Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed, its characters, or its main plotline. I don't own the character Kai. He's happily owned by fellow writer, JC-Titans143.

I don't own the song that makes my heart break and think about a special someone, "Never Had a Dream Come True". It's owned by the where-the-hell-did-they-go band, S Club 7. Man, I thank Jesus Christ for iTunes. Yeah, that song is sooo beautiful, you have to listen to it. You have to, if haven't already. It's sooo beautiful.

Aki-note: Well, I just felt super tempted to put fluff in the last chapter, which I did. I hope you liked it! xD Um, let's see. I bet you're itching to know how Cagalli will break it to Kai, huh? Well, you'll have to wait next chapter for that. This chapter is solely based on AsuCaga love guilt, and whatnot. Sorry. Now on to….

Chapter 16 – Never Had A Dream Come True


Everybody's got something they had to leave behind

One after another.

Athrun Zala, tear stained and heart broken, stacked his clothing one after another in his very small suitcase, preparing to depart from ORB once and for all, no intentions whatsoever to come back.

Ever.

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

They fought, argued, made love, settled down, and broke apart. He'd done more than any average person to one girl in a lifetime, and it made him feel low.

There's no use looking back or wondering

But there was no point in looking back. All there was, was a future…

How it could be now or might have been

…without her.

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Was all this really worth looking forward, too? Was leaving really necessary?

Of course.

I've never had a dream come true

Looking at her…it would just remind him how much he longed for her touch, her scent, her flavor. It remind him of her baby smooth skin, her well-sculpted figure, her intoxicating sex.

But it was wrong to dwell on thoughts such as these. She was married woman, and she couldn't change that. It was for her country. It was for him.

Till the day that I found you

The final thing was his bed sheets. Those damned bed sheet.

And he laughed to himself. "Maybe I should frame these," he said, chuckling afterwards.

He was tempted to do it again. And again, and again, and again. He brought the material up to his nose, taking in her fading scent, memories of their physical intimacy rushing back to him.

But, no. No more.

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

He ripped the sheets away from his nose and threw them straight in the garbage.

"It was time for some new ones, anyway," he said, packing the last of his belongings.

You'll always be my baby

Closing his bag, the package sealed with a 'click', he moved out of his bedroom towards his living room, where his worn out couch lay…

And that picture.

I never found the words to say

Picking up, he looked at it one last time.

And that's when he swore to never love again.

You're the one I think about each day

"I love you."

Her words rang in his ear, knowing fully it could never be. Not now, not ever.

And I know no matter where life takes me to

With a tear in his eye, he placed the picture frame back in place, faced down.

A part of me will always be with you

Putting his room keys beside the fallen picture, he opened the door, and halfway through, he whispered, "I will always love you…"


Somewhere in my memory

She ran, hard and fast, her feet slamming against the hard concrete, not caring if anyone was in her way; she just ran.

I've lost all sense of time

Until she bumped into someone.

She was the princess after all; she wasn't supposed to be running furiously to begin with. And she couldn't scream curses at the person.

So instead, she stood up, having fallen on her bottom. "I'm sorry.."

And when she saw an inch of pink hair, she knew…

"Lacus?"

And tomorrow can never be

The pink haired pop star, with her usual peppy smile, held a package in her hands.

"Cagalli! Oh it's been a while, hasn't it?"

"Uh, yeah."

Lacus frowned. This wasn't Cagalli. There was something wrong, and she knew exactly what. Even the day of her wedding, she knew it was all wrong. The day she met Kai, it all went wrong.

"Cagalli…do we need to talk?"

Cagalli looked up to her friend's concerned, genuine face. How easily that girl saw through her.

"Please…if you're not in a rush."

'Cause today is all that fills my mind

Walking further along, passing by hordes of people to a quieter, calmer area.

The beach.

And Cagalli noticed this.

This was where it all began, two years ago.

There's not use looking back or wondering

The blonde girl rested her arms on the railing, staring out into the sun.

Something was definitely wrong. Cagalli would usually jump head first into the water, dressed to swim, or dressed to work. It didn't matter. But now…it was different.

Staring out along with her, Lacus simply stated the facts. "It's about Athrun, isn't it, Cagalli. You saw him again, didn't you?"

How it should be now or might have been

Cagalli, bewildered, sought her sites on the pop star. "How did you…?"

"Know?" she asked, laughing a little afterwards. "Lucky guess."

"Oh…" And she settled herself back on the railings.

"You slept with him, didn't you?"

Burying her head in her arms, a muffled, 'yes' was understood, but not heard.

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

"Cagalli, you still love him don't you?"

Cagalli gently picked up her head from her arms to look at her.

She was crying.

"But I can't, Lacus. I'm married! It's bad enough I slept with him two years ago when I was engaged, and I did it again, this time married! It's not fair for Kai, Lacus! It's not!"

The pink haired songstress sighed into the air, her package still held tightly in her arms. "He has to know sooner or later. It's bad enough that you didn't tell him those two years back. I knew everything that happened between you and Athrun, and I felt for all three of you. Kira found out, on his own way of course, and somehow, so did the rest of your friends. Cagalli, it won't kill Kai if you leave him, but it will hurt him more than anything if you don't start telling the truth. How long did you think you could get away with it, Cagalli? How long?"

