Suze's POV
I felt like an idiot. How could Paul cause my memories to return? What sort of power did he hold over me? Here I had God knows how long with Live Jesse and all along I didn't know it. How sad I would have to be when I had to leave. Jack told me that my mom hadn't a clue where I was and didn't even know I was seriously gone. More to the point why was Jack 10 years older?
"yes but why are you older?" I asked.
" Suze. You have been gone for 10 years. A lot has changed since you left. Father D is dead, Jesse crossed over."
"What? Jesse's gone? Father D? No it cant its only been a few weeks" I laughed. It was too much to bear
"Why didn't the one who was here before come back?" Jesse asked not looking at me. I saw fear in his eyes. As if he'd lost me already.
"It wasn't a chance we wanted to take. He was here once and we didn't want to risk medical damage."
"We?"
"Paul and your friend Cee Cee."
Cee cee knew about me now. That was great! Now I would have to go home and explain it to her.
"why does cee cee know?" I asked again
"She came to us when you were officially missing. She guessed the hole thing.
Jesse looked like he had been punched in the stomach. I knew he didn't want to go and to say the least. I didn't want to go either. But to stay with Jesse, it would cost me my family and my friends. But what about the new friends I made. Jesse's sisters? I could have the just amount of family here as I did at home. Living in present time, Ghostly Jesse didn't have a mother a father or his sisters whom he loved so much. I wondered if I could live like that. It was my mother. I'd miss her too much. I couldn't stay. I loved Jesse. But what had I changed now that he didn't die? He wouldn't be there when I got home. What would be there when I did? How would things be different?
Damn it Jesse. Loving you cost me my memory, and my life. It is not a burden, but a complication. A hard question to answer. Do I stay or do I go? It was a simple question now. If I loved Jesse, then I would stay. And I did love him. Ghost Jesse and Alive Jesse.
I cleared my throat.
"Suze. We have to get back to the future. Maybe things will be different when we do. I don't know."
"Jack. Jesse is gone. I have no future."
Jesse was my reason for living. If he wasn't there when I got home. What were things like. Why did he cross over? Damn it Jesse!
I turned to Jesse.
"I am home." I looked at Jack. "just say you never found me."
Jesse had a large smile on his face. Then he looked sad all of a sudden.
"No Querida. You can't stay. You have your family and your friends. I cannot let you do that."
"Jesse! Without you, I have no family. Here, me and you have some sort of life. Back there, we wouldn't be able to have kids or get married. Here we can live. You can live. I'm staying here with you."
"if that's the way you want it Suze, I cant stop you." and with that, Jack disappeared.
Jack was gone. And Jesse and I were left alone.
"your stuck with me now Querida. No going back."
" And I wouldn't have it any other way Jesse" and Jesse kissed me again and this time we weren't interrupted by anything.
Okay a bad ending i know. but i was sort of rushed. I am gonna try to write a longer one next time. Maybe with less screw-ups right?
well, thanks for reading! even though it sucked
