Summary- Seth and Summer have a talk, and Ryan and Jake have 'the talk'.
Disclaimer- um...as always...I own nothing that has to do with the O.C, or the characters, but the guy next to my locker, his name is Jake, and I talk to him, but we're not talking about the same Jake.
A/N- Well, everyone you finally find out why Summer called off the engaement! But since I can't resist, I have to have the Atwood clan in there, but not as much as SS. Ryan will have the talk with Jake. So it should be funny. I'm so glad you guys are liking the kids, theyr're funny for me to write so I hope their words aren't coming out forced or scripted or anything like their actions just kinda pop in my head. And thank you so much for the awesome reviews, they make me write sooner! Well, enjoy chapter 5.
On with the story...
Summer looked out her apartment window and saw his car drive away...from her. She had come so close to telling him, but backed out each time. Seth spent the night with her, and he didn't ask any questions in the morning, except if she was hungry. It was just like he knew she needed him. She ran a hand through her hair, slighlty scraping her scalp. She finally got up from the couch and over to the chair nearby and stared at the phone, wondering all sorts of things.
What would have actually happened if they went through with it, what they would be doing right now, what their kids' names would be, where they would be living.
Seth finally proposed when they were 24. It was a little later than they both expected, but he finally got around and asked. She of course said yes.
Ryan and Marisa were already married at this time, they got married when they were 20. Marissa had a choice to go to Paris to be a part of the Vogue group, or stay in Newport with Ryan. She wasn't exactly sure if they could work long distance, and everything was going right at this time. Marissa almost got on the plane; but the day of; Ryan sweeped her off her feet and proposed. She naturally said 'yes', and skipped the chance of a lifetime to be with her love. Two weeks after the honeymoon, Marissa was pregnant, they had Jake, and two pregnancies later; there they were; the Atwood family.
Summer wanted a Cohen family; but she was too stubborn to go through with it. She hated herself for always making herself the bad guy, saying it was all her fault, if she could've done something better, to prevent it, but it was no use. She stifled back a sob, but the tears wouldn't come out, usually they poured out like there was no tomorrow, but today they just couldn't, they had been spent.
This is defintely a sign, she thought so she picked up the phone and dialed the first three numbers of his phone. Then she paused. This is defintely not the way to tell him, she told herself, so she picked up her bag and keys, brushed her teeth really quickly and drove off in her car.
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Emily poked Ryan's eyes until they snapped open and he ended up hitting Jake's leg. "Jeez Dad!" Jake responded to this incident. Emily giggled, which woke up the rest of the bed.
"Mom, it's Sunday, can I go to Stacey's? She called yesterday and asked," Riley asked instantly.
Marissa gave her a look. "But you tell us today?" she asked.
"Please, please?" Riley begged.
"I guess," Marissa replied, finally giving in, "just be home by 5, okay?" Riley was already out the door, "Thanks, bye, oh, and her step mom will drop me off, love you," she said halfway throughout the hallway and made a sharp turn at the bathroom.
Connor and Emily scanned their parents for any reaction but saw none. Easily bored, they got up and ran to their room. Jake still lingered, obviously wanting something. Ryan and Marissa eyed him suspiciously. He got up and played with his fingers nervously. Jake was never the type to be nervous, he was usually pretty confident.
"Is it ok if I go to Kayla's?" he finally asked.
Marissa's lips pursed at the mention of Kayla's name, Ryan saw this and put a hand on Marissa's shoulder to calm her and spoke for her, "Yea, just be back by dinner."
Jake nodded and left and Ryan turned his attention to Marissa. "Talk to him when he gets back, please?" Marissa begged. Ryan groaned but nodded when he saw Marissa's urgency. "Thank you," she said and gave him a kiss as thank you.
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Summer pounded on the door until it finally opened. "Summer?" Seth asked shocked.
"I...Can...Can I come in?" she finally stuttered. Seth was still shocked and all he could do was wave her in. Summer went in and recognized everything, it was still the same as when they were together, nothing had been changed, just been cleaned. She had never been in it before; or at least in 12 years.
"You never changed anything," she said, with a little bit of glee.
"I'm too lazy," Seth lied, finally finding his voice.
"Oh," Summer's voice lost it's glee, and the smile on her face faded.
Seth noticed this and responded truthfully with, "Or maybe it reminds me of the good times when I was happy."
Summer should've smiled, but knowing he wasn't happy, made her heart break. She knew that he deserved to know; and maybe be happy again and to move on; even if it was without her.
"Seth...I have to tell you something...it's important, really important."
He stared at her and motioned for her to sit down; she did and he followed suit. He never once took his eyes off of her. She cleared her throat and stared into his eyes; trying ot find some reason not to tell him; but found nothing. This is right, she thought.
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"I'm home!" Jake yelled throughout the house. He went in the kitchen and saw Marissa tossing a salad. "Hey Mom."
"Sweetie, your back, how's Kayla?" she asked.
Jake shrugged, "I'll be in my room, call me down when dinner's ready." Marissa nodded and he left, and Ryan came in with Emily and Connor; and Norman. Ryan went over to Marissa and gave her a kiss.
"How was the park?" Marissa asked Emily seeing as Connor had run off with Norman.
"Poopy! Daddy wouldn't let us chase Normy around, is dangerous he said," Emily told her. Ryan went over to her and picked her up. "Tomorrow, ok?" he said. She laughed and kissed his cheek and ran after Connor and Norman. They both laughed and Ryan sat down at on the barstool.
"Jake's home," Marissa said bluntly. Ryan gave her a 'so' look. "So go talk to him."
She went over to him and rubbed his shoulders and kissed the back of his head. "Plus, he seemed kinda down." Ryan knew he couldn't win, so with one last kiss, he left. "He's more mature, no birds and bees", she told him while smiling. Ryan gave her a 'you're so funny look', before going up the stairs.
