Chapter 3 Kentucky woman shines her own kind of light...

Notes: The title is kind of strange.

Absolute power corrupts absolutely.

So with that, do you think God is corrupt?

No.

Really?

Yes.

Why not?

Because we're here.

What do you mean?

I... don't really know.

Don't give me that faith bull. You always had a reason for everything.

But I do believe in him.

I don' care about that. Answer my question.

Because I was created...

But if he did exist, you'd probably be the most damned creature on earth.

I know that He exists...

You're reasoning is illogical, first child.

He loves me.

How can you think that a real "God" would allow a monstrosity like you walk to this earth, much less love you?

Because...

Give me a straight answer, first child.

Because only a true God, only a benevolent creator, would allow me to live...

Author's notes: I like this chapter. It's so short, but it conveys a lot. It starts of with a quote, though I can't remember where I heard it from, and it turns into a conversation about Rei's faith. There's a kind of beauty in this little dialogue, from the answers the first gives and the persistent questioning the second voice deals in. Also, the speaking parts are very flexible, and this piece could have happened at any time in the series, and not just limited to Ikari Gets Basket. The speaker could be Gendo, the Gendo that people perceive as a manipulator, the one that either has lost his own faith in God or the curious Gendo that wants to learn about the condition of humanity in general. It could be Kowaru, a Kowaru that is about to die that seeks out a few more answers before he faces his destruction, his doom, his friend. It could be a Kowaru that has died, the Kowaru in heaven, or another ethereal plane, questioning why Ayanami still clings to the belief in God, a Tabris that may or may not know the outcome of the Final Impact. It could be Akagi, watching with hate-filled eyes at a creature she both helped create and longs to destroy. It could be Asuka, wondering what a strange being this Ayanami is, when she herself should be nothing more than a broken human being, a doll if you will. It might be another aspect of Rei's personality, one that seeks out why she continues to exist when she will only bring about the end of everything. It may be Major Katsuragi, asking why an angel, the very thing that she has vowed to defend the world against, is fighting alongside them. It could be Shinji. Shinji, the one who runs away from everything, wanting to know why this first child is so ready to give up everything for a lost cause, a risk not worth taking. In any case, I grow tired of all this speculation. I'm sorry if I took too much of this chapter for my opinions, or if you disagree with any of my views, but I just wanted to give a reason to why I write.

I hope that by reading this, you have found a reason to continue forward.

I still have to look for mine...

-FPotM