Ok, this was the hardest chapter for me to write. Not because of the content but because of the message. This is all my own thoughts. Hope you "enjoy" it. Warning, get lots of tissues. I used alot myself writing this.

What if Jack had made a video taped will? I imagine it would go something like this.

A few days after Jack's funeral they were at his attorney's office for the reading of his will. In typical Jack fashion he video taped his will. He made sure that he took care of this in advance. He had too much at stake to not make sure his family was well taken care of. He wanted to say goodbye to his friends one last time in person. The attorney rolled out a big screen tv. Janet, Terri and Larry looked perplexed. They didn't realize what they were about to watch.

The attorney started to explain to Janet, Terri and Larry.

"Mrs. Tripper, Mr. and Mrs. Dallas, what you are about to see is Jack's last will and testament. This was filmed about 6 months ago. This is also a reflection on Jack's life. Mrs. Tripper if at any time you need me to stop the video, please let me know. I realize you have just had a baby and we don't want you getting too upset. Ok, lets begin."

The attorney turns on the tv, for about 10 seconds there is static. Then suddenly Jack's face appears on the screen. He is smiling, Janet's hand goes to her mouth. She has to stifle a sob. She walks closer to the tv and sits in front of it. Her hand touches the screen and his face. We can see the absolute agony in her face. She has tears rolling down her face. Terri and Larry are also crying. Seeing their friend is definitely having an effect on them.

Jack starts speaking. "Well, I guess if you guys are watching this it means that I am gone. Um, i don't quite know where to start. My attorney says that I have to name who I leave in my will. Of course everything goes to my wife Janet. Janet, my sweet love. You were the sunshine in my life. It took us so long to find our love. But, when we did, wow, what a love it was. I always felt like I was blessed to find a love as special as ours was. Sometimes at night I would lay awake and watch you sleep. I would wonder what I had done to deserve someone like you. You were not only my best friend, you were my one true love."

"Someone once asked me when I first realized I loved you. That was an easy one. I loved you from the first time I laid eyes on you. From the first moment I saw you I knew that you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Janet, you were the reason that I put up with Mr. Roper and Mr. Furley's cracks about me. If not for you sweetie, I would have moved out long before we were married. Please don't doubt for even one second that I loved you. You were so much more to me than my wife. You gave me 4 beautiful children. I say 4 because a few months ago you found out you were having another baby. How can a man describe the feeling of knowing that his wife loves him enough to have his children? Janet you gave me the greatest gift possible. When Joshua was born I thought this is what life is all about."

"Janet, love, I want you to know that you were so special to me. I so wanted to make you proud of me. If I know that I accomplished that, then I am a happy man. Please sweetie, when you think of me, be happy. Know that I loved you more than anything and that if I could be, I would do anything to be with you and the kids again."

"Remember the day we were married. How blue the sky was. How it seemed like every bird was singing a song just for us? Let it be like that again for you. I will always be with you honey. Remember when you told me you were pregnant that first time. You were so nervous. You kept stumbling over your words. Finally you told me that you were going to have a baby. I think I said something along the lines of "A what?" You laughed and said that we are having a baby."

While Jack was talking Janet moved between laughing and crying, she was happy to hear his voice again, but sad at the same time. Janet remembers when she told him she was pregnant with Joshua. He was so happy. The best was yet to come. He loved being a dad.

Jack moved on to his next thoughts. "Remember when we bought our first house. Sometimes I thought the old apartment was bigger. It was perfect though. We had some good times in that place. I'll never forget when you went into labor with Joshua. I was a big help then, wasn't I? Thank God for Terri. If it hadn't been for her being there you would have been wearing the week's groceries at the hospital. Terri saved you then."

Janet and Terri both smiled at the memory of that day. Jack had been classic that day. Stumbling over everything that day.

"Remember me trying to play matchmaker to Terri and Larry? You told me I was pushing my luck and that it was going to backfire. I told you I wanted them to be happy like we were. You laughed and said that if they were ever happy together that you would cook for a week. Well, I wasn't ready to land in the hospital, so I didn't take that bet. I should have though. Because they are as happy as we are if that is possible. I'll never forget the day they got married. You were so beautiful. You were 8 months pregnant and looked more lovely than ever. I am so proud that you are my wife and the mother to my children. Thank you. For everything."

With that Janet lost it. How could he thank her for having their children? Didn't he realize that it was just as much of an honor for her to have him as their father? God how she loved him. She loved him more now than she ever had. Her heart was breaking in two. The love of her life was gone and she felt like a black hole was swallowing her whole. How was she ever going to regain some sense of normalcy again? She went from being angry with Jack for leaving her and the kids, to feeling like she wanted to give up. She had always been the strong one. Why didn't she feel very strong now when those around her needed her most?

The next person Jack addressed was Terri.

"Terri, how can I express how I feel about you? Who would have thought all those years ago when we met in the hospital that you would become such an important part of my life? You are one of the most important people in our lives. You have become like a sister to me. I love you Terri, I know I haven't said that lately, but it is true. You are a true friend. That is hard to find nowadays. Thanks Terri. Now Terri, don't take any bull from Larry. Give as good as you get. Please, look after him too, Ter. He really loves you. Terri, please take care of Janet. She is strong but, I know she will, need help dealing with everything that is happening. You have always been a dear friend to both of us. That is why you are the kids god mother. I want to thank you for being my friend. Love you Terri."

Terri was moved to tears. She got up and moved to sit next to Janet. The two friends hugged and cried together. Terri was so moved that she couldn't speak.

Larry was next.

"Larry. What can I say about you? You were possibly the best friend a guy could have. You laughed at my corny jokes and helped me see that life could be fun. I had no problem being funny, just the opportunity to have someone appreciate my humor. You gave that too me buddy. I want you to watch over Janet and the kids. She is going to need help. Too few years have passed. Help her buddy. You and Terri are the best friends we ever had and we love you for that. Thanks for being my friend Larry."

With that the screen went dark. Suddenly the room was dark and the three friends held each other and cried. They cried for the man they lost. They cried for what could have been, and what was. Why did life have to be so unfair? They would make it. It would be hard, but with each other they could do it. As the closing credits roll we hear the song "I ain't going nowhere" by Martina McBride is playing in the background. It is a fitting song for the three friends.

When the world is on your shoulders
Just too much to bear
Boy my love can make you stronger
I ain't going nowhere
When your followin' all the rules
But life just won't play fair
Come to me and we'll roll with the punches
I ain't goin' no where

Chorus:
By your side by your side day and night
I will be always
There's a place in my heart in my heart
Just for you always
I ain't going nowhere
I ain't going nowhere

I can't guarantee that your dreams
Won't fade into thin air
But as sure as I'm livin', breathin'
I ain't going nowhere

Chorus

But straight to you
No one else will do
My love will shine right though your rain
I will lift you up, I will lift you up

I ain't goin' nowhere
I ain't goin' nowhere
I ain't goin' nowhere

(By your side by your side always)
(I ain't goin' nowhere)
I ain't goin' nowhere
(By your side by your side always)
(I ain't goin' nowhere)

Screen goes black...
Michelle