Kagome smiled in relief, when she saw her gently place the water beside her on the counter. Loraine softly placed herself at the edge of the tub looking away, as Kagome delightfully took it as badly as she felt.


" Thanks so much. How come there were so many pregnancy tests in there?"

Kagome tried not to sound rude but she couldn't help but notice more then three or four boxes laying there that she taken from. Kagome swallowed the water, and felt her stomach twist in knots and her heart jumping out of her chest. She didn't want to see the results, then again she wanted to so badly so she wouldn't have to feel this way anymore. Loraine picked at threads from her jeans and calmly sighed, almost like she didn't want to explain it but she couldn't hold it against a young sixteen year old who seemed too nice for her own good.

Loraine clamped her hands together, as Kagome held it in her hand praying and hoping only one line would show up, instead of two. She hated to wait, and nothing could really keep her mind off of it either.

" Well Marilyn, when she was dating her boyfriend Chris at the time, she well thought she might have been pregnant. Worried, she bought more to make sure each one was right. The first one she didn't believe stating she was pregnant and I felt bad really. She had to admit to him that she was pregnant and well he didn't want nothing to do with her afterwards. He hated her for it, and the fact he was the father."

Kagome listened feeling bad, imagining the guy in her mind looking down at him concerned and scared, trying to grasp onto him and tell him something that was eating her alive. She could only imagine him shouting and screaming, and laughter as though it wasn't real, and it couldn't be him. Kagome swallowed and she couldn't help but feel bad for her, even though she didn't look entirely friendly.

" Also, he didn't believe it was her. He basically said she was a slut, and he threw stuff and told her to get the fuck out."

Kagome was stunned, as she held the stick firmly in her hands over the sink. It seemed as though it was taking forever just for a few lines to appear, and she couldn't wait forever either. She looked at Loraine, and saw the hurt reflected in her eyes knowing how good of a friend she was. Kagome ignored the stick for a moment, towards a teary eyed Loraine.

" Is she still pregnant?"

Kagome asked without realizing she could be making the situation worse; which was the last thing she ever wanted to do was upset others. Loraine was ready to shed tears, which brought Kagome to place it down for a moment of the counter, and softly sit beside her on the ledge of the bathtub with her arms around her for support.

" Well…she lost the baby…" Before Kagome could even ask 'how' she saw her head hang towards her lap almost like she was the victim not her. She began whimpering trying to hold it back from Kagome, herself and them who were still out there hating each other with every gasping breathe.

" When she went to get her stuff back…He did something I never thought was in him. He was damn sure it was another guy, one of his friends that she hung with time to time. She told him she was keeping the baby whether he liked it or not. He had gotten so furious about the baby thing, he got really mad and she was at the edge of the stairs.. and well she lost it."


" Marilyn …you want me to get your stuff for you? Are you sure you wanna go in and see his face again?"

It was past midnight, while she stood at the corner of his street, staring towards the small crowded apartment that was beside a huge alley way, and broken down houses that looked like no body could possibly live it. It had bothered her, the man she loved and adored for six years hated her guts, because she was pregnant with his child. He didn't want to believe it. She expected him to run off, and avoid the situation and he was doing that for days on end. He refused to answer her calls, and refused to answer the door each time he heard her voice through the door. She knew she was coming back, and this time to get her stuff and nothing more.

Marilyn had the haze of hurt and love dancing dangerously in her eyes. She zipped up her black jacket, gazing at the apartment staring at his floor and his window knowing he was in there and hated she had to come back to see him, even if she had to get all her things back.

" Loraine I'm fucking fine. I'm not a damn baby alright? I'm just gonna go in there, and come back out with the things I need. That will be the last time I see his damn ugly face again."

Marilyncurled her fists, trying to stand strong with the thoughts of him bruising her and killing her inside and out. She loved him too much to let it go, and hated him too much for what he did and done to her. It wasn't really her fault it happened that way, and she couldn't help but tell him.

She edged away from Loraine's soft touch of support, while she took a deep breath looking like she was facing death directly in the eyes than anything else. Her heart was pounding through her chest, and she was so nervous. Apart of her never wanted to see his face again, and yet another side of her desperately wanted to. She swallowed with tears in the corner of her eyes, as she smudged the mascara that was against her cheeks.

