Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed, its characters, or its main plotline. I don't own the character Kai. He's happily owned by fellow writer, JC-Titans143.
I don't own the song that makes me wanna ball my eyes out, "I Will Still Love You". It's owned by, hey-look-I'm-a-slut-who-settled-with-her-totally-ugly-back-up-dancer-Kevin, Britney Spears and her people. It's a very pretty song, even if I hate her with a passion.
Aki-note: First, let's get this straight. I DON'T OWN A BRITNEY CD, not that there's anything wrong with that to any fans, but I really don't like her. I went over my friend's house and she obsesses over Britney for all the wrong reasons, but anyway, this song found its way to my heart. I find it very pretty, and well, listen to it, even if you don't like Britney. It's such a pretty duet. God almighty, I never thought I'd stoop down here…But it's really uncanny how some of her songs are actually pretty good…I mean, before she became such a slut.
Well, hope you get a better Kai perspective. I really want to make it hard on Cagalli, as if she hasn't already had it bad in Destiny. But yeah. I mean, she really can't get away with loving two people right? So, punishment! And this chapter will bring back the angst. Sorry, AsuCaga fans. I just had to. On to…
Chapter 15 – I Will Still Love You
Rays of morning sunshine, shone through his translucent curtains, a small crack opened to bring in the moist feel of the dew outside his window, and the streets empty, lacking the morning traffic and noisy horns and screams of a typical day. The small crevice from the window permitted a much needed morning breeze to enter the humid, love-stenched room. And to his subconscious mind's surprise, he heard an unusual silence fill the room and nothing more but their calm breathing.
And when the stars, stars are falling
It was humid enough without her next to him, but what did it matter? They were together…at least in terms of friendship. He knew. He knew that they couldn't be more, at least now that she was married. It was bad enough he slept with a married woman. He had simply committed adultery, same with her, and that was on their permanent record.
I'll keep calling
ORB needed those two, whether they agreed to it or not. Well, she did before he had to come along, again. Why couldn't he be satisfied with having peace between her and him? Because in his past situations, he was being swallowed up by complete pessimism without her. He was just too selfish.
I promise that you'll be my one, my only everything
He just had to make it hard for her. Her country needed her guidance, her confidence, her charisma. She was ready to marry the man she thought she loved, and she ended up doing so. But he just had to come along, fate and destiny once more playing with their hearts, and making it harder for their already arduous lives.
I'll never be untrue
But could he really regret for long? He got everything he wanted; he just needed her to be with him forever…
And I promise that for all your love I will do anything
…Albeit she was still married.
I will give you the stars, I will buy you the moon
And no matter what, he couldn't change that, turning back time was just something that even a coordinator couldn't wish to do. They were after all human, filled with their own selfish faults.
Even through the longest of our nights
He simply couldn't force her to leave Kai. No matter how much it killed him.
Our love will find a way
He felt a stir beside him as he lay. She was finally coming to wake.
And when the stars are falling
Could he tell her? Could she take it? Couldn't he just be happy with the decision he was about to make now?
I'll keep calling
Her blonde head slowly revealed itself as she pulled away the blanket. Her dazed eyes, her primrose fragrance, and her pleasured, languid expression, all revealed in one motion of an arm.
I will still love you
And his eyes could not contain themselves to just staring at her lustrous face. Of course, his inner need for complacency just had to be relieved as his eyes wandered to the contour of her silk covered figure, the curvature form she stayed in as she shifted her body closer, the proximity between them driving his already lewd self out of control.
And when your dreams are fading
She smiled faintly as she suppressed a yawn to not ruin the moment.
I'll be waiting
Damn. Right there. He knew this would be the hardest issue that he had to ever overcome.
I will still love you
"Good morning, Athrun," she let out weakly, sliding even closer, if possible, as she felt his arm drape over her waist beneath the covers.
You were my summer breeze, my winter sun
Feeling her again. It was torture. She made it oh so difficult, effortlessly.
My springtime soul, my autumn touch of gold
He could barely contain himself, his hormones going wild at her innocent touch.
And you were my sky, my rain, the earth in which my love goes strong
She could feel is draped arm slide lower and lower until she felt him settle right between her thighs, tantalizing her maliciously. She could feel a pressure build up. Damn, it was way too early for this kind of thing. Exactly why the night time is for lovers.
The smile of my heart and the breath of my soul
She could feel his lips brushing off her lips for an early morning wake up call, lightly dancing towards the delicate skin of her jaw line. Her body was turning into a pile of boneless goo again.
