Thankyou for all reading this chapter and the last and the ones before that and reviewing. It was really nice! No one asked me to hurry up either, they asked if I could please try to do it sooner, but they didn't demand. Well, if they did, I can't really remember. Also, I go the second chapter for my other story out. I got 10 reviews for the first chapter. I hope you like this and please review! Thank you!

Hate or Love.

Chapter 10: Confessions and feelings.

By: Sanosuke's foxel

Sakura watched as the different buildings went pass as Syaoran drove at 60 MPH. He was only going 5 miles over the speed limit, so it wasn't a big deal.

Though, this was nerve racking. She wouldn't dare sneak a glance at him, in fear that he would catch her and tease her. She still feared that he was going to abandon her at McDonalds, or somewhere else.

He started to slow down as the came to a stop light, and Sakura looked in the window in front of her. There was a nice restaurant right there. She didn't quite get a glimpse of the name, but she shrugged it off. She'd see it later.

She looked at the chairs and tables outside. There seemed to be a small party. The tables had a white sheer cloth on it, and the chairs were wood, with soft cushions on the top. In the middle of each table, there was a candle and a bouquet of different flowers.

She looked down at the rose Syaoran had given her. As he turned he saw some people moving towards their car. He stopped and looked at her, noticing her looking at the rose.

"You know, my sister, Fuutie. She used to talk to me about all the different things about flowers and such." He started.

"Oh?" She looked at him, tearing her gaze away from the red rose.

"Yeah. She told me once about roses to. She said she never wanted to get one. Because a rose symbolizes "love." But a rose will eventually die. So that means that the love that those two people have will eventually die."

She looked down from his gaze, sighing. 'he doesn't even want to try things out.' She thought silently to herself. 'not even a try. He thinks it's just this once, that it will all die. But then again, he is just a small crush, a friend, and someone who use to hate my guts.'

Then, he started again. "Though, I disagree with her. Well, sort-a."

"Really? What do you think?"

"I think that she is right on the part where it dies and so does love. But I think that if you keep giving the person you love a rose, then it will never die. Each rose is a stronger hold on the relationship. I don't know, that's just how I see it." He said, as he let go of the break and started to park.

She smiled slightly. "I like that theory. It's very………good. I believe in it."

"Heh, you're the first. My sister attacked me for disagreeing with her." He said, remembering one of the times that she had beaten on him.

"That's not fair. I mean, you did agree with her, you just led off in another direction when she was finished. You just made it longer, made it better." He smirked as he took out the key from the ignition, and leaned back on his chair.

"Can I let you in on a little secret?" He asked, not looking at her, but looking down at his hands in his lap, fiddling with the keys.

"Sure. Why not." She answered, looking at him.

He sighed. "I haven't really opened up. I did with Blaze, and a little with Tomoyo and Eriol. But, it's weird, in a way. I mean, I used to be so cold. I use to hate my family. Then I came here. And I was still cold, only being nice to my cousin and people that surrounded him. Except you. But then when I let you stay at my place, after this project, you helped me in a way. To forget everything in the past, and look into the future. See what's good about everything." He laughed slightly, shaking his head. "I must sound like an idiot."

"No, of course not Syaoran. I know what it's like, to have a bad past. Just look in the future, just let everything pass, hold your hand out to all the good, and hold your head high. It all just takes a matter of time."

He looked up at her and smiled. "Thanks Sakura." He said, smiling.

His smile made her brighten. Two in one day! Awesome. "What for?"

"For helping me. You don't know how much."

"But………I didn't do anything."

He shook his head, a smile spread among his lips. Getting out, he moved to her side of the door and opened it. She walked out and he shut it. He hesitated for a minute, and then took her hand in his. "This way." He said, pulling her gently towards the other way rather then were they were heading. They walked down the parking spot until they reached a very, very long line.

Sakura got another glimpse of the sign. She liked the name, but wondered why they called it that. It was "Moonlight." She hadn't noticed that she said it out loud.

