Chapter 5: Insanity running everywhere

A/N: I really don't anything. If I did would I be as broke as I am.


"Severus, now that we can discuss this matter. I would prefer you and Miss Granger share a set of rooms so that you can be able to take care of her."

"Albus I don't believe that would be a good idea. Can you imagine all the gossip that would spread if Hermione would leave my room every morning? And the fact that she's going to have a grow midsection doesn't help matter much more. It's going be either very obvious what happened or everyone is going to believe that I'm taking advantage of her." Severus said looking across the table to the old man.

"You have a point, Severus. But I also believe it can help you in spying."

"How? You can't mean you're going to make Hermione poses as a deatheater. I wouldn't allow it. She can't suffer the way I…."

"She will pose as your wife, Severus." Dumbledore cut him off. "From what you were telling about what happened you said that Voldmort gave you her as a gift."

"For the evening! Not for the rest of my life. How am I going to convince the Deatheaters that Hermione enjoyed her raping so much that she decided to marry me for repeat performances? Merlin's, think Albus. It wouldn't fly."

"Yes, it will because you wouldn't get married till 3 months later and when she starts showing her blessing."

"Her blessing? Now I know you've truly gone mad. You think she's going to think of this as a blessing after a few years…no… make that a matter of weeks.." Dumbledore just shook his head.

"She loves you, Severus."

"But for how long? She is going to resent me for what happen. I know she will. Why would a beautiful woman like that want to be with me? I'm 20 years her senior. She wouldn't want to be with me."

"Severus, you're making an old man losing his mind. Merlin's, do you think she would admit to you her feelings without thought."

"She's in shock. Wouldn't you be?" Severus turned his head to the sound of rustling.

"Severus." Hermione spoke groggily. She looked up to see Professors Snape and Dumbledore sit on the opposite side of the room. "I'm sorry I must have fallen asleep. I should probably go now. Thank you, Professor Snape for allowing me to come down here to avoid questioning from everyone." She rattled off so fast that her words just came out as a blur. Hermione then slowly got up from the bed and started walking to the wall from which she entered.

"Miss Granger, I would like you to please sit down. I have a few questions for you." Hermione just nodded to Professor Dumbledore and walked over to the area where Severus and Professor Dumbledore sat. Severus stood up and motioned for Hermione to take his seat in the cushy chair.

"First things first, Miss Granger do you believe that Professor Snape here raped you?" Hermione's eyes went wide and she looked up at Snape, who was standing near the chair. Severus looked down at her blankly with the same look he gave all his students.

Hermione started to shake her head violently no. "No he didn't, he did what he had to do. He saved our lives that night. We would have been dead if he wasn't there."

"I'm not asking about the other girls. I know what happened to them and I'm certain that within time the Malfoys will pay for what they did to Lavender and Parvati. I'm specifically asking about you. Do you believe he raped you for his own sick pleasure or what?" Albus said as bluntly as she had ever seen him.

"I already answered that question. He didn't. He didn't. I swear. I know it wasn't for own sick pleasure. He did it to save my life. I would be dead or pass on to another deatheater if it wasn't for him." Hermione was near tears.

"Why keep the baby then?" This time the voice wasn't from Dumbledore but from Severus.

"I told you why. I don't want to repeat everything I said earlier in front of the headmaster." Hermione answered.

"Miss Granger…" Dumbledore spoke before Severus was able to say another word. "I just needed to confirm that you weren't feeling like it was done without meaning. I have a proposal to make to you in order to help the Order."

"Anything." Hermione responded.

"I want you to join the deatheaters just like Voldmort wants, but not as a recruit but as a wife."

"A wife? To who?"

"Professor Snape."

"Albus, we discussed this it wouldn't fly and I don't want her in danger. She doesn't deserve this type of life."

"She will be valuable addition to the Order. She will be able to get in deeper into the ranks as your overly loyal wife to the cause."

"Or she will be killed for being a muggle-born." Severus's voice increased to the point of yelling. "I wouldn't allow it, especially if she going to carry a child. It's too dangerous."

"Why can't I? You don't own me Severus Snape." Hermione spoke out in angry. Why was he treating her like a child? Snape grabbed her by the arm and dragged her to the other side of the room.

"I may not own you, but you are carrying my child. And if you think I'm crazy enough to put you and it in the way of danger, you have misjudged me. You are to stay out of this. There will come a time in which I can't protect you with them and I rather not have that time come. You will go to my home in the country and stay there until the child is born."

Hermione looked at him in awe. She tried to open her mouth to say something but nothing came out. "And this is the final word. You hear that Albus the final word on this subject. She will NOT be mingling anywhere near the deatheaters for sake of the order or not. I will not have it." And with those words Severus stormed out of room.

Hermione could do anything but stare at the Headmaster and wonder what the hell just happened?


Severus Snape stormed out of the dungeon to the astronomy tower. He stepped out to the open balcony area where the telescopes were setup for viewing and looked to the sky. The moon and stars shone down on him and the cool breeze took away the angry he was feeling towards Albus and Hermione. The deep breathes made the world just flow away in the wind.


"Where do you think he went Professor?" Hermione asked.

"Probably the astronomy tower, he spends a lot of time up there after returning from missions. It's his spot for release." And with that Hermione ran off to the Astronomy tower.


When Hermione arrived to the tower she noticed Snape standing near the edge of the balcony. She walked up towards him only to notice his eyes were closed and light smile was on his face as his long black hair rustled in the wind.

"Severus?" She quietly spoke and placed her hand on his forearm. Snape opened his eyes and looked down to see Hermione looking concerned. "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine, Miss Granger."

"Why do you call me now? Earlier today you called me Hermione and professed your love to me. Why the change in heart?"

"It was a mistake. I don't love you, Miss Granger. I did want I had to do calm you down."

"You kissed me." Hermione's eyes started to fill with tears.

"It was a mistake." Snape said coldly. Hermione couldn't hold her tears and more and she ran out of the tower.

"It was a mistake…." Snape slowly repeated to himself. "a horrible mistake. ARGHH!" He picked up the near by telescope and threw it off the tower. He collapsed then on the cold stone floor.