Diclaimer: I own nothing. Song "Without U" by Jesse McCartney
"I left because I couldn't take it Miranda"
"Take what?"
"Everything. Anything. I felt so lonely"
"Lonely? Lonely? Gordo you felt lonely? Puh-lease, is that the best you could come up with? You felt lonely?"
"Miranda..."
"No Gordo. How do you think me and Lizzie feel huh? We were crying all night. Lizzie cried herself to sleep and when she woke up in the morning, you wouldn't have been able to tell she had stopped crying. She hasn't eaten anything forages. She misses you that much. She's broken down three times in the last two days. She's given two speeches about what you mean to her, one of them in front of her now ex-boyfriend. Gordo do you know how much we're hurting now?"
"I didn't mean for any of that" he muttered "I didn't think you would notice I was gone"
"Not notice? Gordo how could we not notice? I went to your house expecting to see a movie with you and instead I see you filling your car with suitcases. I run to get Lizzie but you're gone. Do you have any idea the pain we felt?"
"Miranda I'm sorry. I needed to get away"
"Get away Gordo? Leaving without saying goodbye? I can not believe you did it"
"How do you think I feel Miranda?" Gordo was getting mad now. Not so much at Miranda but at himself. "Watching Lizzie with Jake everyday for the last three months. Hardly ever seeing her anymore. And you. Always chasing after Ethan! I only see you at lunch, on the bus which doesn't take long to get to your house and when we walk to class but other times, during class, study block, recess, between class I never see you anymore Miranda. Lizzie I hardly see at all anymore because of Jake"
"Oh what? So its Lizzie and mines fault you left?"
"No Miranda. It's not, nor did I say it was. All i mean is that since the two of you are wrapped up in your own lives there isn't much room for Gordo anymore. It's like I dont fit in, like I dont belong"
Miranda sat in a stunned silence."How could you think that? We're best friends. All you had to do was say something and we would've been there in an instant"
"Miranda I wanted you to see. I didn't want to have to show you. I wanted you to see me and realise I was unhappy. We're supposed to be best friends yet not once did you show any concern to my...somewhat ignorant, avoiding state."
"Gordo" by now Miranda was in tears "Gordo I'm so sorry"
"Yeah Miranda, me too. I never meant to hurt you. Or Lizzie. I was supposed to disappear for a while. I'll be back for highschool though, so don't worry"
"Gordo, what was the point of leaving for three months?"
"I just needed to get away"
"Oh"
"Yeah" they sat and listened to the background noise for a little while before Gordo spoke up "So what did Lizzie say about me in those speeches she supposedly gave?" he questioned
"Oh, those" Miranda answered "Well the first one was on the sidewalk and the first of her breakdowns. She was asking me why you left. Why, after you promised to always be here to look out for her and protect her, you just up and left. The second was when she broke up with Jake"
"She broke up with Jake?" Gordo asked, his voice tinged with the sadness of having to break that promise of being there for three months and excitement that Lizzie had broken up with Jake
"Yeah. I told him to back off because Lizzie was still upset over you and he went off and insulted me so I yelled back and it slipped out that you had left. He made fun of you so Lizzie spoke up. This part was really sweet. I really think she may love you Gordo"
"For real?" he asked Miranda with the same sad/excited voice as before
"Yeah. She started going on about how you were their for her to lean on and she was never afraid to do anything because she knew you would catch her when she fell." Miranda started crying again as she recalled the afternoons events "How you are always there to cheer her up and lift her up when she's down. How you're her rock and how never not once have you hurt her"
Gordo was crying now too. "Why did I leave?" he muttered into the phone.
"Ya know Gordo, I've been asking myselfthat same question to through this whole phone call and not once have I been satisfied with your anwer. Before you left, instead of saying I should go, you should have asked yourself, why shouldn't I go? It would've kept you here"
Gordo sniffed on the other end. He was still crying. Before long, he and Miranda had hung up.
Lizzie was on her bed crying as usual. She hadn't left her room since she got back from school. Her radio playing in the background, just noticable over her tears.
/I dont wanna be without u/dream without u/walk without u/talk without u baby/Never take a chance without u/Dance without u/Nothing is the same without U baby/I could never deal witout u/Heal without u/Begin without u/End without u/Baby, Im in need/I can't breathe/ No, I don't wanna be.../Without u/
Lizzie cried harder. She switched the radio off. She still couldn't process it. Why would he leave her? For the second night in a row, Lizzie cried herself to sleep.
A/N: Okay you pick what happens next. Alison or Lizzie? Stay or Go? Review & Let Me know! xoxo Char
