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Chapter 4 - Addicted
I heard you're doing okay
"This is Kai…my fiancé…"
He could not…no…would not accept what he just heard. This could not have been possible!
But I want you to know
He couldn't get her words to stop replaying themselves inside his head. "..my fiancé…" And the sickest part, even with that neutral look on her face, she actually looked…happy.
I'm a dick
He could almost wish he never touched one thing on his plate. It was simply sickening to see him feed Cagalli bits and pieces off his plate. Even he never got a chance to do that.
I'm addicted to you
But why did he have to care so much? Why couldn't he just stop fidgeting underneath the table? Why couldn't he enjoy his free meal? Why couldn't he just act normal?
Oh yeah.
Because she was with someone else, and enjoying every breathing moment of it. And the worst part? That someone wasn't him.
I can't pretend I don't care
She could tell. She could clearly see it in his stare. She snuck a peek or two at him when she turned her head to be fed by Kai, and every time, she felt like gawking as she saw him still staring at her.
Finally, it just got to the point where it annoyed and scared the hell out of her.
"It's impolite to stare."
When you don't think about me
Athrun was taken back and quickly swallowed his food before anyone else could see. He blinked a couple of times and his face began to flush as everyone gave him curious looks from around the table.
"Heh heh…great food…" he managed to say as their eyes just made him sink into his seat in embarrassment.
Do you think I deserve this?
She giggled as she happily chewed on her food. She simply loved it when she won one over Athrun, especially when other people were around to see it!
She watched him crawl down to his "happy place" and she just couldn't stop giggling softly in her mind. He looked so cute like that, blushing like he was still 16. She had that gift, to make him blush at any given time by just being, well, Cagalli.
But wait!
Why was she dwelling on such thoughts! She was happily engaged to someone who was not Yuna, not Athrun, but clearly better!
I tried to make you happy
He still continued to gag uncontrollably under his breath, watching those two feeding one another. It just wasn't fair. But then again, karma was a bitch.
But you left anyway
He couldn't lie to himself. Cagalli was completely right to have broken up with him. Mia wasn't an innocent person, but protecting her was a priority he was not willing to trash. He himself didn't know why he had to protect her, but he just knew he'd regret it afterwards.
But right now, it wasn't Mia. It was Cagalli. He had hurt her years back, and now, it was all coming back to him. Yup. With that settled, karma is a bitch.
I'm trying to forget that
She felt bad, torturing him like this. She didn't do it on purpose, of course. Kai had always done this every time they ate. It was just a habit and she liked it.
But she swore to God, if he wouldn't stop staring, she'd personally rip his eyes out and make him eat it. Why couldn't he accept that fact that they were over?
I'm addicted to you
"Wait here, a sec, Cagalli. I've just got to make a quick trip the men's room. Excuse me," he said ever so politely, that in all ways just made Athrun saw a reflection of himself as the gentleman he was 4 years ago. It was really scary to find someone else who could pass as you, and even more scary to find that person engaged to your ex.
But I want it/ And I need it/ I'm addicted to you
Why couldn't he stop staring? He was taking advantage of the fact that Kai wasn't present at the table. He took this time to stare her down, knowing fully that he probably wouldn't have another chance to. Just staring at her not looking back at him just made his knees feel like a pile of goo.
Now it's over/ Can't forget what you said
She just couldn't stand it anymore. She had to leave…NOW!
And I never want to do this again
She stood up, her chair banging against the wall behind her. Everyone stopped what they were doing, again, and stared up at her.
"I'm going home. Just not…feeling to well, I guess. Tell Kai not to worry. He doesn't need to go home. He needs a break. After all, he's been cooped up in that office longer than I have. If you excuse me…"
Heartbreaker
Athrun blinked and watched her walk away, for the second time today. What else in his life could go wrong?
Since the day I met you/ And after all we've been through
"Uh…Cagalli, wait!" He looked at the people still seated at the table. "Uh, I should be heading home, too. I mean, it's getting late, and well, I might lose my way, being dark and everything…"
Still a dick/ I'm addicted to you
"But it's only 9:22, Athrun. Stay a while!" Dearka pressed, now thoroughly drunk.
"Yeah, and you live like what, 10 minutes away? Gee, live a little," Yzak implied, taking a bite of his lobster.
I think you know that it's true
"Yeah, but I really got to get going…so….see ya!"
And he made a run for it, not caring who was in his way. He simply pushed them aside.
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
He just caught up with her. She was walking a mere 5 inches ahead, all the while not knowing, and yet he still didn't have the guts to tap her shoulder and offer to walk her home.
Do you think I deserve this?
"Face it, Zala, just face it. She's not going to talk to you, especially after tonight…hell, even after this afternoon. Just lay off, Zala…walk home now, while she still might at least want to talk to you. Just go home….back away from the blondie…That's it….nice and slow….you're doing great…"
He just eased himself away, nice and slow. He just didn't have the balls to confront her about everything. She still didn't even know why he did what he did back then. He wanted to tell her bad, so that they could have a new start.
I tried to make you happy/ I did all that I could
But, then again, there was this Kai person. He became a new obstacle. But still. If he couldn't have a relationship with Cagalli as her boyfriend, then at least after his confession, they could still be friends.
