Chapter 11! Yay! Sam (BillThePonyLlama) you get major props in my story... (read to find out). Anyways, you find out more about Jesse's past, and Paul, well he becomes even more of a hottie! Not much else to say except that if I don't get lots of long reviews... I will end it abruptly and VERY meanly... MWUHAHAHAHA. (or not.) Hope you like it!

Much love!

-Annie


"So Suze," I heard in my mind as soon as I got into shadowland.

"What Paul?" I thought back exasperated.

"Well, you know how you told me to do something else?"

"Yeah."

"Do you want a scone and some coffee for when you're done? I know how tired people can get from being up in the shadowland."

"God dammit Paul, not now!" I yelled back, with my mind of course.

"I wish I could see you right now, you always look so hot when you're mad. You look hot all the time though." I seriously wanted to melt right there, but I heard somebody scream.

"Shit Paul, you need to shut up. I hear Jesse, but I can't quite find him!"

"Fine, fine, but really do you want a blueberry scone or a cranberry one?"

"Blueberry, now bye," I thought back. I finally tried to shut my mind down a little. It didn't work.

(A/N: Thanks Sam (BillThePonyLlama) for this awesome idea!)

"One more thing," Paul thought. I swear I could see him smirking.

"What?" I said exasperated.

"I love you." Now I wanted to melt. I mean come on, who wouldn't?

"I love you too, but I won't love you as much when I get back if you don't let me go right now to go find Jesse. I have to let go."

"Okay." I kept walking. I wanted to turn back right then and there, and jump into Paul's arms. I heard the scream again. Damn. Jesse better be afraid.

"No, NO!" I heard a Spanish accented voice say. I couldn't tell if it was Jesse or Carlos.

"Jesse?" I said tentatively.

"Querida," I heard a breathy voice say.

"I am not your Querida Jesse. You are gay and I am not a man. Do you understand?" I said. God, Jesse was dense.

"What? No what did you do with mi Querida?" I heard that same accented voice say. I opened the door and found Carlos lying over Jesse's seemingly dead body.

"Shit, you son of a yeah… what the hell did you do to him?" I screamed. I needed Jesse here to let go. I was not going to bury the man I brought back to life. I wasn't going to do that.

"I didn't mean to, but he was struggling too much. He had to be sedated," Carlos cried out. I saw Jesse's eye wink open. It was only for a minute, but I knew that this was Jesse's signal to me.

"Get out," I hissed, still trying to sound mad.

"But, he is mi Querida!"

"Not any more, Jesse is dead. He will move on, and you won't. You want to know why? You killed a man!"

"But-" Carlos pleaded as I shoved him out the door.

"Leave," I hissed again. Man I was good at acting. When I was sure Carlos was gone, I tapped Jesse on the shoulder.

"Jesse, it's me, Suze."

"Oh, thank you so much for getting that thing away from me," Jesse whispered. "Before Carlos left for France, we were in a relationship. When our parent's found out, they were furious. My parents dealt with it by getting Maria to become my betrothed. Carlos's parents sent him away to France. They couldn't bear to see him anymore. Carlos pleaded for me to come with him, but I wouldn't. He went sort of crazy then. I knew then, that it would have never worked between us."

"I see Jesse, now-" I started to say as the door flew open.

"How dare you tell this out of style bitch about our relationship. I thought I meant more to you then that Hector!" Carlos screamed with tears in his eyes.

"I'm not out of style," I said calmly, "and if you were listening, you have no relationship now."

"Si, she is correct Carlos. I do not love you, I have found somebody else," Jesse said. I took Jesse's hand, and shifted us out of shadowland.