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Chapter 5: Turmoil Haunts the Mind

He watched as she threw a baseball at the stack of soda cans. He loved her grace, her easy-going attitude, her smile, her… Yes, it was true and it was real.

I love her.

Maybe it was too soon. They were all so young, and he one of the youngest. He watched as she missed the first two tries.

She's not doing too well. I should help.

As he walked over, his thoughts roamed. Normally curious his thoughts wandered off into the deepest corners of his mind until it reached a most horrifying discovery.

Robin…

It was rooted into his head. It was his friend, his leader, his hero that had been crushed.

No. He's not dead. Robin's home right now with Star. And everything's okay. Nothing's wrong. I'm having a great time with Terra. He's not dead. He can't be dead…

How can you disagree with that? Maybe everything was alright afterall. Heroes never die. Heroes never lose. Heroes; they always win.


Throwing hard with her might, Terra grunted with frustration when it hit the backboard and rolled off the counter to meet the dirt ground. All this stress just had to go. Her hands were shaking with anger. She clenched her fists tightly to stop it, but it continued to vibrate.

This can't be happening. Robin can't be dead now. Not after now that we're all together again. Why? Why did this happen?

Grabbing another ball she jerked her arm back and was ready to knock down just about anything. Just to get rid of all the sorrow. But something held her hand back. Looking back she could see the pain in his eyes.

Beast Boy…

He pulled her close and murmured comfort into her ears as he stroked her hair.

"It's okay Terra. I know. I'm just sorry we couldn't stop it. It's okay." She sobbed into his shirt and could feel his tears drop onto her hair, her clothes.

"Beast Boy…I can't believe this is happening. Robin…he's dead. What's going to happen to us now? Oh Beast Boy!" She couldn't stop them from falling, so she let them flow. She felt safer, all this time she was running away from people, and it felt good to have someone to run to. He was the one who made her smile, he was the one who never gave up on her, he was the one who showed her how to love, he was the one. He was the love of her life. Together they stood together, his arms around her protectively, her arms around him as if she would never let go. Together they let tears fall, together they suffered.


Get them. Kill them. Destroy them.

The sound of his hand slamming on the buttons and jerking on the joystick could be heard even beyond his walls. His eyes were focused upon the enemy ships but he could only seeone man and his minions. It was he who caused all the pain.

"Come on…come on…!" He growled at the screen and let his anger loose upon his controller. It had been his friend but now everything seemed to be turning on him. Everyone else seemed to be okay. Why wasn't he?

Because you were the closest, Cy. You could've stopped it. He was right there. Why didn't you get over there?

In his self-hatred he threw the newly bought controller at his modified xlarge screen computer. He placed his face into his hands and his mind was flooded with memories. Both the good and bad. He glanced over at a picture of him and Robin.

Remember that time, you spiky-haired, no-good punk? When we screwed up that Sonic Boom, and I got so mad I just left? I bet you were pretty cracked up then, huh? Well guess how I feel now, Robin.

"Guess how I feel now!" He yelled at the cocky smile and smashed it against the wall. Shoving his face into his pillow he let all the tears he held in go.


Silently she flew over the empty hallways toward the MedLab. She was afraid to look at the boy she once and still loved. Her chest felt as though her lungs were too large for her ribcage; the sobs she held in were filled with too much anger, too much pain, too much loss.

Oh Robin…I had never the chance to tell you…

Clear rivulets trickled down her peach colored cheeks and she wiped them away sloppily. It is a sufferable feeling, to know that you cannot change the death of someone you loved. The door opened before her, and there he was. So pale, so cold. She held his hand in hers, and found them clammy with the residue of death. He looked as though he was struggling with pain, and it saddened her.

He did not have to die this way.

Sadly she gently placed a glowing white rose upon his chest, and laid his hands on top of it, as if to hold it.

"Friend Robin, I cannot tell you how gratefulI am that you were my friend. I only wish that we perhaps could have been more." Crying softly she was about to burst out of the room, but there were footsteps coming from the corridor. She knew Beast Boy and Terra were gone, and Cyborg would not come up here at this time.

Friend Raven must be here to pay her respects as well.

She was curious to see what the more reserved girl would say, so she backed up into the darkness of the room and watched. She never knew what she would see was going to haunt her mind for the rest of her days.


Raven was afraid. Very afraid. Dying and death were not her fear factors, but she was frightened of what she would see next. It was one thing to know you're dying and die soon after, but to know you're slowly dying over a rather long period of time was a living hell.

Robin, I hope you heal quickly so that I won't have to suffer for too long.

Her mouth was set in a thin grim line, and her eyes were determined. Her brain screamed at her to turn around and forget the whole idea, but her heart moved her feet forward. She would not back out now.

Why?

The question threw her off and it lingered about. Why was she doing this? To hold the team together, but that wasn't all, was it?

Why am I doing this?

It's their leader; he was the only one who could manage team. That's why. But it didn't piece the puzzle together. Her sorrow, her pain, her suffering, and the sounds she believed were the sounds of her heart breaking into fifty million pieces. There was only one way it was possible. Her feet jerked to a stop and as her eyes grew wide she gasped aloud.

I…

Salty water gathered around and blurred her vision.

love…

And they fell, from eyes that realized the truth.

him…

Behind her and before her the crashing, breaking, ripping, and tearing of randomly placed objects were ignored. They were the least of her worries. She reached the door and one thought came to mind.

I'm sorry, Robin…


Finally I found out how to divide my paragraphs. Geez I feel stupid.
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