Title: Decisions
Author: Cry Tears of Darkness
Setting: This pertains to the episode where Rory comes back from Washington and has trouble deciding between Jess and Dean. Starts when she is still in Washington though.
Disclaimer: As always, I do not own any of these characters, unless I make one up that's not in the show but I don't know yet about that. They belong to the WB and all. Oh well. I wouldn't mind owning Dean though.
Rory's Point of View"What happened to Dean. Will someone please tell me what's going on?" I looked pleadingly at everyone in the diner. It had become quite quiet at that point.
"Umm, Rory, sweetie.." My mom started.
"Dean tried to drown himself yesterday because he was so hurt and pissed off about you." Jess said and ran out of the diner.
"Dean what!" I cried. "Dean, hurt himself? Dean, drowning? How, no. Dean!" I didn't know what to feel. I, Dean, I, Dean…
"I tried to tell you yesterday but you didn't want to hear it, I'm sorry." My mom looked at me, she stood up them pulled me into her arms and I cried.
"I have to see Dean." I said.
"I know." My mom said. She drove us to the hospital. When we got there, Dean was awake. And his family was there.
"I don't want that girl seeing my son!" Fought Dean's mother. "It's her fault he's in here in the first place!"
"How is it my fault?" I asked.
"Because of you my Dean tried to kill himself. He almost drowned! And if it wasn't for that sweet boy Jess he'd be dead!" His mom cried.
"I didn't try to kill myself!" Dean coughed. "I didn't. Listen to me, I was overwhelmed and I just passed out and fell into the water." He explained.
"See?" I said.
"Now hush up Dean. Nonsense. You're depressed and wanted to die." His mom said.
"No, I wasn't. Why won't you listen to me! I should know." Dean protested. "I want to be checked out."
"No." Said me, my mom, and his mom at the same time.
"Look I'm fine. Let me leave or else!" He threatened.
"Dean, we need to talk…" I started.
"No, we don't need to talk. Rory, I'm breaking up with you. Go be with Jess." He said, so coldly.
"But Dean, I love you." I pleaded.
"No, you didn't love me enough to write me back. You didn't love me enough to stop treating me like garbage. You didn't love me enough to even say it on the phone." He said. "We're through."
"If.. Ok.. Dean, I'm sorry." I said. Wow, did this just happen?
"Just go!" Dean called out, tears fell down my cheeks. I turned around and left with my mom.
The entire car ride home we didn't talk. Iguess I had that coming. But despite the sickness in my gut, I felt not too bad with it. It did make things clear for me and Jess. If Jess will talk to me now, that is.
Dean's Point of ViewWhy couldn't she just be honest with me from the beginning, maybe it wouldn't have hurt this much. I swear, I didn't't try to kill myself, why won't anyone believe me? I swear. I didn't. I just, fell, and didn't want to get up again.
"Dean, are you sure you're ready to leave? You almost drowned tonight." My mom started at again.
"Yes, mom." I said. I know she's worried but I'm getting tired of this. I had to go see Jess. I needed to thank him.
"Mom, I'm going for a walk, I need to see someone." I said, I left before she could tell me no.
I walked. All around town, and as I did, I'd see so many people just looking at me as if they wanted to hug me. How strange this was. I didn't try to kill myself, do I have to broadcast it to the whole town or something? I continued walking anyways. Maybe I should go to the doc again, I mean, Jess would be there. Wouldn't he?
I saw Jess sitting there. He was crying. Oh no.
"Jess…" I said.
"Dean.. Wow, umm, how are you?" He answered while wipping the tears from his eyes.
"Better than you I guess since you're the one crying. Why?" I asked. This was strange, me and Jess talking. Jess saving me. I mean, our history and all.
"I'm just shaken up is all. I mean, how would you feel if you were me?" He answered. Yeah, two guys talking, not much is going to come out.
"Yeah. I get it man. I just wanted to say, thanks for saving me. I mean, you didn't have to, yet you did." I explained.
"I.. You're welcome. Take care of yourself Dean." Jess said, he stood up and started to walk. He got to the end of the doc then turned around. "Hey, Dean, come on, let's go get some coffee or something at Luke's."
"Alright." I got up and we walked back to Luke's together. Was complete silence the whole was. So was the coffee and all. Was awkward. But then again, expected.
Jess's Point of ViewThis was strange. This me and Dean thing. I can't stand seeing him. It just makes all those flashes worse. That surge through my head. I can't deal. No. It's not possible. I need to get them to stop replaying!
I walk to the doc. Dean's jacket. Dean in water. Lifeless. Swim, pull him out. Then cpr. No one comes. Then they do. Ambulance. Dean almost died. His life was in my hands. This plays, over and over. I can't get it out of my head.
"Listen, Dean, nice talking to you and all, but I got a bed calling my name, so I'm going to go now. Bye." And I went upstaires two staires at a time. When I got up there I just went right to bed. I didn't care.
I ran across the doc, I saw Dean, in the water. Dying. I lift him out, but I'm too late. He's already blue. I start cpr but, nothing's working. I panic. Then, he opens his eyes and screams out, "Jess, why didn't you save me? Why did you take Rory from me? You killed me! You killed me!"
Shit. Dammit. Oh, it's just a dream. Shit. What the hell is wrong with me?
