Twice in one day... (okay I know late tonight but w/e). Thanks for all the reviews guys... they made my day... well sort of. I went to the pool and got a tan, so your reviews were right up there, LOL. No, but I did get to laugh at my cousins who are still in school (sorry for all those of you still in school... I truly pity you.) Anywho,

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Much love!

-Annie

PS: Maddy- you thought you'd get by unnoticed... ha ha yeah right... you were the one who crowned Jesse 'DeSissy'. Thank you so very much for making me LMAO when I read your review where it was essentially all 'DeSissy got put down!'

PPS: I'm putting this all right now because I aam probably ending this story soon... or not... but since I leave for the summer soon... it's probably almost time to end it... so sad... oh well.

PPS: Okay... almost done here... do any of yu read Tamora Pierce? I love her books and I just sent a request to FanFiction to have the 'Song of the Lioness' quartet added as a catogory! YAY!

Now it's time for chapter 10! ENJOY!


She was with the gay designer. Sarah had a crazed look in her eyes.

"Is this what you wanted Paul, when you left me… is this who you wanted me to become? I am now talking with somebody I don't even know, about my love life or lack there of. Talking to him about how my best friend stole my ex-boyfriend from me," she yelled at us.

"Paul, is this true? Did you go out with Sarah?" I asked shocked.

"No… I mean we went out on one date… that was it. She became like my stalker after that, but I figured when I saw her here tonight, with you and all, that she was okay," Paul mumbled.

"Liar! You told me you loved me, that we would always be together, and now, you're with her," Sarah snarled. "Jake, you might want to leave the house, it's going to get ugly, oh wait it already is, I mean Suze is here," Sarah laughed out. I guessed Jake was the designer.

"Shut the hell up about my fiancé, okay Sarah?" Paul snarled sounding equally as dangerous.

"Let me handle this Paul," I said, "you bitch. Okay, is that what you wanted me to say. Did you want to make me mad? Like I've said many times today, you can't make somebody fall in love with you. If Paul says you are creepy and a stalker, I'm probably going to believe him over you, okay? You want to know why?"

"Why?" Sarah growled.

"Because we love each other and nothing you can say or do is going to change that."

"You said you loved Jesse at one point, yet you broke up with him and turned him gay," Sarah said laughing manically.

"I didn't turn him gay. He was probably born with a chemical unbalance in his brain," I said… yes! It does pay to listen in Prof. Deser's class! "And what I had with him was a shadow of love, not even. It was probably to prepare me for figuring out what real love is like."

"Still, why would Paul want you?" Sarah asked maliciously, "I mean certainly, you haven't given him what I gave to him? Right Paul?" Paul blushed. I had never seen him blush. God, maybe I was being too rash. Maybe Paul didn't love me. Maybe I was just another piece of ass he could claim as his own. I was sick of sitting back and letting my heart rule. I needed to go somewhere I was needed. I needed to go save Jesse from Carlos. I didn't care if Paul tried to stop me. He can't just say he loves me, and that he wants me and then look like he would like to go rip some other girl's clothing off. Not that he looked like that at the moment, but how could I trust him? I started walking out of the kitchen.

"Suze, don't listen to her," Paul groaned as he grabbed my arm.

"I'm not listening to her, I'm listening to myself. I have to go right now, Jesse needs somebody. Carlos needs me too, I know what it's like to give somebody unrequited love and I'll be able to talk to him."

"Don't go," Paul pleaded with me again.

"I have to, and if you love me, you'll let me," I said fighting the tears back from my eyes. I wanted so much just for Paul to hold me at that moment, but I had to do this for myself. I couldn't let love blind me again. It was crippling me and I needed to get away from it.

"I love you, but this is crazy. Why are you doing this for somebody who hurt you?" Paul asked. I could see Sarah smirking.

"Have you not been listening to me Paul," I yelled, "I AM DOING THIS FOR MYSELF! Okay. This is the only way I can let go of something that has held me back for years. I have to do this."

"Then you're not going alone," Paul said to me looking hurt. I hated doing this to him.

"Yes I am," I said. The tears were almost too much.

"No, I won't let you." Paul pushed me up against the wall like he had earlier this night. He still made my blood feel hot and cold at the same time, but I was resisting. He put his mouth on mine. I tried to push away and he fought me down. I couldn't let this happen, not now. I used all my strength and pried his mouth off of mine. I found that I was breathless. Paul seemed satisfied with the result. Damn, I wasn't able to speak. I caught my breath.

"Paul," I gasped, "I love you with all my heart, but I have to do this. I can't let you come with me, your love will help me but your presence would be a hindrance."

"I am a stronger shifter then you Suze, how the hell would I be such a hindrance?" Paul yelled.

"Stay with Sarah, or do whatever, but you are not coming with me Paul Michael Slater," I said much to Sarah's obvious delight. I started to walk up the stairs.

"Suze, you forbade me to come with you physically, so I can show how much I love you, I will do that, but I do know another way to come with you, and by God if it's the last thing I do, I am going to do it. I can talk mind to mind with you. Or did I forget that little lesson during our passionate kiss in my bedroom," Paul's voice resounded in my head making me blush. I was unnerved, but I thought back, "Fine, come with me this way, but when I tell you to shut up, you better do that or I will kill you when I'm through Paul."

"But then we wouldn't have had any fun Susie," Paul retorted. I knew him well enough at this point that I knew he was smirking.

"Damn him," I thought. It was only too late that I realized he was connected to me through my mind. I was in the bedroom where the opening to the shadowland had been. I could hear Paul's laughter ring out from all the way in the kitchen.