Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed, its characters, or its main plotline. I don't own the character Kai. He's happily owned by fellow writer, JC-Titans143.
Damn! I need to think of a last name for Kai…shit…hmm..TAKAHASHI!
JC-Titans143 – I looked at your stories and I couldn't find a last name for Mr. Kai, so I hope you're ok with me using Takahashi as is last name.
I don't own the song "Perfect World." It's owned by, once again, Simple Plan and their people.
Aki-chan: So…since the last chapter was from mostly a Cagalli POV, now it's time for her coughHUBBY-TO-BE-IN-THE-NEAR-FUTUREcough ex to have his turn. Yup, it's time for Athrun Zala to speak his mind. So…HERE'S:
Chapter 12 – Perfect World
"Really, if it doesn't show, I still want you here. But, I guess I really should start out by saying I'm sorry. How many times have I hurt you in less than two days? How can I say I'm sorry without having to say it in your face and end up doing what we did before? I guess what I'm trying to say is, I guess I really am sorry. You know just as well as Kira and Lacus that I was never good at apologizing, so I'll just get straight to the point. My wedding is in two days and I would appreciate it if you would come. This is a personal invitation, Athrun. Please take my whole-hearted apology and please come. I would appreciate it.
Sincerely
Love,
Cagalli
I never could have seen these far
He looked at the letter, long and hard, sitting in his lonesome at home. The first thing that caught his eye? A crossed out "Sincerely" and a "Love Cagalli" following it.
I never could've seen this coming
"But Athrun…she does love you."
"Because, Athrun, she still cares!"
"Athrun, you still have a chance…you can make this work."
"Maybe you were right after all," he thought quietly. "It's just a shame I let her go, Lacus."
It seems like my world's falling apart
He crumpled the letter up and threw it outside the window, landing perfectly into the garbage can below. Standing up, he walked over to a mirror near his entrance door.
Why is everything so hard?
Falling into deep contradiction with his look, he frowned as he scrutinized himself in the mirror, constantly fiddling with his tie in displeasure.
I don't think that I can deal with the things you said
"She loves you, Athrun."
"We can start over."
Words, words, words. Why was he hearing all these words? All these hateful, deceitful, reprehensible words! Why were they ringing inside?
It just won't go away
Shaking the mindless thoughts away, he caught one last glimpse at himself in the mirror. As perfect as a wreck could be.
In a perfect world this could never happen
Simply pleased with himself, he walked out his doorway, dressed to impress, walking to a certain event.
"Really, if it doesn't show, I still want you here."
"Please take my whole-hearted apology and please come."
Love,
Cagalli
In a perfect world you'd still be here
The streets were empty and every big screen atop every building had live coverage of the event of the day. It almost became annoying, but I guess it's the price you pay for being who you are.
And it makes no sense
Well, let's change that to "Who they are."
The uniting of two royal family members. Tell me what else could be more perfect?
I could just pick up the pieces but to you,
How's about uniting two people who are actually in love? No, not that "I love you because you know what I want" kind of love. The real love. The love you couldn't earn with money, materials, and other human pleasures. The thing that sparked when you knew it was the one.
He still felt that way, but today, she made it clear she didn't and never to begin with.
This means nothing at all
Of course, he didn't have a problem with it. He let her go just like she let him. A never-ending cycle of favors to make the world a better place. To make a perfect world.
I used to think that I was strong
A horde of children, boys being the majority, ran past his leisurely figure, towards his destination as well.
The wedding chapel.
Until the day it all went wrong
In the past, where he took the liberty to work as her personal bodyguard, they often joked around here and there about their future. They chatted on and on about getting married in that damned chapel, invite a few friends for an after party at the mansion, both in PLANT and in ORB, have a nice honeymoon away from it all, and hell, throw in a few kids and you had a plan!
I think I need a miracle to make it through
But of course, it never happened. And it would never, ever happen to their dismay.
I wish that I could bring you back
It hurt, yeah. But what could they do? Fate was a bitch, just like the rest of them.
I wish that I could turn back time
And he wasn't going to stop Fate's plan. He was always like that of course, until come lucky idiot could get it through his thick skull that he was wrong.
But now he didn't have a lucky idiot. He, himself, was just that. An idiot.
'Cuz I can't let go, I just can't find my way
Looking up from the cold, hard pavement and his super-shined shoes, he found himself in front of the closed doors of the chapel.
Without you I just can't find my way
The humongous crowd was gone and everything around him was silent.
It was beginning.
In a perfect world, this could never happen
Taking in a deep breath, he closed in on the door, his hand slightly trembling on the knob, the one thing separating him from the biggest fear of his life.
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
In one quick turn, he stepped inside the door and realized he stepped into the balcony of the church.
Perfect view.
And it makes no sense
He saw her, shining in all her wonder. But with his height, he could barely see her smile underneath her translucent veil.
He gripped onto the railing as he heard the priest begin his little talk about the kind of stuff no one listens to.
I can just pick up the pieces but to you,
She scanned the interior once more for that missing link. God, too many people…such little, precious time.
Sighing, she turned to face Kai and smiled at him as his warm atmosphere brought her once more into a state of tranquility.
This means nothing at all
I don't know what I should do now
He gripped the railing until he felt his fingernails cut deep inside the wood. How he wished it were him down there. How he wished he had followed Lacus' advice. How he wish he had never made that decision.
I don't know where I should go
But he did know that he still loved her. He did know that he did his best to win her back, but failed miserably.
I'm still here waiting for you
But that's okay. She wouldn't have gained much being with him anyway. Alex Dino? The bodyguard? What was a princess doing with a bodyguard to begin with?
I'm lost when you're not around
Suddenly, he picked his head up in realization and finally figured it out. He figured it all out. He finally knew why he left her those years back.
I need to hold on to you
"It took me four years, Cagalli, four very long years…but I finally know why."
I just can't let you go
"Because I was insecure…because I knew I wasn't good enough as Alex Dino. Athrun Zala was more than enough for you…but I was too insecure to figure it out…"
In a perfect world, this could never happen
Tears formed behind his eyes as the moment of truth finally came to reality.
"Do you, Kai Takahashi, take Cagalli Yula Athha as your lawfully wedded wife, for richer or poor, in sickness and in health, till death do you part?"
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
Kai smiled lovingly into her glassy amber eyes and held her hand firmly in his own. "I do."
And it makes no sense
"Do you, Cagalli Yula Athha, take Kai Takahashi, as your lawfully wedded husband, for richer or poor, in sickness and in health, till death do you part?"
I can just pick up the pieces but to you,
She made one last scan of the building, the tears in her eyes blurring her view. Even with defective vision, she could clearly see that that missing link would stay a missing link.
This means nothing at all
"I do."
Nothing at all
"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride."
Athrun turned quickly on his heels and went to exit the church. "She's happy, what more can I want?"
You feel nothing at all
Kai smiled as he set her veil behind her, cupping her face in his hands, his thumbs wiping away her tears, he bent forward for a gentle kiss on her lips.
Cagalli, teary eyed still, looked up at her new husband and smiled. "We did it."
Nothing at all
So there's the wedding!
Anywho, thanks for the congrats everyone! She came out great, but she'll be staying in the hospital while big sis has to graduate. --
Anywho, hmm, should I just cut the crap and move on with AsuCaga remorse? Or should I drag it on further with a torturous KaiCaga romance? FWAHAHA!
I don't know what to do. But gahh!
I can't help it anymore. I'm itching to write another lemon, I don't frocking care who, I just wanna write a new one! Why! Cuz I thought my other one sucked. xD
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Btw, there's an estimated six more chapters left in this story.
