Ok then! Thanks so much for reviewing! You guys ((and I'm saying it again...))rock! Thank you sooooo much! Hope you liked Chapter six. It was fun to write! Sorry about the cheesy poetry. It hurt my eyes to write and read it. Naw. I'm just kidding! And the time that has passed since Suze met Jesse, and now has been like six or seven weeks, making this about...like a month and a half, almost two. And oh my gosh! ValiantGoddess Yes! I did get my name from Albino Blacksheep! My friend sings it nonstop! lol!

Suze

I wish I had snagged one of those poems from Jesse's binder. Then maybe I could have stared at it for ages and found an answer. It seems like he knows something. He and I have become pretty good friends, or we would have if I had been able to get over the real Jesse a long time ago. But I can't. He was my world, and now, there's nothing that I want to live for.

Now don't go getting all worried. I'm not going to kill myself, I just want to cry...again. It feels like most of my nights are spent crying, and most of the afternoons too. I can't cry at school, it just won't happen. I thought I'd have time to go to Father Dom's office later, like at lunch, but I didn't. He wasn't there. I wonder where he went. Oh gosh! I hope he's not hurt again! But come to think of it, where is Paul? He hasn't been annoyingly all over me lately, that's a relief. I only have one more class and then I'm out of this pit for the day... thank heavens!

When I got home, my mom was already there. Lately, she hasn't been getting home for about another hour. I hope she's not taking me to another shrink. I hate going and answering dumb questions for hours on end. It does nothing for me, or anyone that wants to know what I"m up to either.

"Oh good, Susie, you're home. Where's Brad and David" Of course, they hadn't seen my mom's car, and bolted inside, they were taking time coming in. Goodness knows why. It's HOT out there!

"Uh, they're coming, I think. Why are you home early anyway Mom? I thought you had to work for another hour."

"Well, Andy and I were thinking that we'd have some family time. You've changed so much lately. What's up sweetie"

"I'm just tired lately" I lied. Well, only partly. I am tired. Just not what she thinks. "They're swamping us with homework again. I'm going to go up and try to knock off a chunk of that darn homework before dinner, OK"

"No. You and Brad, Jake, David, Andy, and I are going to take some of that family time just as soon as...Oh. There they are. Brad, David, come here for a minute will you please" She told them the same stuff I heard, and they told her the same thing I told her. Homework..ya ya ya. I took this stalling time to go dump my backpack and change. Comfort clothes would work well.

I changed into my favorite faded, ripped, black jeans, and a black shirt. Even though I look terrible with my hair up, I pulled it into a pony tail. Dealing with it just wasn't going to work right now.

Who knows when Jesse would work up the guts to go see Father Dom, judging by the way he acted today anyway. If only Father D. would tell me his phone number, then I could call and make a plan, and then I wouldn't have to work anything out. Much.

I got called down to dinner, and was expecting some of that wonderful "family time". My mom must have been all planned out, because she didn't say anything about it. We had a nice dinner, at least until my mom had to go and drop the bomb.

"Oh, Susie, you know that boy Father Dominic was talking about, Hector I think his name was, you know? Well, Father Dominic said that he doesn't get out much, and you two know each other fairly well, and that he could use a good homecooked meal. So we invited him for dinner tomorrow. Isn't that wonderful"

"Sure mom. What time is he coming over"

"The usual dinner time. Seven." Oh. Joy. Boy guess who's excited? 'Ol Suze! Don't we all know though"Is that OK with you" Do I have a choice? No. Do I ever? No.

"Yeah, I guess. I don't have a say do I"
"Well of course you do" Andy decided to make me feel better, even though you could totally tell he was lying. And you could tell by the look my mom was giving him. I was the Shut-up-now-or-else look. Wow.

"Come on Susie, he hasn't had a home cooked meal in what? Ten years" I think it's been more than that...

"I don't know Mom, all I know is that he goes to school with me, and that he's in six of my classes."

"Well ok, don't get so mad, honey, I was just trying to help" Ok mom, whatever. If you don't want to make me like this, then don't invite dear "Hector" over for dinner.

"I'm fine, Mom, just tired. May I be excused now" Sleep was sounding good right now.

"I guess, but Hector's still coming for dinner tomorrow. And so are you."

"Fine, fine. I get it. I'll be in my room if you need me."

"Ok" everyone answered back at me.

When I made it up to my room, all I wanted to do was sleep. Unfortunately, if my mom came in, then she'd be mad because I didn't do my homework. Blah! Homework. Who needs it? I looked over at the windowseat and wished Jesse was here with me. The real Jesse. Not Hector, Jesse. Hot, kind, caring, dead, Jesse. But, no matter how hard I wished, he wasn't coming back. Father D had already told me enough about it, but that didn't stop me from wanting him back. My room just wasn't the same.

Finally, finishing my last page of math, I could finally go to sleep. I was nine, so my mom would just think that I had konked out while doing my math. Good. I set my alarm for the next morning and dozed off.

Otay! sorry again that it's short, I've been busy. What with my sister going to have her baby, everyone in my family being sick, and spilling my mom's rootbeer all over the keyboard, I've had plenty to deal with. I promise that I will try hard for a longer chapter eight. Gosh dang that 't' key! it just won't stop sticking! gargh!