Hiya everyone, this chapter is not that long, but it's very emotional. I just got finished watching Wolf rain and I cried my eyes out, so I'm really into emotional things right now. Drama in a way.

Syaoran is confessing something to Blaze. What is it? And Sakura is going to go through a big tragedy. Now what could that be?

I hope you enjoy and thanks for the plentiful reviews!

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Chapter 7: Is her life perfect now?

By: Sanosuke's Foxel

Syaoran was in the kitchen making dinner when Blaze cam in. Tomoyo had already brought Sakura's things over and she was currently in the shower. Blaze walked into the kitchen. "Food smells good."

Syaoran didn't say a thankyou, or anything for that matter. His thoughts were running along Sakura. "You know, Blaze. You were right." He said, turning off the fore and standing there for awhile.

"What do you mean?" Blaze asked, being careful not to start up Syaoran's temper. Syaoran wanted to talk, and he never wanted to talk. He wasn't going to let this opportunity pass.

Syaoran turned to him, his eyes to the floor though. "I was jealous of her, Blaze." He walked over and opened a cabinet door, taking out three bowls and setting it down on the counter. "I was so mad that she had such a perfect life. My life as a kid was horrible. You know that. My father died when I was three, I was neglected by my mother, my sisters hated me, they hit me whenever the chance came. They said I reminded them to much of our father, that I brought horrible memories to them. They told me that I killed him. Blaze, how could I have killed him? I don't remember him at all. What di I do to make them think I killed him? I started to starve myself living there. Cutting myself. You know all this. And you were right. I was so jealous of her. But...I'm confused now. I was jealous of her, and not Daidouji. Or Eriol. Or even Yamazaki, Chiharu Naoko or Rika for that matter. It was only her. And I'm starting to ask myself, why?"

Blaze looked over at him, sighing slightly. He didn't have the slightest clue why it was only her. He could come up with idea's, but how could he possibly say them, when they're probably not true.

Syaoran sighed again, getting the forks out. "I want to figure this out, so I'm begging of you, don't help me on this one.. You helped enough." He seemed hesitant for awhile. Then he smiled to Blaze. "Thank you........."

Blaze nodded and helped him set the table.

"Oh, by the way, your mom called today. She wants you to call her back. I have a feeling she wants you back in Hong Kong." Syaoran said.

"Wait. What? Why?"

"It's a gut feeling, Blaze." Syaoran looked over to him and then turned away as Sakura walked in.

"Sakura?!" Blaze asked, looking at her in shock.

"Hello, Blaze. I hope you don't mind me staying here for awhile. You know, until my dad gets out of the hospital."

"Oh no, I don't mind." He said, looking over at Syaoran who was to 'busy' setting the table. Blaze turned back to Sakura and looked down at her. Not as if checking her out, but she out of the fact of 'taking in your surroundings.' "Hey, Sakura?"

"Yeah?" She asked.

"How'd you get those bruises?" He asked, looking down at her legs. Syaoran looked up and then at her bruises.

"Oh, eh-heh. I fell down the stairs a couple of days ago, bruises haven't healed yet." She smiled nervously.

"Mmm, there's this thing, it's like some kind of treatment. To make brses heal faster."

"Yeah, I know about it. I used it immediately." She said then stopped, looking at them.

"Then your bruises would be gone already, if we're talking about the same treatment as you." Syaoran said, looking confused.

"What I meant was as soon as I could get it, I got it yesterday. I didn't know about it till then." She lied, laughing slightly.

"Oh."

"Hey, Syaoran. She can have the guest room." Blaze said.

"What? No way. That thing is a fricken mess. I'll just sleep on the couch."

"I cleaned it last night." Blaze replied, looking at him. "It's actually quite nice."

Syaoran smiled slightly. Blaze and Sakura stopped dead in their tracks. Syaoran smile?

"Yo, Syaoran?" Blaze asked.

"What?" He stopped smiling. "Thank you." He muttered and turned away. Blaze sighed. He's been acting strange.