Ryan knocked on Jake's half opened door and peeked his head through. "You okay?" he asked once he saw him laying on the bed, tossing a football.
"Yeah, fine, what do you need?"
"Well," Ryan started, as he went inside, "I know that you're getting older now and you want to become...more...um--physical...with girls, and I understand that, I really do, I was once in that position, I was 17 too, but it's important to..." He was cut off by Jake. "Dad, it's okay, I..." but he was cut off by Ryan.
"No, it's okay, it's not as akward as the first time, you're almost an adult, so it's important that we have this talk," Ryan told him.
"Dad, I know, but you see...".
"Jake, just listen to me, plus your Mom will kill me if I don't give you the talk."
"I know, but me and Kayla..." Jake started but was cut off again.
"Exactly. You, and Kayla..." Ryan cut him off. Jake realized he wasn't gonna have a chance to say anything, so he just watched Ryan pace the room.
"You're getting older...and you want to do things that, well things like-- things that make your relationship go farther, but before you do this, you have to take precaution, to be safe, but still have your...fun," Ryan said, still pacing in front of him.
"Sex is not a thing that can be taken easily, it's a big step in a relationship, it means that you are willing to accept the consquences...for your actions." He paused briefly. Jake took this a sign to ask questions. "Did you have sex with a lot of girls before Mom?" he asked bluntly.
Ryan thought this through for a few moments, "A few," he replied while grazing his chin.
"But you met Mom when you were like...16?" Ryan nodded. "So you were...?" Jake was cut off by Ryan.
"Well, I didn't care for them. Butwhen I met your Mom, well, she was completely different, and that was what attracted me to her, and me...leading to be engaged in sexual activities with her."
Jake made a face. "So your saying opposites attract?" "Yeah, you've seen me and your Mom." Jake chuckled at how different his parents were.
"But, even if you do have...sex," Ryan forced out of his mouth, "and it's not with the person you're going to be with the rest of your life, and you don't love them, and I hope you have some sort of feelings for this girl and make her feel special..." Ryan hesitated.
"Isn't it better if there's no feelings involved?"
"No, if there's no feelings involved," Ryan started and sat next to him, "It's...just more special when there are feelings involved," Ryan finished.
"I broke up with Kayla," Jake said out of the blue. Ryan looked at him, "What? Why?"
"Well, last night, when Mom asked if I loved her, I didn't really know, or at least I don't know if I love her the same way she loves me, or the way you and Mom love each other."
Ryan smiled at the fact that he had just been compared at being a good role model for love, and raised his kids in a good, loving household.
"Ok, if that's what you feel is best, but just remember, you don't have to love every girl you date, your still young." "I know," Jake responded.
"Ok, and thanks for saving the embarassing talk," Ryan said before leaving the room.
Ryan went down the stairs and saw Marissa sitting on the couch, watching tv. "Hey," he said, sitting down next to her. She looked away from the TV, "That was fast, good work", and leaned into his shoulder. Ryan softly stroked her hair, "They actually broke up."
Her head jolted up, "What? Why?"
"Seems he didn't feel the same way she felt about him."
Marissa made a thoughtful face before speaking. "Eh, she wasn't good enough for him anyways."
"No one's good enough for you," Ryan told her jokingly.
"Well, you're good enough for me," she said seductiveley, resting her chin on his shoulder. Ryan turned his head and looked into her eyes and deeply kissed her.
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Seth sat there, waiting for her to speak. It had been 20 minutes. Summer cleared her throat for the millionth time, this time she was going to speak.
Seth awaited for her answer, or question; whatever it was she wanted to tell him.
"Well--" Summer started, the tears in her eyes filling up, and started sobbing uncontrollably in Seth's arms.
"Ivadamisrge," she said while sobbing.
Seth pulled her back and looked at her while she wiped the tears. She looked at him again and said again, more clearly this time, "I had a miscarraige." Seth was going to say something but Summer continued.
"That's why I called it off, I felt ashamed," she said covering her face with her hands. Seth struggled to pull her hands out of her face and finally did pulled them down with some struggle. "Why? You have nothing to feel ashamed of."
"But we both wanted a kid badly, and if I had done something better than..."
"It's ok, it's ok," Seth soothed her with his voice.
"I bought a home pregnancy kit, it was positive, and I went to the Doctors, they said I was two months pregnant, but the baby was extrememly small so they wanted me to come back and when I did, they told me it was too small to live", she said in between sobs.
"But I love you, I would've helped you, you know that."
"I know, but you'd just remind me of him, and I couldn't do that to myself, or you."
"It was a him?" Seth asked smiling, trying to hold back tears of his own. Summer nodded, "Jonathon Neil Cohen." Seth smiled at the name.
"I just wanted to tell you so you could finally move on."
Seth looked shocked, "I don't want to move on, not without you, I love you Summer."
"Seth! Stop it! You have to move on, and I have too as well."
"Summer, I can't move on! Not without you, I love you! Why can't you understand this!" Seth demanded, his voice raising.
"I do understand! I love you too but..." Seth cut her off with a kiss. Summer felt her resistance slip away and deepend the kiss. Seth pulled back, "No buts, just us," he said smiling and went in for another kiss.
Summer didn't protest, smiled back and pushed him back on the couch, fiddling with the buttons on jeans, as he went under her shirt and unclasped her bra.
A/N-OMG! Can you believe it? Seth and Summer are finally together. WAHOO! SS fans, I hope you're happy. And I've had the miscarraige on my mind for a while, and I know it's sad, but we can't all be happy now can we? I hope you enjoyed it, and Ryan and Jake's talk as well.
