Eli threw his keys on the table as he stepped inside the house; "anyone home?" he called, peeling his jacket off and draping it over the banister.
Jessie appeared in the kitchen doorway, with a bowl of pretzels and a can of coke; "dad and Lily aren't home yet………..Zoe is at dance class……….and Grace is upstairs" she murmured, heading for the couch.
"And what have you done all day?" Eli asked her, watching as she took a seat on the couch.
"Vegetating" she spat back, switching the t.v onto Oprah.
Eli rolled his eyes, "I went and saw mum……….." he started, walking into the living room.
Jessie turned around and stared at him, her eyes narrowed; "and what did she say to you?" she asked, spite in her tone.
Eli recognised by the sound of her voice that Jessie and his mother were in the middle of a fight that he did not want to get caught up in. So he bit his tongue, and decided not to tell his sister the nature of their conversation.
He shrugged, "just checking up on her………" he said, and Jessie turned back to the television; "did she mention me?" she asked, flicking through the channels.
"Of course she did Jess!" Eli replied, thinking his sister asked some really stupid questions for somebody that was so smart.
Jessie turned to him again, her brow creased; "and what did she say?" she asked wearily.
"Geez Jess………she wanted to know how her daughter was………and why she wasn't coming to visit her!" Eli flung the words back, and turned, walking out of the living room and heading up the stairs.
Jessie sunk down deeper into the couch, glad that her mother hadn't talked about the psychiatrist idea with Eli……….who she knew was weirded out enough by the idea of having a lesbian sister……….and probably would have conspired against her, with their mother……….both thinking the psychiatrist was the perfect way to cure Jessie of this 'lesbian faze' she was going through.
She viciously flicked through the channels, remembering what Katie had said to her, earlier in the park; "it's going to be ok"………but somehow Jessie didn't believe her.
JESSIE but I wish I could.
Grace lifted her head and watched as Eli slowly opened the door to her room, after tapping 3 times.
His hair was ruffled, and his eyes were especially green, probably because of the grey jumper he was wearing. He had beautiful chameleon eyes that changed depending on what he wore.
His subtle lips curved into a smile as he stared at Grace; and she smiled back, having to catch her breath as she looked at him- so handsome………so perfect……….
He closed the door behind him, and walked towards where she was lying on the bed.
"Hey" he said, sitting on the floor at the end of her bed; he leaned in, and kissed her softly.
"Where have you been?" she asked as they pulled away, "I was waiting for you to get home" she added.
Eli turned away from her, closing his eyes for a moment as he composed himself.
ELI I have to tell her……..its only fair………it's the right thing to do……….
He turned back to her, but she was sitting up, fumbling with her stereo remote; soft music soon filled her bedroom.
I won't hurt you
I'll
protect you
She lay back down, so their faces were close again, and leaned in for another kiss. He told himself to pull back, to tell her………to get it over and done with, and just tell her………..
But she looked so beautiful; her lips were so soft and intoxicating. She smelt like lavender, as always, and her lips tasted like creamy vanilla. Her cheek was soft as he brushed his hand against it, like silk.
I won't let the rain
fall down
I'll always be around
ELI tell her! Tell her now! TELL HER!
And baby I will understand if
sometimes
you just want to spread your wings and fly
and let
your colours shine
Instead, he deepened the kiss, cupping her head with one of his hands; he kissed her lips hard and feverishly, losing himself in her………as he always did whenever he allowed himself to……….it was impossible to escape her kisses.
And everyday I wanna be a risk you
take
make a promise that will never break for life
With both hands he cupped her face, never wanting to let her go………never……….he couldn't………could he?
You're my butterfly
don't
fly away open my hands your free
praying you'll come back to me
you're my butterfly
don't fly away
you're my reality
always be my gravity
you're my butterfly
come on and
touch the sky
you're my butterfly
Grace struggled to pull away; Eli was holding her so close. But eventually she broke the kiss, and stared into his eyes, smiling.
"I missed you," he murmured, panting for breath.
"I missed you too" she smiled as she listened to Eli's collecting breaths.
I won't forget you
or
neglect you
won't let no-one take your place
in your eyes I
see my face
ELI tell her!
"Grace"
"Eli"
She smiled, and Eli creased his brow.
"You first" he mumbled, looking down at his hands.
Grace hoped off her bed, taking a seat beside Eli on the ground, she turned her body to him; and looked deeply into his eyes.
"I love you so much" she whispered huskily.
ELI this isn't helping.
"I……….I love you too" he murmured in reply.
And baby do you know that
everybody watches
every time that you take flight
they're
blinded by your light
Grace reached for his hand, clasping it tightly; Eli stared down at their entwined fingers, and then back at Grace's face. Her cheeks were red, her eyes were wild and embarrassed- but her small smile was honest and warm- it made Eli's racing thoughts calm for a moment.
Every day the feeling's gonna
be the same
I can promise that will never change for life
Grace opened her mouth, about to let every thought that was invading her head pour out of her mouth. But nothing happened, her throat tightened, and no words came out.
"Grace?" Eli asked, after a few moments of silence, "are you ok?" he asked again.
She released his hand, and tucked a piece of hair behind her ear; then took a long breath.
"What is it?" Eli asked, resting a hand on her shoulder.
You're my butterfly
don't fly away open my hands your free
praying you'll come
back to me
you're my butterfly
don't fly away
you're my
reality
always be my gravity
you're my butterfly
come on
and touch the sky
you're my butterfly
She turned back to him, wide-eyed and just a little bit scared.
"Sex" she finally blurted out.
Eli blinked, and then cleared his throat; "what?" he asked, quietly.
"It's this big, huge deal that scares the hell out of me………." She murmured, tucking another piece of hair behind her ear.
"Grace………I don't understand………." Eli started to say, but Grace wasn't listening.
"I mean……….I think it's this waiting that scares me………you know?" she turned to him, and Eli fell silent, "waiting for the right time………but what if this is the right time, and I'm just delaying because I'm waiting for the right time……….?"
She tucked another piece of hair behind her ear, hearing herself babbling, but unable to stop herself.
"And the fact is that I know you're the right person………and I know I want to be with you……." She continued to mumble on, until Eli stopped her, by bringing his hands to her face, and turning her eyes towards his.
"Grace………what are you saying?" he whispered.
"I want to have sex with you Eli………because I love you……..and because I know it feels right………."
The room fell silent, as Eli stared into Grace's face, as he cupped it in his hands.
ELI I………I'm leaving………we cant……….
But Eli didn't listen to his head……..or his heart……….instead, he leaned forward, and kissed Grace, softly and tenderly. Not because he wanted to have sex with her……..but because he loved her………
Grace suddenly pulled away; "when I say 'I want to have sex with you'………I don't mean right here, right now………" she said, a hint of worry in her tone.
Eli smiled, and let out a small laugh, "I kinda guessed that" he replied.
"Good" Grace smiled, and allowed her lips to play against his for another second, and then pulled away again; "but I do want to have sex…….."
Eli kissed her back, "whenever your ready…….." he said, kissing her again and again.
AUTHORS NOTE:
The song was Delta Goodrem's 'Butterfly'- she's an awesome singer, one of my favourites.