Sakura sat in the bed that night quietly. She was in her pajama's; a soft pink tank top and white soft pajama pants. It was cold anyway. She looked over to her bag when her phone rang and picked it up. "Hello?"

"Sakura Kinomoto?" Someone asked.

"Yes, this is her?"

"This is Doctor Lee."

Syaoran heard a knock on the door and looked up. He got up and opened it, seeing a teary eyed Sakura at the door. "What's the matter?" He asked.

Sakura took in a deep breath. "I need you to take me to the hospital." She said.

He looked confused. "Why?"

"Please, just take me." She asked again. He nodded and got his coat. He hadn't taken a shower so he was in the same cloths as all day. He saw what she was wearing and got another jacket of his. He walked out turning off the light. He walked with her downstairs and saw Blaze watching TV.

"Yo, Blaze. I'll be back." He said, and Blaze nodded. Sakura and he walked outside and into Syaoran's green dodge ram.

As he drove off, he gave a questioning look to Sakura.

"My father was suppose to come home from the hospital tomorrow." She stopped for awhile. Then she started again. "He was shot 10 hours ago in the hospital. They didn't call me because he was in surgery. They got the bullet out."

"That's good."

"It's not." She said. "He lost to much blood. The doctors.........they're giving him two more hours, maybe less." She started to cry silently. Syaoran stopped the car and put it in park in the parking lot of the Hospital. He somehow found the courage to put his arms around Sakura.

"Sakura, you need to remember, you still got Tomoyo, and Kyoko. They'll be there for you." He said softly. She stopped crying and he let her go.

'Kyoko my ass.' She thought to herself. They got out of the car and started to head to the entrance.

"I'm here for Fujitaka Kinomoto." Sakura said softly.

"Excuse me ma'am? Who are you looking for?" The women asked her, straiing to hear.

"She's looking for her father, Kinomoto, Fujitaka. He was shot today in the hospital, she would like to speak to him." Syaoran answered for her.

The women nodded, knowing the room already. "He is in room 1023." She said to the girl and she nodded. Syaoran walked with her to the elevator door and the walked in,. Syaoran pressed the 10th floor button and waited silently until it opened. They walked out and to the room. When they got there, Sakura turned to Syaoran.

"Thanks Syaoran, but you can go home already." She told him.

"That's okay. I'll wait for you." He said, and sat in a chair outside the door.

She nodded and walked into the room.

Seeing her father there, as pale as a ghost made her eyes start to tear up. He had a whole bunch of wires hooked up to him and his breathing was horse. She ran to him, but didn't hug him. To scared that she'd kill him with the softest touch.

"Sakura.........."He whispered her name in a raspy voice.

"Papa." She said his name in the tongue of her child years. "Papa, who did this to you?"

"Sakura, give me a hug." He said, reaching out an arm.

"If I touch you, you might leave me, I don't want to hurt you."

"Please, Sakura, come here and hug me. It wont harm me. I'm in no pain right now." He gave her a smiled and she gently hugged him.

"Papa, why are you going to leave me?"

"I'm not leaving you for good, Honey. I'm always with you, and we'll meet each other again. Me, you, mom and Touya. Plus, I'm going to a better place now, to live with your mother. I'm so happy."

"Papa, what about Kyoko?" She cried.

"I only got together with her so that you would have a mother since I'm always away."

"Papa! No, you can't leave me. She's a horrible women!" She cried, hugging her father slightly more tight.

"I know, Honey. I know. She told me everything before she shot me."

"W-what? S-she shot you? She wants to kill you?!" She cried, more tears falling.

"Sakura. I made a will. You need to find it, it's in your room, in the last drawer in your closet. You need to find it, there, it has who you will stay with now that I am going."

"I'm going to miss you so much Papa! And Touya will too! We'll miss you so much. I love you Papa. I love you."

She kept crying his name as his hug on her weakened and weakened. "Sakura."

"yes, Papa?" She asked. "Daddy?"

"Sakura, I love you. remember that, okay?"

