Author: Cry Tears of Darkness
Setting: This pertains to the episode where Rory comes back from Washington and has trouble deciding between Jess and Dean. Starts when she is still in Washington though.
Disclaimer: As always, I do not own any of these characters, unless I make one up that's not in the show but I don't know yet about that. They belong to the WB and all. Oh well. I wouldn't mind owning Dean though.
Rory's Point of ViewAfter an excrutiating time with Paris prepairing for this debate the next day, I finally sat down on my bed and closed my eyes. I started to relax. I could almost hear my mom's voice. Almost, just out of reach…
"RORY!" Yelled Paris. I opened my eyes and looked at her. "The phone, your mother. Hello!" She said as she threw the phone to me.
"Mom?" I asked.
"Rory, what a pleasant surprise. How was dream-land?" She said cheerfully. She always knew how to make me smile.
"It was great. It was as if I could hear you speaking to me." I replied.
"Well, that's because I was, through my head. Anyways. Guess who I ran into today?"
"Ummm, I don't know?"
"Dean. And guess how Dean is doing." She said. I knew she was going to be going somewhere with this.
"I already spoke to him this morning. He's good." I answered. I don't know what Dean told her.
"Are you sure? Because the Dean I talked to wasn't good. The Dean I talked to was worried about his girlfriend liking another guy and that certain other guy was going to go prove to this Dean that his girlfriend does like another guy through some letters. Rory, what's going on?" My mom asked me.
"Nothing."
"What letters?"
"The ones to Jess? They're nothing, really." I said. Oh no.
"Really? Nothing, nothing about you confessing that you like him and don't know about Dean?"
"Really. Nothing."
"Okay, if you say so. I hope you're right. Or you'll have an angry Dean on your hands."
"I'm sure, thanks for the head's up, mom."
"No problem sweetheart. Now you go do what you need to do."
"Alright, bye." And I hung up the phone. This whole Jess and Dean thing. So confusing, so frustrating. It's not my fault I have feelings for Jess too. I don't know why. Maybe because he's so different than Dean.
Dean's Point of View"And the letters, there they are!" invited Jess into Luke's upstaires apartment. Sure enough, as I had feared, a stack of letters, from Rory, rested on the bed. There was at least six of them there. The amount he had sent her. That she had not sent back.
"Can I, see them, closer?" I asked, queasey.
"Be my guest. I'm not out to hurt you you know. You're a real stand up guy, Dean. Just, face the truth. I give you; truth!" Jess said in his sarcastic attitude.
I walked to the letters. I sat down on the corner of the bed. I picked up the first letter and took it out to read, unfolded it and as I saw the wordest "Dearest Jess" at the top I couldn't do it anymore.
"You know what, I don't need to see them. I'm out of here!" and I bolted down the staires and knocked into Luke on the way,
"Hey, watch it punk!" Luke called after me. But I just kept going. I ran all the way to the doc in the lake. I stood there panting, heaving almost.
It's not that I was out of breath, it was more angry and disbelief. Rory, she lied to me. She really does like Jess, and it's not just in my head this time. My God, my own girlfriend lied to me and likes another guy. What the hell am I going to do now?
I sat down at just stared at the trees and water for the longest time.
About an hour later I heard footsteps. I looked to the side and I saw Loralai's boots coming at me. Go figure.
"Dean, I, I, don't know what to say. Do you want to talk?" She asked as she sat down beside me.
"Not really. There's not much to say. Rory lied. Rory likes Jess."
"I heard. Jess called me after you stormed out. Believe it or not, he's worried about you. I know you two don't have the best track record, but he is a human and does care. And he cares because he cares for Rory. And Rory cares for you."
"No offense, but that doesn't help." I muttered.
"I guess not. Dean, even if Rory may not be here for you if you need to talk, you can talk to me. Despite whatever happens."
"I know, thank you. But I do just want to be alone right now if you don't mind."
"Okay, call me, ok Dean?"
"Alright." I answered an watched her walk away. At least she cares and is honest. Rory, not so much so.
The hours passed and I just sat there. Didn't want to move. Didn't want to go back. Didn't want to be. Rory is my everything. I put my heart and soul into her, yet she is just treating me like a walking mat. Walking all over me. It hurts so much. Before I knew what was happening, tears were running down my cheeks and I fell over into the water..
Jess's Point of ViewDammit. Why do I care what happens to Dean? Was I being nice? Me, nice, to Dean? Ugh, wow, I must really care for Rory if I'm caring for Dean and all. What does it matter to me if she leaves him? I'd win, get the prize. Dammit! I should probably go check on him.
I picked up the phone and called his house. No one answered, I wonder where he is. Maybe he's just around town. I'll go take a walk. Might as well go to the doc, I mean, I do my best thinking there maybe he will too. If not, that's Rory and mine's spot.
As I got there, I saw Dean's jacket there. On the doc. But no Dean? Odd. Then I saw something floating in the water a bit further down, oh shit, it's Dean! I jumped in the water screaming out his name. No answer. I dragged him back to the doc. He's not breathing.
"Somebody help me!" I screamed out.
