Chapter five: Intruder
I'm scared. I may not look like it, but I'm scared like I've never been before in my life. I know I'm good, and I know they'll have to take me in, whether they like it or not.
And there lies the problem, what if they don't like me? What if they don't want me? Tohma assured me that it would be fine and that there would be no trouble.
"Just show them what you've are worth for", he says. But it's not that easy. I could very well be fucking Beethoven and still they might not accept me. Cause I'm an intruder. I'm not one of them, I don't know anything about them, I mean I can't even remember their names!
So, I'm worried, and scared. I'll go do my best, but still...
For what Tohma told me, they have know each other since forever, or at least since a very long long time now, so they are best friends and all. I've never had a best friend. I had acquaintances at school, but there wasn't anyone that I could trust to, no one ever trusted me either. To everyone else, I was just another spoiled child...
So how am I supposed to fit in this group? How can I make them trust me? How can I learn to trust them?
I envy them... to have such a dream and someone to share it with... they won't like me, because I don't share they dream. For me, this band thing is just a hobby. For them it's their lives.
I'm so scared... I can imagine them working with me, smiling and all, but I wonder... what will they say about me when I'm not around? Will they fake their friendship to me and avoid me as whenever they can?
Maybe it's just a low self-esteem, but who can blame me? I've never had real friends before. I don't know how to accept the fact that they might just like me and become my friends.
I remember now. Shindou-san and Nakano-san. I'll meet them in a few minutes, and see for sure if this will work or now. The building is in view and I can't help myself from dragging my feet as I walk... I'm a Fujisaki for God's sake! I should be walking with confidence to the building, maybe even with a superior attitude!
Damn it. Fuck it all. If they don't accept me I'll just go tell Tohma I don't like them and that will be it. So now let's go, confident Seguchi-like smile and Fujisaki attitude, I know how good I am, so there's nothing to be worried about.
Just breath in and out Suguru, and please, for all that you love in this world, please remember, the one with long hair is Nakano and the one with the pink one is Shindou.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or any of it's characters.
A/N: Thanks to Guren... the only one who reviewed (sobs in a dark corner of her room) lol
Strawberry pocky for her!
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