Just to keep you/ But you left anyway
"Yeah, that sounds good. I'll just tell her….maybe….just maybe she might change her mind about marrying Kai. He doesn't seem all that bad…they do seem happy together…who am I to stop them from marrying?"
I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you
He was home in less time than he thought. Surprise, surprise.
But I want it/ And I need it/ I'm addicted to you
She survived walking home, and surprisingly, he wasn't following her. She opened the door to her extremely huge bedroom, with an extremely huge mess lying about that she didn't bother to clean, ever.
Now it's over/ Can't forget what you said
She hugged up against her pillow, belly down against the mattress, the only source of light coming from her huge windows next to her bed.
And I never want to do this again
Awkward. It seems that the only bits of light were shining on one certain place. Really scary. Her position shifted to a sitting one, still hugging her pillow, and faced the drawer beside her bed, where all the light seemed to be fixed on.
She opened it and dust flew everywhere. I told you it was ages since she cleaned the place up. Her throat grew dry at what she saw.
Her kissing him….all in one precious picture.
Heartbreaker
He walked up to his couched and settled himself upon it with a huge "thump" as he landed on the cushions.
How long will I be waiting/ Until the end of time
He turned his head to rest on the head of the couch and found a picture frame settled on a side table beside the couch.
He took the frame into his hand and all he could say was "Cagalli…" as one small tear left his eye.
I don't know why I'm still waiting/ I can't make you mine
FLASHBACK
The two sat laughing on the grass as a cool breeze flew by. They were having a picnic, not exactly knowing what to do, as she was rarely given any chance to treat herself ever.
"So, rolling around in the grass after spending tons of money on these clothes, $40. Pigging out on watermelons, $10. Sitting on the grass while talking to the best girl in the world? Priceless."
She blushed unwillingly and gave him a small peck on cheek number one.
I'm trying to forget that/ I'm addicted to you
He shook his finger. "Ah, ah, ah. You're missing one," he said while tapping his other cheek.
But I want it/ And I need it
"Fine!" she yelled in surrender and kissed his other cheek.
Click
A flash broke out, and while she was still a little dazed, she did managed to sock him in the stomach for taking a picture of what she just did.
But, I guess, spending time with the one you loved just made you do crazy things…even if it did hurt you back…
I'm addicted to you
She let out a sigh and her eyes gazed softly at the phone beside her, on the nightstand. She could just give him a call. You know, to apologize for how she acted.
Now it's over/ Can't forget what you said
"What am I saying? Me? Apologize to him? When he was the one interrogating my personal space? Yeah right…"
And I never wanna do this again
That's it. He really did need to talk to her. He just couldn't stand having her not knowing. He didn't like being second best. He knew, deep down inside, she still loved him. He knew it.
Heartbreaker
Kira felt something deep inside….that something would happen that night that might make him regret letting those two off. He knew something would happen, he just couldn't tell how serious it would get. Knowing Cagalli, it would go to the point where it became dead serious.
I'm addicted to you
"Is everything alright, Kira?" Kai asked, as he took a sip of his beverage.
"Yeah, fine. Are you sure you don't want to go home and check on her, Kai?" Kira pleaded, a tone of concern in his voice.
"Positive. I trust Cagalli, Kira, and she's a woman with bite. If anyone tried to hurt her by now, they'd be in crutches. She's home now, safe and sound in her bedroom," Kai reassured.
"Yeah…with Athrun…." Kira thought sadly. He knew that Athrun still had more than enough feelings for her, and that she broke up with him soon before he could tell her. Athrun, though still struggling with his inner thoughts, could make up anytime, and just visit Cagalli. He did know where she lived.
Don't get him wrong though. Kira thought that Athrun was still very deserving of Cagalli, even though he did choose to protect an impersonator over his own girlfriend. At that time, Athrun was still lost in his thoughts, confused and alone more than anything. He couldn't blame him to choose what he had done, but it was still wrong of him.
Kira liked Kai. He was great, and in a time period of four years, he became almost like an "Athrun replacement". I mean, his attitude basically screamed Athrun itself. Yeah sure, at first, it kind of scared Kira and Cagalli how similar those two were. But, he could tell, there was something about Kai that made Cagalli love him, and it wasn't because he was just like Athrun. There was just something…extra. He couldn't quite pick out what, but there was something.
But now, being her big brother, he wasn't sure of whom he should be rooting for, if anyone, for the matter. This was Cagalli's life he was sticking his nose into; he had no right doing so. But for now, all he had to do was trust her, even if she chose the wrong thing.
Heartbreaker
So, that's chapter four! Ireally wanted to lighten up the story a bit. Too much angst gets me angsting…and that's not pretty. xD. Well, things will darken up next chapter.
Short preview – Kira still has that nagging feeling, and the worst part is, the thing he didn't want to happen, happens!(Ain't fate a bitch, right along with karma?) xD. I really didn't want a CoughlemonCough this early, but, meh, for I'll keep it clean. If you want it dirty, reply to me next chapter if you want that lemon bad. Mmk?
Happy trails!
