Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed, its characters, or main plotline. I don't own the character, Kai; he belongs to JC-Titans143. He's the coolest thing ever, and that's why I asked to use him in my story! squee
I don't own the song "Again". It's owned by Lenny Kravitz and his people.
I blame VH1 and insomnia for this sudden burst of genius. The music video also helped for that lemon. xD. Yes, I think I told steshin, but I guess I'll tell everyone. This chapter was another songfic, and unlike past chapters, this one was a helluva lot harder to pick a song out for. 30 songs to choose from…GOD! Anywho…
Chapter 5 – Again
I've been searching for you
Taking one last look at that picture, letting one last tear stroll down his cheek, he placed the picture frame back into its place and made his way towards the door.
I heard a cry within my soul
He wanted to, needed to, drop-dead had to talk to her. She was like a magnet that pulled him towards her, without ever trying to, even when she didn't want him there. That was his current situation.
I never had a yearning quite like this before
He wanted to have a clear conscious. That's all. He would swear it in God's name if he could, but he just wasn't the kind of man to swear period. So let's just say, he promises on his mother's grave.
Now that you are walking right through my door
He wanted her to know why he left, why he had to, and why he couldn't stay. Every way you look at it, it was all for her, but he just never showed it well. He wasn't gifted that way.
All of my life
This might be his last chance to ever say what he felt, even if she didn't feel the same way in turn. She just had to know, and tonight, she'd know everything.
Where have you been?
She stared silently outside her window, watching as waves crashed into the shore in one fluid motion. She started feeling restless, thinking whether she should have left or not.
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
She wondered how Kira was doing. Lacus, Yzak, Miriallia. She left them all because she was rather selfish. She wondered how Kai was doing.
A sacred gift of heaven/ For better, worse, wherever
He walked casually on the brightened streets of ORB. And what else should he be doing? It was a beautiful night. He grinned to himself. He would make it beautiful. He would just for her.
And I would never let somebody break you down
Especially, she was wondering of that cursed Athrun. He didn't do anything wrong by showing up, but his staring just ruined her night. "Stupid Athrun…."
Or take your crown, never
But through it all, she wanted the truth. She just didn't want it with a kiss. A talk. That's all she ever wanted.
All of my life/ Where have you been?
He passed by the restaurant he ditched a little while back.
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
He found them all getting quite red, drunk no doubt, laughing and drinking the night away. I guess there was nothing else they would do. It's been a while since they all last talked. But what would he know? He hadn't seen Kira or Lacus since 4 four years back. He didn't care enough to keep in contact with anyone other than Dearka and Yzak.
And if that day comes/ I know we could win
Of course he was more than tempted to contact Cagalli, hell, even so far as to walking up to her doorstep with a box of chocolates and with a warm "Hello". You know that movie "Jerry Maguire"? Yeah. He just wanted her at "Hello".
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
But now, he just couldn't get what he wanted. Especially because of her new engagement. Why did he never pay attention to those damned news interruptions? Surely then he would've found out and maybe it wouldn't haven come to him as that much of a surprise.
I've searched through time, I've always known
It was a rare occasion for her to ever have a break. Really rare. She loved the smell of salty sea air. She never knew why. She just did.
She opened the windows that kept her away from that scent. Never had she seen the water glimmer as it did that night. Maybe it was because it was a full moon, who really takes time to care nowadays? She just found it beautiful.
That you were there, upon your throne
He recognized the area he was in. Less people walking, a lot more vegetation beside the walkway, and less streetlights blinding his view.
A lonely queen, without her king
He was here.
I've longed for you, my love forever
He took in a deep breath, stuffing his newly sweating palms into his pockets, taking his time as he walked closer to the Athha Estate.
All of my life
Her eyes began to droop themselves into a close until something, just one thing, caught her interest. Someone was walking towards her home. "At this time of night?" she thought worriedly.
Where have you been?
A knock. She scrambled to the door, tripping over several scattered objects across the floor.
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
"W-who is it?" she asked, somewhat scared, her hand trembling slightly at the door handle.
And if that day comes
"Athrun. Athrun Zala."
I know we could win
Sighing in relief, she turned the knob on the door to welcome in her….friend. "What are you doing here?" she asked, somewhat curious.
All of my life
One eyebrow rose at this question. "You don't want me here?"
Where have you been?
She crossed her arms, one foot lightly tapping against the floor in annoyance. "Not exactly. What do you want, Athrun?"
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
"To talk," he said coolly, taking a seat on her bed. He patted the mattress below him. "Come…let's talk."
And if that day comes
Kira's head turned in the direction of where Cagalli's room would be.
I know we could win
"What's wrong, Kira?"
He turned to his side to face Lacus and Kai, the only ones who haven't been completely overtaken by drunkenness.
"Nothing…I just…felt a little indigestion…that's all."
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
He felt him there…with Cagalli. This was wrong. Kai did not deserve this. "Don't do it, Cagalli…"
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
"Does this conversation have any kissing involved?" she asked, still tapping her foot impatiently on the floor.
Athrun shook his hands before him, a tinted blush on his cheeks. "No, no, no. I just…well, I wanted to clear up things. I wanted to tell you why I left everything behind…because of Mia. I want to leave this room having a clean conscience." He bit his tongue, thinking of words as he went.
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
"I want to tell you everything."
She blinked her eyes in disbelief, her foot finally ceasing its tapping. She smiled softly, but weakly, and padded across her bedroom floor. Not once breaking eye contact, she took a seat next to him on her ridiculously huge bed.
"Well, start talking…"
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
Well, there ya go. I decided to lighten up the feel. Um, after my bonus lemon chapter IN MY LIVEJOURNAL, everything will angst up again. Yes, there will be more angst. MWAHAHAH! Anywho, check out my profile from time to time to see if I posted up that lemon. Hope I won't disappoint anyone.
Kai is such a great character. And yet, completely oblivious. Anyway, there will be a future chapter concerning his character and how he met Cagalli. But gah, I have no idea how to continue on this darn story. So many possibilities. I'm just thinking up stuff as I go. Well, start reviewing, and happy trails!
