Chapter 2- Kodak Moment

I couldn't sleep that night. Actually I couldn't sleep that whole weekend. I was to scared to sleep on my bed, I was to scared to close my eyes I was to scared to even move. It was kind of like when I watched darkness falls, I knew the lady wasn't there but I could still feel her. But it was kind of different because Tom wasn't a character he was real.


I went to school the next week really tired. I could barely keep my eyes open while I was getting stuff out of my locker. I was bending down to grab my books when someone placed there hands on my shoulders.

"Did you miss me?" the person whispered

I slowly closed my eyes and bit my bottom lip. Cause instantly Tom's face popped into my head.

"This is the part where you're supposed to say…of course I missed you Craig you're the best boyfriend anyone could ever have" Craig said taking his hands off my shoulders

I slowly got up and gave Craig a stare. It wasn't an evil stare because I wasn't mad at him it was kind of like an "I'm not feeling good type of stare."

"You weren't expecting someone else were you?" He asked

"No" I said "I'm just really tired"

"I tried calling your cell this weekend but you didn't pick up" Craig said

"I was busy" I replied

"Well you should be ever since your photos shoot. Must be fun getting all those calls from agents" he said with a smile

I gave him another one of those stares.

"Oh well the bells about to ring so I have to go to my first class" He said

He was about to bend over and give me a kiss but I pulled away.

"You don't want to be late for class" I said

Craig gave me a look. Like what's going on with you type of look. I shut my locker and started walking away. I felt bad for what I did but at this moment I didn't want to talk to anyone.


I walked into the bath room and sat in a bathroom stall. I tried not to cry but I did I let out tears thousands of them that wouldn't stop. Someone walked into the bathroom and I slowly started to hold in my tears. I took a big breath in and wiped my face. I opened the stall door to see Paige standing in front of the mirror. She gave me a smile and continued to do her stuff. I walked up to the mirror my self and tried to fix my self up.

"Hey Manny, what's wrong why were you crying?" she asked

Paige and I hadn't really been best buddies ever since prom. Actually we barely talked but she was the only one that actually knew what I was going to through. I didn't say anything I just kept on looking in the mirror.

"Did Craig break up with you?" she asked

"No" I replied "I'm just not feeling good"

"Well how was the photo shoot? I'm sure was you took really hot pictures" she said with a smile.

"Right great pictures!" I sarcastically said "Now why are you wasting your time talking to me?"

"Manny what's going on?" Paige asked

"Nothing" I replied "Paige can't you mind your own business for 2 minuets"

I dried my hands and stared walking out the door. Paige grabbed my arm and tried to stop me.

"We may not be the closest Manny but we were always best friends. Please just tell me what is wrong."

At that point I started crying. I couldn't tell anyone else because no one else would understand it. Paige slowly let go of my hand and had this look on her face. But this look I can't name because I had never seen it before.

"Tom raped me" I said thru the tears "He raped me"

I collapsed to the cold floor. My face in my hands crying, Paige came and sat next to me wrapping her arms around me. I don't know why I told her. I don't know why I couldn't just hold it in and walk away like I was fine. But for some reason something was pushing me to tell someone anyone and luckily it spilled out on Paige.

"And it's all my fault" I said "It's all my fault"

"No it's not" Paige said rubbing my back "It's not your fault"

The first bell rang as Paige and I sat there.

"Aren't you going to be late for class?" I asked

"Yeah but who cares, my best friend is in pain. I'll be late to every class just to make her feel better."

I didn't know Paige was that nice. Maybe it was because she knew what I was going thru or she just felt really bad for me. But just the fact that she was there made Paige seem like a really good friend.

I got up and Paige did to. We looked at each other and smiled.

"Thanks Paige thanks a lot. You're the first person I told."

"Don't worry Hun I'm here for you. Even though before it didn't seem like it you are one of my bestest friends."

I gave her another smile as I wiped away one more tear from the bottom of my eye. This was kind of like a Kodak moment like why wasn't someone there to take a picture.

"Your one of my best friends to" I whispered

She put her hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.

"And this is only the beginning Manny. Even though it seems like your life is over it is. You still have me and Craig and Emma and your parents you'll be fine. And you'll be perfect once he's in jail."

"That means I would have to tell the police." I said with a confused look

"Yeah…you have to tell the police" Paige replied

"I'm not telling anyone else Paige, it's just you and me and tom who know" I said

"No Manny you have to tell the police you have to tell an adult."

"I'm not telling anyone Paige. I don't even know why I told you." I said almost yelling

"Because you know I can help you" Paige replied

"No you can't…because I don't kneed help Paige" I yelled

"Manny yes you do…your in denial now but pretty soon you'll figure out that you do"

The Kodak moment was now gone. I didn't need any help…and right now the only help Paige would give would be leaving me a lone.

"Manny hun…" Paige started

"Paige I don't need help" I whispered "I'm fine"

I left the bathroom with anger, I swear steam was about to come out of my ears. I was about to cry but I just held it in. Paige stepped out of the bathroom. I could feel her stare.

"If you don't tell someone Manny, I will" She said

Her voice was echoing thru the air. I could tell she was really concerd and she wanted to help but I didn't want her to. I regretted telling her now, I just wanted to go home and curl up under my covers and disapper. But unfortunately I couldn't do that. I turned around and gave Paige a glare.

"It's my life Paige. You cant tell me what to do to it. So mind your own business…I'm fine" I yelled

Yup…the Kodak moment was over for sure. I knew it was to good to be true.


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