I've never had a dream come true

"I don't know, Lacus! I don't know!" the princess cried in frustration. The truth was scarring her for life. She fell to her knees, her hands covering her face to stop the tears and in a hushed, pained voice, she cried, "I don't know, I don't know, I don't know…"

Lacus fell to her side and rubbed her back. "Cagalli, it's not fair for Kai."

"Don't you think I know that?" Cagalli asked, somewhat screaming at her friend.

And this brought a frown to her face. "Then why haven't you done anything about it. For two years, you kept quiet. Why? Because you knew that you'd never see him again? That things would fall back to normal when you were with Kai? But that didn't happen, did it, Cagalli? You saw him again! And you slept with him, again! When do you plan on telling Kai the truth, Cagalli? He has to know, or for the rest of your life, you'll be living a lie."

Till the day that I found you

"Does ORB need another liar for a leader? Cagalli, you should know better than to lie! You shouldn't be so selfish, thinking you could keep them both! It's not fair, right, or honorable! Did your father teach you to be like this? ORB doesn't need a liar for a leader!"

By this time, Cagalli was balling her eyes out. Every word coming from her friend's mouth was the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but. And it pained her to see the light, it really did. Had she been so selfish to think of keeping them both, and living life like normal? Had she ever considered what they felt? She was selfish, self centered, and wrong.

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

"Cagalli," Lacus said in a calmer, gentler, more Lacus tone. "It's alright to cry, but you brought this upon yourself, so did Athrun. Trust me, I would've hoped that you told Kai everything two years ago, so all this could be prevented. I believed in you and Athrun. And when you married Kai, I tried to be happy, but the fact that I knew you still loved him and he loved you just bothered me, Cagalli. You have to tell Kai…tell him everything. He has to know. And if not from you, then it will be from me."

You'll always be my baby

"Just follow your heart, Cagalli. I wish you the best."

Cagalli looked up to her friend. She was just as she had found her; happy and holding that package.

I never found the words to say

Lacus picked up something from inside her package and held it out for Cagalli.

Bewildered, she reached for the envelope.

"Cagalli…I have a feeling you might need this soon." And she left, disappearing into the crowd.

You're the one I think about each day

Staring back into the ocean, she thought about her friend's harsh, but truthful words. She felt like the biggest bitch alive. But she really had to tell Kai.

And I know no matter where life takes me to

Sighing, she looked at the envelope she held in her hands and decided to let her curiosity get the best of her. Ripping the seal, she pulled out the papers inside and…

A part of me will always be

"No way…"


You'll always be the dream that fills my head

He held on to his suitcase as he passed through the corridors of the train station.

Yes you will, say you will, you know you will

"All passengers of train 149 to PLANT's shuttle, please form a line in hallway 68!" stated a random voice on the voice speakers.

Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

Waiting in line to be checked, he couldn't help but think of a certain someone when a blonde head stuck out of the crowd.

"Cagalli…"


There's no use looking back or wondering

He hoped into his jet black sports car, growing restless of waiting. Nervousness simply took over.

Because love is a strange and funny thing

"Where are you, Cagalli?"


No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye

"Passengers of train 149: the technicians are facing some difficulty and your ride will be post-poned until further notice."

Athrun sighed and sank into his chair. Closing his eyes, he only saw her, in all her bare beauty.


I've never had a dream come true

She sighed as she saw a train pass by. "Athrun's probably there already…leaving."

Till the day that I found you

She looked at the envelope again and took a deep breath…

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

…and screamed into the ocean air.

You'll always be my baby

Passing by the beach area, he heard a familiar voice screaming. "Cagalli."

I never found the words to say

Parking his car in the nearest space, not caring whether or not there was a handicapped sign in the area, he pulled back his keys and ran in the direction of the voice.

You're the one I think about each day

With a passing train blocking his way, he waited impatiently. And finally the train vanished and he saw her.

And I know no matter where life takes me to

He ran like it depended on living and placed a gentle hand on her shoulder.

"Cagalli, you're…"

A part of me will always be

She smiled softly. Kai had found her.

Holding her breath, she held the envelope in a tight grip.

"Where have you been? I missed you," he said lovingly, holding her up close to him.

"Kai…"

He pulled her away and looked into her amber eyes. They were dead serious.

"We need to talk…"

A part of me will always be with you


FWAHAHAHHAHAHH! BEHOLD THE HATE THAT I'VE HELD IN FOR SO LONG IN MY HEART!

Whoa! That was a handful. I really hated writing this chapter. I'm not good at goodbyes. The next chapter will be the death of me, for sure. The final goodbye is at hand.

So, did Lacus sound bossy and mean enough? I always found her to be a nice mother figure, compared to Cagalli and her naïveté and childish ways. I love Cagalli for acting childish! I LOVE U CAGALLI!. xD

Um, and yeah, that was a lot for Cagalli to soak up in this chapter. As I said before, I wanted her to feel the burn, because it's just not right. So, hopefully that was a 3rd degree there. Um, let's see. A preview of the next chapter!...God, that one's gonna make me cry I can bet on it.

Chapter Preview: Cagalli confronts Kai about her relationship with a certain coordinator. How will Kai deal with the news? And Athrun, will he actually leave ORB and never come back? And what was in that envelope that Lacus gave to Cagalli?

Stay tuned!

And I can assure, I will make the next chapter a tear jerker. I haven't cried in a while, so this oughtta bring out the tears in everyone. Or at least make you sad inside.

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