Syaoran looked at her. "I really like this place. An old friend works here, he's the boss. His name is Tyler Matsuyama. A real neat guy." He said as a butler walked up to them.

"Mr. Li, you have a reservation for two?" He asked and Syaoran nodded. "Mr. Masuyama insist that we take you and your guest in immediately. We have a table ready for you." He said, a smile gracing his lips. He was in his forty's, maybe fifty's. His hair was brown, but gray was very well noticeable. He was wearing a tux, and was very tall.

"Thank you Hito-san." He said as Hito led them inside, passing all the people who were waiting in line for an hour now. Sakura unconsciously moved closer to Syaoran.

"The people are giving us mean looks." She told him, looking up at him. "They're all glaring."

"Don't mind them, miss." Hito said, looking forward. "They're either all mad because they've been waiting in line for an hour, or they're jealous because you're with such a handsome man like Syaoran, or he's with such a beautiful girl."

Sakura blushed and turned away from Syaoran, looking at her feet, finding them very interesting at the moment.

They kept walking until they reached the back, of which led up to stairs. "Mr. Masuyama says he will meet you up there for a brief talk, he says it is the best spot, and that you deserve it, since it does give off the name of the restaurant."

Syaoran nodded, knowing exactly where they would be seated, because he had been here so many times before, for parties, dates, and so much more.

He walked with her, his hand still gripping hers gently. When they reached the upstairs Sakura gasped. It was so beautiful. A moonlit dinner. Why was this all so fancy? Now just imagine the price for the food. They were on a rather large balcony, and the moon was big and bright. Shining down on them with all it's magnificent light. It was quiet, except for the very faint sound of music. She saw the table and there was a candle in the middle, along with the bouquet that she had seen earlier. But instead of different assortments of flowers, it was just red and white roses.

The table had that same white, sheet tablecloth, and the chairs were the same, except there was more designs on them. She smiled at the sight and looked at Syaoran. "I take it that you like it?" He asked her, another smile tugging at his lips.

"I do, it's so nice, Syaoran. I don't know how to repay you, it's just so………" She trailed off, looking at the moon again.

"Syaoran Li. Last time I saw you was four months ago. I'm surprised to see you here again. It's really quite a surprise."

"Masuyama. Long time no see Buddy." Syaoran let go of Sakura's hand and gave a manly hug to his friend. "This here is Sakura Kinomoto." He motioned for Sakura to join them. She did. She smiled at him. "and Sakura, this is Tyler Masuyama. A really close friend of my family. Remember, I was telling you about him?"

"It's a pleasure to meet you." She said, looking at him with that same smile.

"The pleasure is all mine." He answered, kissing the back of her hand.

"This place is so nice, I've lived here all my life, and I have never seen it before." She said, admiring everything. "It's so beautiful. I'll come here more often."

"You should. We'd love that. Just call in and we'll make a special reservation for you."

"Thank you."

"No problem. Well, I better be off. I'll send Hito back up here to take your orders soon. Alright?" He asked and they both nodded. Tyler left and Syaoran pulled out her seat. She sat down and he pushed it in.

Sitting across of her they both laughed. They couldn't see each other because of the flowers. Syaoran moved it to the ground, making sure none of the would hit it. "I really, really like this place, Syaoran. You didn't have to bring me here."

"But I wanted to. You deserve it. Going through so much. I mean, I lost my dad when I was young, but you lost both your parents." He shook his head. "I don't know what'd I do if my mom died." He whispered. Before he use to pray for his mother to die, his sisters too. But he didn't really realize what he was doing. He didn't noticed that he reminded them so much of there father that it would hurt them.

It didn't give them a right to hit him, but he remembered when he decided to leave. They cried, telling him to reconsider. But he didn't. Now that he thinks of it, they didn't really know what they were doing. All of them were blind, not understanding how much they were hurting each other. Until they were separated.

