Chapter Four: Singing to the Sky


The excitement it's all too much. In a couple of minutes I'm going to Nittle Grasper concert. I can't wait to see Sakuma-san sing again. So what if I went yesterday? It's not my fault that they made two concerts in this town is it?

Maiko kept telling me I'm insane, and my mom kept telling me I should've used my money for something else. My dad just shook his head and ignored our endless discussion.

It's ok though. I know they are worried that I'm too obsessed with him. Well, I admit I admire him a lot, but it's not like he's my god or something... well, he is like a god, but that's normal, 'cause, as I tell anyone that is willing to hear me for more than five minutes (or maybe just for more than one single minute, and usually that's Hiro) I want to be like him.

I dream that one day I'll sing along with him in a stage, with the crowd screaming at us, and Hiro playing the guitar. What else could I ask for?

... maybe a little support from someone. I know I have Hiro, but his parents ask so much from him he's always busy with school things. Also, he's different from me.

The other day I heard one of our teachers commenting that I was a bad influence and that, while he had a bright future, I would be lucky if I ever got a decent job.

It hurt you know? I know I'm not the brightest apple of the tree or whatever you want to call me, but that's not fair. I have many talents you know? I can write lyrics, that maybe aren't the coolest ever written, but they are not that bad. And I can play the synthesizer, not like a pro, but I'm better than many. And I can sing!

... Why isn't that enough? One day, Hiro and I will make the audience go wild with our songs, I'm sure of it. So why isn't it that enough?

So what if I'm not smart or have many talents, I'm a good person and that's what matters right? I mean would I want to be a smart student with many talents but have a bad attitude, being pessimistic and mean? Would I change who I am to be more of what people expect from me?

... I can't believe I'm actually thinking about it. No, I wouldn't. I... maybe... if I could be more like them...

Ah, but there's no point on thinking about it, is there? I can't change who I am. I'm fine by being just me... Yeah right, not even I believed that.

I want to make my mom and dad proud like Maiko does. I want my teachers to respect me and I want my classmates to admire me instead of making fun of me. I want to be able to understand the classes without Hiro's explanations.

I want so many things... But Hiro says he wouldn't change me for the world. Sometimes I wonder if that's true, but he says he likes me for who I am. He says I'm his best friend and that he's proud of me. He says I make him smile.

Ah, maybe that's enough for me. All I want is one, just one, person that likes me for who I am, and I guess Hiro does.

And who cares about that stupid teacher anyway! One day he'll turn his old tv on and he'll see me, bright and happy, singing in front of thousands! And then he'll regret not having faith in me...

Faith... I wonder if Sakuma-san ever felt like no one had faith on him... Nah, he's the most talented singer in Japan, maybe even the world! I bet thousands of people supported his dream and help him become a singer.

Me on the other hand have Hiro. And as long as he sticks to my side I'll keep on trying, I promise!

He's the best friend I could've ask for, and I'll sing as loud as I can until I'm sure that everyone in this country has heard us. I'll sing with all my heart until I share the stage with Sakuma-san and Hiro and I are considered the best along with Nittle Grasper.

The concert is starting! Listen everyone, I promise this:

I'll sing as hard as I can until I'm out of breath!


Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or any of it's characters.

A/N: Thanks to Guren (I noticed you reviewed all my Gravitation fics), Kanilla, HeavenGoddess, and DECP (yeah I love the angst!).
Just to make it clear, except for the interludes, all the stories are supposed to take place when all of them were teeanagers, around 13 to 16 years old. In Hiro's case I think he was 13 and so he that's when he started learning to play the guitar. He could've been younger or a bit older though...
The interludes are kind of a break of all the angst, so most of them will be sweet and fluffy.
This is to celebrate my b-day, so I hope you'll like it. Unlike Ryuichi, I can't imagine Shuichi being anything but optimistic...
Sorry if there are mistakes. Next: Intruder.