" Why did I have to come back, and see his face again? I doubt he'll even let me in, let alone let me get my things. Why did I have to leave my clothes, my jewelry anything like that. Then again I have an excuse to see him… Fuck I can't think of him that way. For fuck sakes he can't even look me in the eyes because of this. It isn't just my fault, it's his. We vowed we'd go through things together, and yet this is the time he leaves me the weakest."

She balled her hands into fists, taking what seemed like a long walk of horror down the sidewalk and towards the step of the apartment. She swung open the door, having a spare key only to get into the building nothing more. She thought now he probably regretted giving her things like that, or even buying her sweet gifts. She just opened the black door, and swung through marching down towards the elevator while her stomach was tying into knots.

" Asshole.. That's all I'm gonna do. Walk in grab my stuff, and leave."

She kept telling herself afraid it would backfire, and if she'd see his face she'd feel vulnerable, and desperate to have the part of her, back into her life. Quietly, she stood in the elevator only wondering the outcome of all this. Would he be home? Would he answer? She didn't know at all, and that's what she was afraid of, and especially afraid of him. Finally the door opened, leaving her to wonder in a long stretch of hallway with the disgusting color for the walls.

She walked for a moment, swinging into the next hallway and felt herself stood the moment she spotted his room. She slowly step by step, stood in front of the door staring at the handle recounting how many times she had came here to visit, to sleep over, or just to drop by and tell him how she was. Her hand nervously began to shake, feeling her throat dry and her stomach empty, and her heart torn in two. Bandages could heal wounds, but it couldn't heal a broken heart. She knocked on the door, waiting the floor beneath her to swallow her whole.

" It's just like him… He probably knows it's me. He hates me that much, and all I can do is love him to death…"

She realized after four knocks there was no answer. It was almost like he didn't exist anymore. She plainly stood ready to walk away until she remembered he had a spare key and vaguely remembered his hiding spot, which she assumed he changed.

" Fuck him. I'm not gonna stand here and wait to get in there. He has my stuff, and I'm not waiting forever to get it back. Maybe he still has that key…"

Softly she felt around the door the mat, until her hands touched dust and felt something hard and the shape of a key. She swiftly smiled, when she looked at the old worn down piece of metal, that would let her get in, and get out in a snap.

She opened the door, to only walk into the familiar smell of lit matches, vodka, and cigarettes that he had laying all over the place. He had huge packs stacked all over his house, and needless to say it was his worst addiction. She looked at how his place was falling apart, seeing clothes laying everywhere down the hallway and food laid out on the counter. It was like every since they fell apart, everything else was. She couldn't help but shake her head in disgust, opening the fridge to get a snack before she went to leave.

" I doubt he'd mind if I took this…"

She thought grabbing a can of coke, seeing how empty the fridge was now then it use to be then. She placed herself on the stool laying against the part of the counter over looking his small living room staring at the entertainment system she had bought him not too long for his birthday. She couldn't help but relive everything when she came here. She remembered the first time she came here, so nervous and yet so excited. She thought back to when he laid her swiftly on the kitchen table and then to the couch kissing her, saying how much he loved her, and he would never let her go for an instant. She believed his word, and the truth is his promise became a lie.

She brought her coke along with her, nervously walking into his room to notice there wasn't much of a mess as she thought. The bed spread was tangled, but otherwise it was clean. She softly picked up the frame that had a picture of her and him in it, the same one that was at her apartment.

" I'm surprised he didn't get rid of this picture of us. He got rid of everything else…"

She sat gently on the bed, sinking into the mattress staring at the picture with memories rushing through her head fast. Before she could even lay the frame back down, she felt something hit her with force as the picture jumped out of her hand and smacked against the floor.


" I told you I never wanted to see you again, and yet you break into my place. You have some guts, but forget it. If you thinking I'm talking this baby shit over you can forget it. Don't lie to me that it's me cause it isn't."

She felt his hands grasping her hair with brutal force, feeling the roots ready to rip from her skin. She was already curled up from the pain, feeling his breath against her neck that was once relaxing, and now it just brought a splash of panic and pain throughout her body.

