story after this one!)
