ELI have you ever found yourself falling deeper and deeper into a bad situation……….and you know you could easily get yourself out of it……….but the fact is………you don't really want to?
Grace's eyes closed as Eli's lips fused with hers- she didn't know why she closed her eyes……….because surely that would be a sign that she was enjoying the kiss………so she opened them again, but once Eli's tongue slowly slipped delicately between her lips, she closed them again- unable to stop herself.
GRACE do you ever find yourself, against your will………doing something you shouldn't be doing but………enjoying it even though it's against your will and usually you wouldn't enjoy it……..do you know what I mean?
Eli lifted his hand to Grace's face, gently brushing her cheek- feeling her soft, hot skin on his finger tips- with his other hand, he tightened the grip around her waist, causing her to move even closer to him, he felt one of her hands rest flatly on his chest- he shivered from her touch……..and found himself kissing her harder when he suddenly realized, she hadn't pulled away.
GRACE this is……wrong, unexpected………wrong!
ELI I feel………..relieved, hot, bliss………bliss!
Grace's eyes fluttered open one more time, and she suddenly realized- her and Eli were STILL kissing……..he'd somehow made her lose track of time……….he'd somehow turned her world upside down.
Grace slowly rubbed Eli's chest with her hand, and when he didn't stop- she lightly pushed him away, though she found it hard to……..she had to push him harder- until she had to literally shove him away, forcing their lips to part.
They stared at each other for a moment- the distance Grace had put between them only seemed to grow with the seconds of silence that ticked away………Eli could still feel her rough shove burning on his chest, and Grace could still feel his lips lingering on her own……..neither knew what to do.
Finally Grace opened her mouth, and then closed it just as quickly- suddenly feeling hot tears welling in her eyes, she felt dazed and afraid……..not quite believing that those 2 or so minutes had just really happened………or if she was daydreaming.
She raised her shaking hand to her quivering lips, lightly brushing her
Fingers over them- and sure enough, she could still feel where Eli's lips had just been.
Eli looked away; towards the stairs- he saw the tears in her eyes………and behind those tears was confusion, disgust, dismay…….he saw it all in her eyes………he could read them like a book.
"Grace" he breathed, in a whisper, unable to control his shaking voice.
Grace stared at him for a moment- not even sure if he'd just spoken……..but then, he turned to her, and their eyes met in an awkward instant- and Grace found herself having to look away.
"Grace" he breathed again, though his whisper had a slight urgency in it- as though he needed her to say something……..the thing was, she WAS infact trying to speak, but no words seemed to flow from her lips.
Eli averted his eyes when Grace didn't reply to him for a second time; he knew he couldn't take back what he'd done now, or cover it with some witty, smart remark or excuse……….because you cant take back a kiss……..especially when you put as much passion, intensity and longing into the kiss Eli just gave Grace………you cant take that back………and Eli wasn't even sure if he wanted to.
GRACE cant he just tell me it wasn't real? Cant he just cover this silence with a laugh……..and say it meant nothing?
ELI cant she just say it meant everything to her? Cant she just……….kiss me again and tell me I'm what she wants?
Grace opened her mouth again, and this time, words seemed to form and somehow escape into the open- "I cant…….." she said, and Eli could have sworn she'd uttered more, in the quietest voice- but before he could say anything, she opened the door and escaped- leaving him to drown in the silence………the silence he created.
Eli looked at the closed door- wondering, how in 5 minutes……..he'd managed to confront his fears, create new ones………ruin somebody's life………and now found himself in the same place he started………alone, and without the girl?