Even if we find ourselves apart
His nagging conscience was scolding him. He needed to tell her, now. He needed to…to…Oh damn, this was too hard. She loved it, every single bit. He could tell with her moans.
We will hold our hopes and dreams forever in our hearts
"Oh yes…" she whispered in his ears as his mouth trailed lower, now resting contentedly at her collarbone, her fingers now fiddling with his blustery hair.
And when the stars are falling
He was doing that thing again. Making her feel good.
With her breathing slowly, but steadily picking up its gentle pace, she did manage to let out, "I need a shower…"
I'll keep calling
He stopped from his licentious nurturing to give her a bemused look as he floated above her. "Can't it wait?"
I will still love you
"Athrun, you should know…"
Sighing in sheer disenchantment, he lay beside her and cuddled up close. "Whatever you say…"
What was with the damn hold up? Why was this so hard? Why couldn't he just tell her?
And when your dreams are fading
She smiled a delicate smile and placed a soft kiss on his lips as she made her way to his bathroom.
Oh yeah…because she was so deliciously irresistible.
I'll be waiting
He fought the urge to barge in her shower time for a little quickie in the tub, but forced the thoughts away as he changed into some new clothing.
It was time to say something.
I will still love you
She quickly stepped out the shower, her dripping wet body just screaming for a warm towel to wrap around her.
He decided to play towel in the warm fluff's place.
Time may take us apart, that's true
They made way after a small one to the unusually quiet streets of ORB for a nice breakfast at the closest café.
But I will always be there for you
She just made an order for a cappuccino and he simply ordered a baguette. Uncanny. This café was usually bustling round and about with people rushing in and out of work.
But at least this gave them some much needed privacy, even if they dined at an outside table.
You're in my heart, you'll be in my dreams
Their orders came in one piece, baguette, cappuccino and all and an overwhelming silence dwelled upon their table.
He was thinking again, she could feel it. And it wasn't good.
No matter how many miles we've seen
"What's the matter Athrun?"
He stared blankly at his baguette. "I slept with you…"
I promise that I won't forget
"Yeah, so?"
It shocked him. It was like she was never even married.
"Have you completely forgotten you're married?" he asked, completely concerned on whether she had lost her mind or what.
The day we kissed or the day we met
"Cagalli…you do realize we can't be together…"
She began to stir her cappuccino nervously. "Of course…"
The sky may fall and the stars may tilt
"I really want to be with you Cagalli. But, in this current situation, we can't. You're married and ORB needs this marriage to keep the peace. I'm sure you're aware of that."
She simply nodded, her eyes fixed dead on at him.
But I will still
"I know where this is going, Athrun. You needn't go on…I'm really sorry."
I will still love you
He couldn't look at her. This was the end. He felt his eyes well up, but he had to be strong for them and their not so bright future separated. But he looked up back into her eyes as he felt her smooth skin caress his cheek.
"Cagalli…"
And when the stars are falling
"We may not be able to see each other again, for the sake of the peace, but…"
I'll keep calling
Her hand still placed gently on his cheek, she bent carefully forward, placing a warm kiss on his lips.
I will still love you
"I do love you."
He pressed his hand against hers, to feel her hand some more. "I love you too."
And when your dreams are fading
He felt his cheek growing colder as she took it away and began walking towards the exit. "Goodbye, Athrun."
He had to be strong, he just had to be. But just like everything else, nothing came easy. Goodbye was never something easy.
I'll be waiting
He waited until she was out of sight, then he paid the tab and made a run for home.
He just had to get out. Too many bad memories. He was trying to escape before the past would repeat itself once more.
He glanced over at his side table by the couch. That picture.
I will still love you
"Goodbye, Cagalli…forever…"
Time will take us apart, but I will still love you, I promise
YES YES YES! That's over with this chapter! YES YES YES! It's over! It was killing me that I had to write this. And I was undeniably tempted to add a lil fluff in the beginning. WAY TOO TEMPTED!
XD
But that's what happens when you're in love, and I'M IN LOVE! So the whole beginning was dedicated to my boyfriend and well, the little ray of hope I have for AsuCaga.
Please don't kill me. Yes, just in case you're slow, they broke up. Now what will they do? Honestly, I DON'T CARE! CUZ I'M IN LOVE! xD
JK
Chapter Preview – Athrun and Cagalli deal with the large amount of pain they felt, in a short amount of time. Cagalli confronts Kai about a certain love interest she has been having. How will Kai deal with this news? And Athrun, what's he got in mind? He did want to get away from the place.
GOD, I'M IN LOVE! Sorry, but MAN, if I'm still in love when I make those two reunite, you can bet on the best AsuCaga fluff ever!
