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Chapter 10: It Can't Be True, It Can't Be Possible

He had to resist the urge to squeeze the life out of his little buddy. But hubris had him tied around its little finger.

Kid you had me so worried…so damned fucking scared…it hurt man…it hurt like hell…

His fingers jammed against the controller with his green friend, the other boy just watching, drinking it all in, as if he never wanted to forget it again.

I don't know how you came back, Robin, but I'm sure as hell glad you're back…

"Cyborg, dude, are you crying?" He just got up and left, tears rolling down his one human eye, leaving two of his teammates worried and curious. Well maybe one.


He just left. I wonder why.

He shrugged and stretched in a feline form. He appeared to be calm and the same happy-go-lucky kid, but inside his thoughts were in turmoil.

Dude, Robin…you…you're back with us…dude I can't believe it…

He wanted to bawl like a little baby, but he couldn't. He had to be a man. He scowled, remembering Adonis. He had to be a man.

Asswipe…I hate that guy…but you know what Robin? I…I really missed you, dude…I thought I'd never see one of my best buddies, you know? I lost you man…we all lost you that night…but we found you again…so don't you ever go anywhere…

"Beast Boy, you okay?" His friend was watching him, concerned. He could feel tears forming, and he shook his head, turning to the door.


"Nah dude, just something in my eyes. I'm…I'm gonna go sleep." The changeling headed towards his room. Robin scratched his head. He wondered about his return, Slade, and the mark.

If he used the power of Scath to revive me…wait, why would he bring me back in the first place? He…he killed me!

The teen leader shuddered, remembering his final moments of life. The loneliness frightened him now, and he huddled under a pile of sofa cushions, grateful to be alive, and scared to death of well, death. He'd seen things in his dark sleep, things he did not wish to see. His deepest regrets, his darkest secrets, his painful losses, replaying before him, scene by scene, screaming his name as it faded away.

How did I come back? Who brought me back? Why am I here?

He glanced about fervently as he quivered childishly. He realized now that death was always only a finger away.


"What the hell?" His mouth was open in disbelief. She was bleeding at the mouth, she was unmoving, she looked as though she was dead. Maybe she was. He glanced at the other two girls, who were breaking down in tears beside the bed, and his system was in shock.

Raven…what happened…?

His feet moved, and without a word began to fumble with the cords diligently. The sound of his fingers typing on the mainframe was cut off by a gasp. The diagnosis blinked on the monitor.

She's…dying? But she can't be…Raven?

"Would someone mind telling me what the hell is going on?" Cyborg was in shock. He was the resident big brother, so what happened here without his knowledge?

"She's dying, Cy…" Terra mumbled softly. In his frustration his slammed his fist into the wall, causing it to disintegrate under his strong fingers.

"I think I know that now! How? What?"

"To put it short, she traded herself in for Robin." That was enough for him. He dropped to his knees unwillingly and the tears of surprise created a waterfall down his human face. For some reason, her dying hit him harder than the Dark Knight's apprentice. After a few moments, he stopped. He got to his feet and fixed an IV, sticking it into her hand with precision.

Just some extra energy boost for when she gets better.


Terra felt a pang of sympathy as she watched Starfire help the cybernetic teen as best as she could.

They don't get it, do they? She's going to die, and there's nothing they can do about it.

She turned to her ghastly looking friend, and murmured soothing words into her ear, hoping that she could hear beyond the dreams she was living. Little did they know, they were all more like nightmares.


She was falling, but she was ready. With a grunt she landed on her feet and breathed in the familiar surrounding. But wait, where were they? She looked about in confusion, looking, hopefully, for any sign of life. In a monotonous voice she called out loudly.

"Happy? Timid? Knowledge?" When nobody answered, she felt apprehensive. What was going on?

"Anyone?" Traces of crimson blood caught her eye. Following the trail, she reached a ditch she knew wasn't there before. She peered in, and was met by a gruesome stench and sight.

"Oh my God…" She gasped and covered her hand over her mouth. Several of her emotions, her sisters, were lying there, dead, rotting, bleeding their life out. A movement beside her made her jump.

"Raven…" It was Knowledge, reaching out her thinning hand towards her.

"Raven…look what you've done to us…" Her voice was raspy and sounded like the voice of death. With a cry she fell forward, dead. Raven shook her head in disbelief and ran away, away from her dying sisters. She reached a small body of water, and within her reflection she could see herself falling apart the way they did.

"No! This can't be real!" But she knew it was. Her dying would rid her first of her emotions. It was what she'd always wanted.

I never wanted it to end this way, though.

A voice then, sounded throughout the nothingness.

"Raven…Raven if you can hear me…"

Terra? Is that you? Terra!

"Rae, you gotta stay strong, okay? I don't care if it can't be reversed, we're gonna find a way to fix you! Cyborg, he's working so hard, and Starfire is helping him. They want you back, Raven. We need you, the team needs you, the city needs you."

You guys can do it on your own. I know you can! But we never could've done it without Robin! Terra! Can you hear me?

"Raven…I'm sorry for being a bitch…I swear if you come back to us I'll worship the goddamned ground you walk on…I swear! Please Rae…please…"

The sound of sobbing echoed eerily and she shivered.

I'm sorry Terra…so sorry…


Well, Cyborg and Starfire are refusing to accept it. Terra knows it's impossible but she wants to try. Poor Raven. She's so close to death, but still so far. Enjoy!

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