Chapter 3- Mixed Emotions

I am so scared that Paige actually is going to tell someone. Maybe she was just trying to scare me! I don't know but I am pretty freaked. For some reason I don't want anyone to know…especially my mom. Because then she would go crazy on me and ask me why I didn't tell her. I mean that day was the worst day of my life! I don't want to remember it anymore! If it was only me that knew about it I know I would forget it but now that Paige knows she's probably going to tell the whole world. Just like she told everyone I was pregnant. She said she was trying to help me by telling everyone that I was pregnant it didn't help at all…well maybe it did. HELP PEOPLE START MORE RUMORS ABOUT ME!


When I got home that day I went to my bedroom and cried for an hour. Cried because I was raped, cried because Paige might spill. I wouldn't have stopped until I heard someone IM me on my computer. I wiped my eyes and walked over to the computer. It was Paige.

A1chick- Manny hey hun I'm sorry about what happened I didn't mean to be mean. I promise I won't tell anyone even though I really want to. I know your there so just say something please!

Paige was probably telling the truth maybe she wouldn't tell anyone.

SmileyGurl- Hey…it's ok I'm fine as long as you don't tell anyone!

A1chick- Good so I've been so scared that you hated me or something. I don't want something like last year to happen again.

Smileygurl- Yeah I hope we don't go to prom in the same dress again and then have you end up tearing it off.

A1chick- Yeah I know lol well I got to go I'll talk to you later sweets.

Smileygurl- Yeah later

Paige signed off

I kind of felt good now. Knowing that Paige wasn't going to tell anyone atleast I hope she wasn't. I can trust Paige not to tell anyone right? Of course I can! Once Paige signed of Craig signed on immediately iming me.

OverxPosed- Hi

Smileygurl- Hi

OverxPosed- Paige told me why your acting the way you are and we have to talk about it.

Smileygurl- What Paige told? Craig I can explain

OverxPosed- Just come over so we can talk about it ok Manny.

Smileygurl- Aren't you mad I didn't tell you?

OverxPosed- No because I should have figured it out

Craig signed off.

Oh my Gosh Paige did tell someone. What am I going to tell Craig now? He's probably going to tell someone else. OMG what am I going to do?

"Mom I'm going to Craig's" I yelled as I walked out side


The humid summer air swept my face as I started walking to Craig's. I was trying to think of what to say to him.

"Craig I didn't tell you I was raped because…" I said to myself

Now there were more emotions mixed in my head. I thought I was going to like faint of something. I sensed tears so I bit my bottom lip. I got to Craig's house and knocked on the door.

"I'm coming!" Craig yelled

It wasn't to late I could just leave now. Leave a flee Canada maybe go to the states like Minnesota I think I have a cousin that lives in Minnesota or California yes it's very hot there. I can start a new life, get a new identity so then I would never have to think about it again. That's a good idea…I started to turn around when the door opened. My heart started to beat faster. God I hate Paige now.

"Manny where are you going?" he asked

I slowly turned back around with a smile on my face.

"I didn't think you were going to come so I was going to leave"

"We have to talk Manny." Craig said

"Craig I didn't want to tell you because…" I started but Craig interrupted me

"Lets go to the garage and talk about it…not out here"


Craig and I walked to the very familiar garage of his. Mixed with good memories and bad. I stood there as I watched Craig pacing back and forth trying to think of what to say. He finally looked at me and then gave me a hug. His warmth made me want to melt. I couldn't stop myself. I was about to blab to Craig. I could feel my nose sting as I started to cry. Craig still hugging me…I started to cry.

"Manny it's going to be ok" he said

"No it's not…everything…everything is going wrong now. Your probably mad at me because Paige had to tell you and my moms probably going to find out and then there are going to be more rumors at school."

Craig and I stood there him still holding me.

"I understand why Paige had to tell me…I understand why you didn't want everyone to know"

"But that won't stop the rumors they'll say that I wanted it and I didn't" I cried

"Manny I don't think any teenage girl would want it but I guess we didn't learn from last time."

I quickly pulled away from Craig still holding his arms and looking him in the eyes.

"Last time?" I asked "You mean with Paige?"

"Paige has been pregnant before to?" Craig asked

"Pregnant? Who said anything about being pregnant?" I asked

Craig pulled away from me also now we weren't touching.

"Paige told me you were pail because you were pregnant again."

I shook my head. "Pregnant no…at least I don't think so."

"Then what's going on?" Craig asked

Since I know he wouldn't leave me a lone about it I was going to spill my guts out to Craig to.


10 min later

"…and that's the story" I ended

Craig was there with a shocked face. My nose started to hurt again but I didn't want to cry. Craig gave me a hug.

"I'm sorry Manny" Craig said

"Don't worry about it. I just don't want to remember it so try not to talk about it ok?"

"Yeah" Craig replied

Craig took easier than what I thought he would. I'm happy he knows now and hopefully Paige doesn't' tell anyone anything else.