" Look Chris, let go of me. I'm sorry I just came in but I came back to get my damn stuff and that's it. Don't worry I'll be fucking out of your life in a minute."

He listened to her steadily, as his hands let go of her long brown hair he loved on her. She lifted herself from his bed, seeing all her stuff thrown into a corner of her clothes, and her jewelry in the same place she had left it before this fight occurred. He placed his fingers swiftly through his bangs of blond hair, and laying against the side of the door watching and waiting on her to get out of his life.

" I can't believe you. Sleeping with my friend, and getting yourself pregnant with who you claim in my kid. Your fucking digusting. You stupid slut."

She felt as though he was stabbing her each and every time to opened his mouth. She tried to ignore the comments but she realized they hurt worse, than any bruises or abuse he had ever gave her. She was scared because he was violent; she never expected being his victim and now here she was out in the open for anything. She knew awhile back he had been sent to jail a couple of times for reported abuse, but she never thought anything of it until now. The way his piercing eyes hide behind his bangs, and the way he kept a continuous watch on her made her fear her life even more.

She shook her head, feeling like she wanted to keel over and cry but she knew that was something she couldn't afford to do, and couldn't afford to let him see her at her weakest. She bit down on her lip, as she bent over and grabbed the handful of different clothing, and grabbed her jewelry with the other free hand ready to walk out the door.

" See Chris it's all I need. Don't worry I'll never see your face again."

She whispered softly, walking calmly towards the door until she felt herself bump into him, who planted himself in the way that made her blood pump, and her nervousness transform into anger.

" Chris seriously, I have no times for fucking games alright? I'm getting out of here, so what's your fucking problem!"

She was too afraid to look at his face, it would kill her if she even caught a glance of his piercing ocean colored eyes, and the frame of his face. She kept her head down low resisting to even take one glance into him, for all she knew he was the devil that was out to drag her down with him. He didn't say anything, but made her back out towards the front door as she felt herself literally placed into a corner.

His one hand calmly touched her chin, slowly lifting her head up trying to make her look into his eyes, which he knew she was avoiding. She wanted to swat it away, but she couldn't. She was too afraid too, she was afraid she'd be flying into a wall and have more bruises, or sent to the hospital. He had a record of beating women, and that never stopped her before from being with him. When they were together he was the sweetest thing ever, and when they were fighting he was a completely different person ready to commit murder.

" Marilyn You almost got my hopes up with the baby thing. Please tell me your getting rid of it.."

She was laying flat against the wall now, forced to look into his eyes, she could see clearly through his black bangs. It killed her. His arms grasped her placing them over her head so she wasn't able to make any sudden movements. She hated the fact she felt weak and vulnerable now, and he was enjoying every sickening minute of it.

Marilynswallowed, realizing their lips were inches away from touching. He was ruining her, and she was trying so hard to keep herself grounded and strong, but it was failing.

" Chris get one thing damn straight. I've always loved you, and yet you accuse me sleeping with your friend, and it not being your baby. You really think I'd do that to you? Fact is I'm keeping the baby asshole, and that's up to me and not you! I'm not getting rid of it just because you say so. Were not together anymore, so you can't control me anymore!"

She managed to give him a swift kick, and she was able to get out of his grasp. She noticed the hate and look in his eyes she'd seen before when he was ready to beat and abuse the living fuck out of someone. She began heading for the door outside, ready to dash down the stairs and escape him.

" Forget my stuff. Fuck him, I'm getting the hell out of here…"

She managed to open the door from the top of the stairway, as he managed to catch up with her, grabbing her by the wrists and swinging her around feeling herself fall into his chest, and stupidly looking up at him with the fact of care still lingering in her eyes.

" Look .Marilyn You fucked this one up not me. We could have been together longer but no you had to ruin it. We were happy, I was happy and that never happens to me. I never expected for it to end this way. But no, you were just a stupid slut. You have the balls to invade my privacy and tell me that your keeping the baby…You disgust me.. I loved you, and I still do. I can't love a girl who ruins my life…"

Marilyn couldn't help but have tears swelling from her eyes. He softly grasped her and managed to force a kiss into her, that she tried pushing away from but it was effortless. He laughed, as she looked down on her feeling he was completely in control, and she was worthless.