"Papa?" She asked. His eyes closed, and his smile remained. His hand slipped away from around her.

"PAPA! No! Daddy! Please! Don't leave me!" She cried harder, trying to shake him to bring him back to life. "DADDY! Daddy.........I love you!" She hugged him tightly around his chest. The sound of the heart monitor going to a consistent beep.

The doctors came in and watched as the young girl cried her eyes out. Syaoran watched from the doorway. His eyes saddened. This girl......she lost her mother and father.

Was her life so perfect now?

About an hour later, Sakura walked out of the room, her eyes red and her body shaking from being cold. Syaoran got up and put the jacket over her. "You okay?" He asked, knowing she wasn't.

"I'm fine." She said softly. Syaoran nodded, knowing this wasn't true, but let it go.

They walked together through the parking lot. Only a few remaining cars left. Syaoran opened the door for her as she got in and followed after her onto the driver side. He started up the car and put the heater on.

Going home was silent. Sakura had so many things going through her mind.

'how will I tell Touya? What about Tomoyo? And Kyoko? Kyoko.........She killed him, father said that I didn't need to go back to her, but I need to go to my room, I need to get those papers. In order for me to find out who my new family is. I wonder...will they be like Kyoko, or like my real parents?' She sighed as more tears fell and the car stopped.

They both got out and Syaoran unlocked the door, letting her go in and then locking it once more. He took off his shoes as she did the same. She walked silently to her room as he went to his room and started up a hot shower.

It was relieving. He looked at the clock. 11:30 at night. He sighed.

Getting out, he put on a pair of boxers and a wife beater. (that's an undershirt for guys if you don't know, I'm not sure about the mainland, but I know in Hawaii, that's what we call them) He opened the bathroom door and stopped when he saw Sakura sitting at the edge of his bed, looking towards the ground.

"Hey, Sakura?" He asked, and she looked at him. She got up and walked over to him.

"Syaoran. I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone. My brother is all the way in another country. And I need to get the courage to tell him that dad is.........is gone..." Tears started to fall again. "I don't know what to do! I watched as he slipped away Syaoran. He took his last breath in front of me. I got to see the last time he spoke, or opened his eyes, or shut them. he told me he loved me, that he would always be with me and that we would meet again. But Syaoran, I'm so scared right now! I don't know where to go, what to do! I'm so scared!" She cried and wrapped herself in Syaoran's arms.

It shocked him, but he didn't show it. He gently wrapped his arms around her, and soothed her with calming words, like 'everything's going to be alright.' 'I'm your friend, I'll be here for you' 'tell me anything, I'll listen' and 'you always have me, Tomoyo, and Eriol'

They ended on the bed, she was laying on his shoulder, him in a sit up right position, and he just leaning. He had an arm around her shoulder and was gently caressing it. He heard soft breathing coming from her and looked down, noticing she was asleep. He carefully laid her down in his bed and put the covers on her. Looking down, he kissed her on the forehead. "G'night Sakura-chan. Every thing will be alright. You just watch and see." He told her as he left the room, closed the light, the door and then walked to the guest room. Laying on the bed, he fell asleep with a fading image of Sakura.

Well, that's all for this chapter. I know, it's really sad, I had a hard time writing it. and, yes, it was very mean of me to make Fujitaka die, but it's part of the story. Kyoko is truly a bitch. And a dumb one at that. Killing him? She wont even get anything out of it, ne? I mean, she wasn't married to him. but even if she was, Sakura would get everything and it would still be horrible to do something like that.

Please, no flames. I know how sad it is!

The next chapter will be coming soon, I can't wait to work on it! Syaoran is starting to fall, have you noticed? And as for Sakura, besides the little crush she has, she doesn't really know what's going.

I'll tell you this much, within two-three chapters, we'll have one love bird who know exactly how they feel for a person, and one very confused person and their feelings.

And I haven't forgotten about the skit. So don't worry about that.

Anways much love and aloha.

Lotsa love!

Aloha,

This chapter is all Pau! (this chapter is all done),

Sanosuke's Foxel!