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Kira sat where he was, on the couch; slowly taking in what all had happened over the course of last night. He had come home hoping to see Milly waiting for him, only to find his apartment occupied by Lacus Clyne, his former love and now new roommate. What happened to them to be put in this situation was an "act of pure stupidity" as he said.

What started as a basic instinct to start kissing Lacus, turned into the act that brought down his relationship with Milly.

Milly, Miriallia Haw as was her birth name and not her nickname was the light in his life, the one who helped him forget his troubles from the war, the people he killed, the times he entered his berserker SEED mode, and all the pain he brought upon people, and he chased her away. His light was gone, and burnt out, all because of he and his lust for Lacus and her kind words.

Now with Milly gone, who would he turn to for solace, to smile with, to feel better? Who? Kira looked over, and to Lacus, her face still worried about Kira, and if she should approach him.

"Kira, you can't keep brooding over this forever, it's bad for your health, please come eat something" Lacus begged, trying to get Kira to at least eat something. He hadn't done much since he came back in the other night. He cried for a good hour or so, and then sat there on the couch, occasionally running his hand along the sofa, for whatever reason, Lacus had no idea why, just that Kira seemed to take a liking to doing it.

Kira occasionally spooned a few sips of the soup into his mouth, until at his fourth he brought it to his mouth, and dropped his spoon, while a tear fell from the corner of his eye.

Lacus bent down to pick up the spoon, and looked to see Kira slumped over on the kitchen table, his head buried in his arms. "Kira, please just try to eat, I don't want to see you waste away and die, I came all this way to the colony so I could see you again. I didn't mean to end your relationship, but I just couldn't stand to be away from you much longer, so please, try to stay alive, for me" Lacus pleaded.

Looking up, Kira, eyes still red and heavy, walked over and wrapped his arms around her, Lacus, returned the gesture but something inside told her that Kira wasn't doing this out of love and affection, but for another reason. "Lacus" he asked. "Did I do the right thing? Did I?" Kira asked his voice near tears again, in a choked up voice. "Do you think you did?"

Lacus unfortunately, was without an answer.

Miriallia was in almost the same position as Kira was, however she was still silently asking herself the same question: Why? She and Kira had a good relationship going, so why did he cheat on her like this? She supposed that it couldn't be helped, she couldn't hold a candle to Lacus prestige or beauty, and maybe she was just a placeholder till Lacus came back.

At this Milly felt more tears well up in her eyes. She would have continued to cry even more had she not smelled the scent of a fresh cup of tea placed under her nose, and onto the coffee table in front of her.

"I'm told it helps" Dearka said as he sat down in the chair in front of her. Hesitantly, Milly took the cup and sipped the herbal drink down. "So why were you out running around in the dark like that?" Elthman asked as he sipped his own drink down.

"I told you, I don't have anyplace to go back to, not back there anyways," she said in an almost empty voice. "Yeah but what made you want to go running out of Yamato's like that?" he enquired.

"I saw him, with someone, someone else, someone I knew he still loved, and he proved that" she said, raising the cup to her lips once again. "He cheated, on you!" he said, shaking his cup and nearly spilling it's contents. "I saw him, kissing Lacus, Lacus Clyne, the princess of ZAFT, and someone I could never hope to compete with" she said, taking a sip of her tea again.

"Geez, what an idiot!" Dearka said taking another drink. "I'd like nothing more than to just knock his head clean off his shoulders for doing something like that" he knew he was lying, mentally he was thanking Yamato for screwing up, now that Milly was completely unsure and not wanting to see him again, he now had an open invitation to try his luck with the cute, former mobile suit controller.

"Tell you what, I'll let you stay here for as long as you like, and no Yamato to bother you at all." He said wrapping his arm around her shoulder. At this Milly suddenly flinched and felt a sudden chill come to her. "Hey is something wrong?" he asked, feeling her flinch at his touch as well. "No it's just that, maybe I'm tired from all of this". She said. "I'm, going to use your bathroom if that's all right?" she asked. "Yeah go right ahead" he replied.

She turned and walked down the hallway to the said bathroom. 'What was that all about? Could she still be that uncomfortable? Is she still in love with…no way, that's impossible' Dearka thought as he replayed the scene from a few seconds ago in his mind.