" Don't do that to me asshole!"

She screamed, wiping her lips clean.

" .Marilyn . we may not be together but I can control if you have the baby or not. So tell me after all this if you do or not…"

Chris grasped a hold of her arm, with the nastiest smile that could ever be on someone's face.Marilyn couldn't help but realize now that he had this all planned out, since she had walked in. She felt himself push her with brute force, feeling herself free falling downwards falling too fast even to grasp the railing. She just binded her eyes tight seeing only blurs and the blur of him at the top of the stairs now gone. Just like that.

She felt herself smash into the stairs, rolling down effortlessly feeling her body bruising and twisting in the wrong ways. She couldn't even groan out in pain. She was laying at the bottom of the stairs on her back, her hands too sore to even move. She was crying tears not only out of pain, but the fact the man she loved ruined her, and killed her as well as the baby.


Kagome gasped and couldn't help but play it all through her head the way she heard it. It was gruesome. The fact he made sure wasn't able to keep the baby, and left her bruised and ruined completely. Just heartlessly leaving her at the bottom of the stairs, and her now realizing the baby is dead. That killed Kagome. She couldn't even imagine to think it was real, and yet it coming from Loraine's mouth the way she described it, was real as anything.

" Oh my god.. It's just hard to believe he'd have the nerve to do that to her…"

Kagome spoke quietly trying not too be so loud just in case they could both here it through the door. It was heart-wrecking to hear, that the man she loved could possibly do the worse things to her. She now couldn't blame Marilyn for being so upset, so anti-social and miserable. Nobody could place a smile on their face, not even a fake one after that accident. Loraine nodded as she sighed softly, as Kagome had forgotten about checking the stick.

" Ya I know.. They were so happy together. Ever since then he ruined her completely. She's been way miserable then ever, and she's not the same friend anymore. I mean, she was in the hospital for days hoping somehow the baby was alive, but it hurt even more when she found out it was gone. It may have been too early for the idea to be a mother, but I knew she was serious about it. We tried to getting him to court, but the next thing we knew he was gone…"

It was hard to believe. It took Kagome's breathe away. It made her realize she had a reason to be so horrible, and she couldn't blame her now for anything. She took another sip of water, as Loraine slowly got off the subject and looked at her.

" Well Kagome, you should check now. I believe it's done.."

Kagome smiled and looked back at her for a moment and nervously stood from the toilet, feeling her body numb from the waist down, staring at the cup she gave her and smiled politely.

" I'll just get another drink, then we'll check, I promise."

Kagome chirped feeling sweat dripping from her forehead underneath her bangs. She was trying to stall, and she needed another drink since her throat was so dry. Loraine smiled and tagged along with her, as they stumbled into the small tiny kitchen, as she opened the fridge to see barely anything except some soda and energy drinks.

" Look Kagome I know your worried. It's hard. I mean this was probably the last thing you expected to happen to you. I mean Marilyn wasn't the only one who ended up pregnant.."

Loraine swallowed, and Kagome lifted her head after taking a small taste of the energy drink that was nothing she ever tasted before. The after taste was foul, that caused her to spit it out into the sink that made her eyes water it was that revolting. She wiped her mouth and looked straight at Loraine as she bowed her head down.

" You were?"

Loraine threw herself on the side counter, playing with the tap of the sink as she watched it get sucked into the drain.

" It happened when I was way younger. I had to relive it at least once more after the first. I was ten, and I had been taken away after walking late out by some guy. For weeks I was missing, I all I remember was being at his apartment scared and tied down. He promised me he wouldn't kill me if he allowed me to violate me. I had no choice anyways. I managed to escape somehow. It torn me to pieces. Then it happened again at a party when I was sixteen.. Lucky I wasn't pregnant. That spun my life upside down since. I feel bad for MarilynI mean, she actually wanted to keep the kid, and her boyfriend killed it. She had to deliverer the baby, after she found out it was dead…"

Kagome couldn't even imagine delivering the baby after she found out that news. She couldn't understand how she had went through it, all she knew it must of killed her. She took another sip of the energy drink, as Loraine barely smiled.

" Let's go check it out now. Hopefully your not Kagome. I mean that's the last thing you need or anyone."

