Hello people! I thank you for all your reviews. And I understand how sad it is for Sakura to lose her father. Can you guess who she's supposed to live with? There's a twist with it all. And Touya's coming into the picture, with his wife and unborn child. Well, that's not for awhile, but it'll be soon, believe me

I need to clean something up. I think I said that there will only be like 15 chapters. Well, I scrapped that plan. Syaoran wasn't suppose to tell Sakura he loved her until the ending of the last chapter. But I felt that was kind of boring. You know, I wanted to right a couple story, not an obsession story. So, things will start up soon, and that last idea was scrapped.

AND PLEASE STOP TELLING ME TO GO FASTER! I know what it feels like to wait, there's a really good story that I really enjoy on but it just so happens that she doesn't update for a month or so, sometimes longer, and she had like four stories and it was just getting to the good part when they deleted it, now, please, I do have a life. I'll get them up, and the pace is good, I like the fact that you like this story so much that you actually start yelling at me, "Right some more and FASTER!" but I try my best! Thanks for the reviews though!

Thanks for reading.

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Chapter 8: Tell me what's going on! & what am I feeling?

By: SANOSUKE'SFOXEL

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((DREAM))

Sakura walked in a dark place. It was eerie and scary. She sighed, hoping to god that there would be no ghost. Suddenly, everything was changing around her.

The dark, eerie forest she was in turned beautiful, the trees tall and green and trunks so big and brown. The night sky, or dark sky, whatever it was, turned into the happiest shade of blue, without a single cloud in the sky. Under her, the hard cement under her feet that she once felt, suddenly disappeared and was replaced with soft grass, that went in between her toes.

She felt the wind soft against her face.

"Sakura." Someone called her name and she turned around. Running to where she heard it. Then she stopped, seeing her father, with a women. And not any women, her mother.

Here was her mother standing in front of her, smiling brightly. Sakura felt tears of happiness trickle down her face. "Mom.........dad!" She laughed and ran towards them, hugging them ever so tightly.

"Sakura, dear. "Her mother said and Sakura pulled away to get a look at her mother. "I have a request to make."

"yes, mother?" She asked, looking at her.

"Me and your father made a will, that if both of us died, then you would go and move with someone dear and close to us. But I saw that you are staying at a friends house. A boy, I may add. One that had, hmm, let's say it this way, you haven't always got along with, but had a certain crush on. I've been watching you."

Sakura smiled. "He's changing." She spoke softly.

"I've noticed that too. But, I want to ask you a favor, Sakura."

"Yeah, mommy?"

She smiled. "You need to tell him. Tell him why you have all these bruises. Tell him what that horrible women is doing to you. And, if I might be right." She looked to her husband, then back to Sakura. "He is a very dear person to whom you should live with." She smiled and Sakura looked confused.

"What does that mean?" She asked.

"You'll find out, Sakura. But until then, take him with you to get your stuff. He will protect you." She smiled and they started to fade.

"Wait! Mom! Dad! Please come back!"

"Honey, we love you so much and we'll always be with you, don't forget that."

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Sakura woke up with a slight start.

"They want me to tell him." She said softly to herself.

"who wants you to tell who about what?"

Sakura looked over to the side and found Syaoran, in his walk-in closet, staring at her with a hint of curiosity in his eyes.

'Uh..........nothing. It was just a dream." She laughed nervously and rubbed her head.

"Oh........." He looked in his closet and then turned back to her. "So.........how you holding up?" He asked her. She looked at him and smiled slightly.

"I'm doing okay. I'm sure my dad and mom are watching over me right now, no in fact, I know." She smiled and he nodded weirdly.

They were silent for awhile and Syaoran broke the silence, coming out of his closet. "Do..........you know who you're going to live with? Is it Kyoko?" He asked her.

"No, I'm not sure who it is. My dad said, you know, before he left, that there was a will. I need to go get it. You think you can take me to my house. And if I can stay here for awhile."

He seemed to think about it for awhile. 'friends...right?' "Yeah, sure. But, why wont you stay with her? I mean, Kyoko."

Sakura looked away. "It's hard to explain.........I don't really want to talk about it now."

"Okay........." He trailed off and they walked outside to the car.

It took them about 10 minutes to get to her house and then he stopped. "Want me to come in?"

"Oh, um, no. That's okay. Just wait here, alright?"

"Of course." He answered and she left. She went into the house very quietly and walked up the stairs. She walked into her room and noticed that Kyoko was laying on her bed, sleeping. 'I have to be very quiet.' She thought to herself.

She was glad that the closet was open She walked into there and went to the last drawer, and noticed things she never saw before. She grabbed the whole box that was in there and made sure the will was in the box.

She got up and turned around. "What are you doing?!" Kyoko screamed, hitting her across the face. Sakura stared, and then started to run out of her room and down the stairs, the box in her hand. She opened the door and saw Syaoran standing at the side of the car, his hands crossed. He noticed her as she ran and stood up straight. She fell against him and he stared. She took in small breaths and his hands went to her shoulders. He looked into her eyes and she stared. He could see some kind of fear.

"What's wrong?"

"We need to get out of here." She said and he nodded, noticing that Kyoko had come out.

"Get back here, you little whore!" She yelled. Syaoran opened the door for Sakura and let her get in. He shut it and went to his side of the truck. Then, he drove off.

"What was that about?" He asked on the way back to the house.

"I don't want to talk about it."

"I'm your friend, ain't I?" He asked. "Why wont you tell me?"

He stopped at the apartment and looked at her. She took off her seat belt.