Kira walked out of the shower, drying himself off and whipping the mist off of the mirror, looking at the figure starring back at him. His eyes were painted with dark outlines due to fatigue, his skin was starting to pale, and its features were of a mixture of shame and depression. Turning away from the scorn of the mirror, Kira wrapped a towel around his waste and walked into his room, opening up the closet and choosing an outfit to wear.

It wasn't long till Kira felt another presence in his room; turning back he saw the face and familiar pink hair of Lacus. She didn't have the familiar gentle air or calming nature about her, instead her face was twisted into a visage of worry and dread, and afraid that Kira's depression could spiral further out of control.

Walking over to her, Kira wrapped his arms around her, and felt her own arms embrace him as well. "You don't have to worry Lacus, I'm not going to do anything crazy" Kira said assuring the scared girl. "How can I be sure Kira?" Lacus asked, unsure of Kira's mental condition. "I've dealt with this feeling before, and I managed to get over it" he said to Lacus, hoping she would stop worrying over him. "Okay Kira, I'll trust you" Lacus said, hoping that the worst was over.

They stood there holding each other, and it wasn't until Kira brought his lips down to Lacus' forehead, that they parted. Even after what he said to her, he felt a little guilty for doing that, like a part of him still felt like he was still loyal to Milly. He kept his mind away from that as much as he could. If he wanted to move on it was best to just forget about her, no one moves on with his or her life by just thinking about his or her former loves.

"So, what do you say we go out tonight? A treat to new beginnings" Kira said. "I don't have a problem with it" Lacus replied. "Okay go call up the number for Fabrizi's and reserve a table there for two while I get dressed" Kira said as he ushered Lacus out of his room. While he was alone, he turned back to his closet he pulled out a pair of jeans and watched as something fell out of the pocket. Bending down examine the object, he saw it was a wallet sized photo of he and Milly out on their date at the park from a few months ago. He asked a passerby to take the photo of them, and when the film was developed, he asked for two small copies of the picture, one for him, and one for Milly.

Looking back at the picture, Kira suddenly knew that he wasn't fooling the one person he needed to convince about his situation: himself. Still he knew he couldn't wallow like this forever, so taking the picture, he stuffed it into one of his drawers until he was sure he could get rid of it and continued getting dressed.

Milly had sat down in front of the TV channel surfing and hoping to pass the time at Dearka's apartment. It had been a total of 15 hours that she had spent there, and only a small few had been spent sleeping, she had been exhausted, but every time she closed her eyes she saw that event played out in her eyes again. It had been different in some instances, sometimes the two of them were mocking her, and some they continued the act and went even further, totally ignoring her like she wasn't even there.

It was probably best if she informed her parents and returned to her own home, but for now she was too drained and simply wanted to relax. Dearka returned from his errand to the convenience store he lived next to and plopped down beside Milly.

"So anything good on?" he said as he snaked an arm around her shoulders. Milly cringed inwardly at this but let his arm stay there, feeling that she needed to forget about Kira and move on, and maybe give Dearka a chance. "No it doesn't look like it" she replied. Deciding that small talk may be out of the question for now, he decided to try something else. "Say how would you like to go out to eat tonight? My treat" Dearka asked, hoping to get a response from Milly. She was about to protest, but soon heard her stomach rumble due to a lack of sustenance in the time between her last meals. "I am kind of hungry," she admitted. "Cool, I'll go make reservations" he said as he got up and walked over to the phone and dialed the restaurant's number.

Getting up and intending to use the shower so she'd at least be presentable when she went out, but stopping to ask Dearka a question before she walked to the bathroom. "What's the name of the restaurant?" she asked. "Fabrizi's, it's a place that serves great Italian cuisine" Dearka said. At least he was treating her to a place that served Italian, it was always her favorite kind of food, and maybe some of her favorite kinds would take her mind off of her current plight. Or at least she hoped.

Well that's chapter five folks hope you enjoy it, oh and one more thing. In the vein of Cowboy Bebop, I've named the chapters after song names; can anyone out there guess the names of the songs and the performers? I did this with the previous story as well. If you can't guess them all then fear not, I'll be filling you all in on the song names at the end of this little saga somewhere in the near future, so stay tuned, oh and R&R.