Kagome agreed as she placed the bottom down, as Marilyn stood by the door way and as hate lingered in her eyes watching her friend revealed what she tried to block out and hide from everything and everyone. She bit down on her lip hard, already hearing her tell the stranger, Kagome everything that wasn't any of her business. She had heard it through the door which got her furious. She just watched them walk back into the bathroom again, as she had fire in her eyes as she watched Kagome faithfully.

" Who the fuck is she, to know my life. It's none of her business. She's already ruined my life, and she doesn't need to do it again. I can't believe her. Telling her everything about me.. Fuck this I can't stand this anymore!"

Kagome swallowed, as she moved over and grabbed the stick firmly in her hands afraid of the answer.


Inuyasha still remained motionless, taking all her backstabbing words and couldn't get his mind or worries off Kagome. He just hoped to god she wasn't pregnant, it would be the worse thing for her to remember on top of everything that was thrown at her. He still laid on the bed practically half asleep seeing now, hearing the little TV going in the background and her no where in sight. He just stumbled around the apartment trying to find where the bathroom, needless to say he stumbled into a different room that was locked, which he managed to effortlessly open.

" What is all this?"

He looked around seeing an empty room, with books, newspaper, and a small TV that was it. It looked like no one wanted to come here, considering it was locked before. The room was clouded with dust that made him choke and sneeze as he scanned around it, intrigued as to why all this pointless stuff was here. He just saw a few picture frames threw in a box, as he bent down and curiously held them in his hands seeing they were pictures of Marilynand Chris, happy and laughing acting like a couple. Most of the pictures had his head cut out and he understood whatever happened, it was clear they weren't together anymore.

" That's her! I'd never would of guessed she looks so happy…"

He told himself flipping through more pictures and placed them back. He managed to stumble upon a yearbook that people signed in the back, with her picture attached as a way younger picture of the couple together. He read over the comments that said ' Hope to see you sometime!' or ' Keep it going, you're the greatest!' He realized she had a lot of good comments written in every different type of ink under the sun. He looked at the one comment that was pointed towards the picture.

' Too bad this had to end! I'm gonna miss ya, and your great laugh! See, here's future Mr. And Ms. Matthews.'

Then he looked over at the stack of phone books that were opened, and saw the same name circled in red ink ' Matthews.' He could see now that she was clearly searching for him, but he didn't understand why. To him if it ended, that meant there was no point of running back at all. But here she was, looking up his last name trying to find him any way she possibly could. He jumped out of skin when heard Kagome's voice as well as Loraine's, as he walked back into the hallway and felt Kagome's bone crushing hug, as he began to laugh.

" Inuyasha, I'm not pregnant!"

She screamed as she managed to knock him down to the ground with ease. Inuyasha dark eyes lit up almost instantly when he saw the pure genuine smile planted on her face, that made her eyes practically disappear. She flew into his open arms as she wrapped them around her tightly and securely, as they laughed as he was laying down underneath Kagome, with his head hanging half way over the bed.

" Good. Let's keep it that way!"

He threw in a quick joke, as he brought himself back up again holding Kagome tightly, as she rested her head nuzzled between his shoulder and his neck. Kagome rose an eyebrow and pushed his bangs from his face, as Loraine seemed quite out of the happiness thing, as though something else grabbed a hold of her attention.

Kagome gently smacked him in the chest, enough that he gasped for air as he looked down at her with a scowl.

" What's that suppose to mean?"

He just looked at the poster, and towards the window realizing it was still gloomy out.

" Nothing at all…"

Loraine looked around the room for a moment in slight alarm, seeing Marilyn was no where near by as she expected. She managed to spot a small note that was there, that had her writing for sure on it.

' Thanks for ruining my life once again. Thanks for telling her all my secrets. She doesn't fucking deserve to know either. Thanks a lot."

Loraine ripped the note off from the mirror, staring at it as reading a million times like there was more to it then that. Her mouth hung half way open, realizing she must of heard every little detail about her speaking about her baby mishap and how her boyfriend treated her so poorly, and was the cause of the baby's death. Inuyasha leaned closer into Kagome as that moment stopped, when Kagome's attention was caught by her throwing herself at the edge of the bed with a small note.