"Because I can't tell anybody! Only two people know, and one is already gone!"

"I'm sorry, Sakura, Okay? I thought maybe that if I was nicer to you, you could trust me! But I guess not!"

"It's not that, Syaoran! You just can't know. I need to figure things out. And I don't know how long that will take."

"I'm going to go somewhere. Blaze is on his date. The door is unlocked." She shut the door and he left.

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Eriol watched as Tomoyo walked into the café and sat next to him. She looked over to Syaoran ,who was looking down at the table, stirring the Cappuccino he had.

"So what's up that I need to come here to a guys meeting?" She asked.

Syaoran looked at them. "Sakura's dad.........he died last night." He told them and they gasped. "He was shot."

"That's horrible!" She said, looking at him .

"Her father and mother had a will, we got it today, she's probably going through it right now."

"Thank God she's not going to stay with the witch!" Tomoyo growled.

Syaoran looked at her intensely. "Tell me, what's the problem with Kyoko? She won't tell me! I want to know! I'm her friend, right? Even if it hasn't been long! I noticed I've cared for her a lot more then I use to! Why can't she tell me!? " He yelled and she sighed.

"I don't know." Eriol answered.

"I do. But I can't tell you. She'll come around, believe me Syaoran. She'll tell you eventually. I know she will. She has a lot of hope in you." Tomoyo said softly, remembering how much hope Sakura had as to the fact that Syaoran would change. And look; she was right. So right. Sakura would find a good time to tell Syaoran what was happening.

They were silent for awhile. Blaze walked in and Sat down. "Hey, people. Fancy seeing you three here."

"What are you doing here, blaze. I thought you were on a date." Syaoran said.

"Oh, we just went to get some lunch. Then I took her home."

"Oh." They went silent again. Then he looked up, "I want to know what I'm feeling for Sakura."

"What?!" All three asked, looking at him.

He was silent for awhile. Thinking on how to explain this. He knew that he loved her as a friend, a person. That had came fast, even if he had 'hated' her before. He chose his words carefully.

"Why was I not jealous of You Tomoyo, or you Eriol? Why was I only jealous of Sakura? What made me bond with her, not in an exactly good way,. But still? She always caught my eye, I never failed to notice her. But yet, I always thought it was because I hated her. But I realized I didn't. I'm worried for her. And I have a feeling I know what is up with Kyoko. Though, I wont say, since Eriol and Blaze are here. But I want to know. What do I feel for her? Please help me." He asked. They were all silent. "I know that I.........well, I'm not the type to open up, but I know I have a crush on her." A slight gasp was heard from Tomoyo. "But, I want to know if that's all it is."

Again, they were silent. But Syaoran didn't know what else to say, so he stayed silent.

"Syaoran........." Tomoyo spoke softly. "Sakura, well, she has always had a small crush on you." She said, making Syaoran look up.

"Wait, really?" He asked and Tomoyo nodded.

"It's true." Eriol said.

Again, Syaoran was silent. Then he looked up. "Hey, Eriol, did you really sleep with Sakura?" He asked out of the blue.

"Why? Jealous?"

"No, well, I don't think so. I'm tired of being jealous, but, did you?"

"No, he did not. Who even said that?" Tomoyo asked, putting an arm around Eriol.

"He did."

"you did?" Tomoyo asked, looking at Eriol.

"Well, he was saying things that weren't true, and I wanted t prove him to be wrong, cause he was always right. And I guess Sakura went along to. But, I mean, it's not that we should be talking about this, but is she still a virgin Tomoyo?"

"Uh.........from what I know yes."

Syaoran looked down.

"Heck, from what I know, she hasn't been kissed!" Tomoyo told them. "Anyhow, Syaoran. Sakura, she just, needs some help. I mean, she's going through a lot. Why don't you take her on a date. Wait till after the funeral to ask her. Just causally bring up the subject of going out sometime. Make it kind of like a joke, but be serious, you know?"

"Yeah, I know what you mean." He said, and looked back down. "Thanks you three"

"Why you thanking me? I didn't do anything." Blake asked.

Syaoran just smiled at his cousin.

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Sakura opened the box, and took out the will first. She opened it and looked at her savings. Her eyes widened at the amount. Try a couple thousands or more. Plus there were her collage savings. She smiled. Her daddy sure did work hard. And she still had the 500 from Touya. Which reminded her, she had to call him and deliver the bad news.

She looked further to see her new family. She looked in the phone book for the families number when she saw it. Picking up the phone and dialing the number she waited calmly.

"Hello. Li Yelan speaking."

"Mrs. Li? This is Sakura Kinomoto. Daughter Fujitaka and Nadeshiko Kinomoto."

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So, how'd you like it? I hope you guys did. It took me awhile to get it up, but I'm having a good time. The only problem here, is that I need to sneak on the computer. Cause I got grounded for two weeks for skipping class. I mean, come on, one class right? Oh well, our security guards are mean. Every time I got past the two securities, the one that busted me and the one that made me serve detention, my friend points, laughing "Look, your friends!" Did I mention the two securities are like best buddies?

So, I'm grounded for two weeks, but actually grounded just means no computer and no allowance. That's okay, my mom still gives me money when she has. It's not like we're rich, it's only 5 dollars at a time and I don't ask often. I'm actually a good kid, I just seem to get bad when I feel like it. Thank God I got good grades, or I would be in more deep shit.

Anyway, sorry for my rambling. Thanks for the reviews. I'll update soon. Please review!

ALOHA,

SANOSUKE'SANGEL