" Loraine? Are you ok? Loraine…?"

Loraine hadn't responded. She just turned around, and managed to give the note to Kagome that Inuyasha clearly ripped out of her hands. He hadn't really questioned or cared where she had gone, since she was trying to stab him anywhere she possibly could. He carefully read the note, but it still didn't make sense to her.

" What damn secret!"

Loraine shook her head, realizing this was only get worse then it ever was. She knew she had a tendency to run off for days even weeks on end when something like this occurred. She wouldn't want to come back, and if she did, she'd come back trashed and bruised once again. She'd be drunk or out of her mind. It had happened each time she saw Chris and it killed Loraine that she couldn't do anything to keep her safe, or from hurting herself.

" Look. Her boyfriend trashed her badly and got her pregnant. He thought it was his friend's baby not his. She told him she was keeping the baby, and next thing she knew he pushed her down the stairs and killed it."

Inuyasha scowled, wondering who in their right minds would even do that to someone, let alone try to kill the baby. Kagome rested against his chest, as she could feel Inuyasha tensing up and his body was a lot warmer then usual. He just thought she was always miserable, but when he heard that he couldn't help but feel strongly for her and realize he wasn't the only one going through things as bad as that.

" Who the fuck in their right minds would do that! I'm sorry but that's disgusting. How could she be with a guy like that!"

Loraine shook her head, as Kagome was trying to calm Inuyasha any way she possibly could since he was yelling and was getting to the point where it showed he was upsetting Loraine.

" I don't know alright? It's done with. She's not seeing him anymore so what's the difference!"

Inuyasha swallowed for a moment, as his eyes shimmered almost with regret of stumbling upon the room with the frames and books showing it was clear she was searching for him. He wanted not to answer that question, but since he knew he couldn't help but tell her.

" She is! I stumbled upon a locked room that had frames and circled things of her boyfriend underneath it."

Loraine swallowed and smacked her head, feeling her body shake as tears were trying to shed beneath the pain she hid beneath her.

" She promised me she wouldn't do this! She promised me she wouldn't go back to him. I know if she does find him she'll be hurt even worse. Also she might never come home this time. I shouldn't have told you Kagome about her boyfriend or life, that's why she left. And she gets mad she tends to leave, and I'm afraid one day she won't come back! She needs someone to look after her, she's basically unstable!"

Kagome moved over and rubbed her back for support. She felt guilty that this happened, as though it was her fault. She just looked at Loraine sadly and grabbed her by the hand and swallowed harshly, as Inuyasha stood idly by.

" I'm sorry. Look, how about you and I go searching for her. It's worth a shot. Inuyasha can wait here just in case she comes back."

She didn't have to say anything. When she saw the sureness and concern dancing in the young girl's eyes she couldn't say no. It was worth a shot. She knew half of the places where she ran to and hide many times before. It was possible she could be there, it wouldn't hurt to find her.

Inuyasha just threw his arms back in disgust, as Kagome threw on one of Marlyn's jackets that were cozy black and red sleeved, that would keep her warm through the rain fall. Kagome had her foot half way out the door, as he snapped completely that made Kagome furious with him.

" Why the fuck do I have to stay here! Who knows if she's gonna fucking gonna come back anyways!"

Right then, Kagome wanted to smack him. It was the side that she had seen along time ago, and had hoped to god was gone, but clearly it wasn't. She was so mad the fact that one of her friends were concerned to find her, since she had a record of doing many harmful and outrageous things that would kill her if she didn't stop her. Here he was, insensitive not caring about anything or even the feelings of her. The last comment, she never thought could come from his mouth, but it did. She just let Loraine go ahead, and turned towards Inuyasha with hate it was unbearable for her to maintain.

" Look Inuyasha. This isn't fucking about you alright! I don't care if you don't like her or not. This is serious, and this isn't about you so get that damn straight alright? Inuyasha how would you like it, if you were in her shoes and she said no to find me knowing I was unstable huh!"

Inuyasha didn't say one word. He just looked at her feeling himself getting ripped apart, and he had never seen that side of Kagome before which stunned him.

" Exactly Inuyasha. Exactly…"

With that, a door slammed and both were out of sight.