Now Syaoran would get occasional calls from the sisters, and every so often his mother. Everything was getting better for him, he only wished it was for Sakura.

"It's funny how you don't have a male figure in your life, and I don't have a female figure. You live with all girls, I live with all boys." She giggled, thinking about the coincidence. "Strange huh?"

"Almost as strange as the fact that your eyes are my favorite color." He said.

She looked at him, wondering exactly what he meant. Did this mean, that he liked her? More then a friend. Well, I would have thought so from the first time he asked her out on a date. But then again, Sakura is pretty dense.

He smirked and looked at his menu. She did this two. Within ten minutes, both knew what they wanted. Hito walked up to them and smiled. "What may I get you? " He asked.

"I want the New York Stake meal. And Sakura?" Syaoran turned to look at her.

"I want the Beef Stroganoff." ((I know, American food in Japan. So what? My story, right? Plus, besides a very few, I'm not really good when terms come to Japanese food. I know Syaoran's favorite is Dim Sum. Or is that Chinese food? I know Chinese food, but I don't know what Dim Sum is. Isn't that confusing?)) She answered him and he nodded.

"What can I get you to drink?"

"I want a water." Sakura said and Syaoran nodded.

"Make that two."

Hito nodded, writing this down. "Oh, I almost forgot. Do you want your meat medium rare, or well done?"

"Medium rare, please." Syaoran answered and Hito nodded.

"Will that be it?"

"That will be fine." Syaoran said, looking at Sakura who only nodded.

"Alright. Your food will be done within 15 minutes." He answered and then left.

When their meal came, there wasn't a lot of talking. Simple "This is good" and "I really like this food." And other little comments were shared. But not real big conversations. Hito came back to ask about desert, giving them menu.

"How about this one? " Sakura asked looking at the good looking desert. It had a hot yellow piece of cake on the bottom, and had vanilla ice cream, with chocolate and caramel swirls all over.

"That looks great. Can we have this one Hito-san?" Syaoran asked. Hito took the menu and looked at it.

"Of course you can. No one's stopping you." He answered, writing it down on his pad.

"Alright. We'll have it." They laughed and he nodded, going downstairs.

When he brought the huge desert back up, they ate half of it. Sakura put her spoon down and took a drink of her water, and then looked at Syaoran. "So, you have four sisters?" She asked and he nodded.

She grabbed the spoon and started to eat again. "Yeah. Pain in the butts really."

She giggled. "Are they younger then you?"

"No, they're all older then me. The oldest one is 8 years older." ((I don't know this for a fact! I made it up!))

"What?" She asked, looking at him with wide eyes. "But, then why would they be pain in the butts if they're older."

"They're so irritating. Let me imitate." He cleared his throat and put the spoon down. "Oh. My. God. That is like the best thing I have ever seen. Ahh! She is so adorable!."

Sakura cracked up laughing and he smiled.

"I swear, there is something wrong with them. They need to touch everything. It's not even funny. Watch when they come." He picked up his spoon. "They'll be touching you. Pulling your cheeks, lifting your arms, examining you all around."

"Why me?" She asked.

"Cause you're cute. And they like cute things………and people."

Sakura blushed. 'He thinks I'm cute!'

Syaoran took the last bite as Hito came with the bill. Syaoran gave him his card and then looked at Sakura. "And what about you? You got a brother right? Where's he?"

"He's coming tomorrow. His names Touya and he can be do mean! He lives in England with his wife. She's so nice. I have no clue why she married him." She sighed. "She wants to have her baby here in Japan. It's going to be a boy. They're thinking about moving here and raising the baby here. I think that will be nice."

"Oh." It went silent for awhile.

Then she spoke up. "The will. You know the one that my dad left for me?"

"Yeah?"

"It says that my brother inherits the house. He'll be living there probably. I've lived in that house since I was born."

"And what about Kyoko? What does she get?"

"Nothing. My father didn't really love her, he was always in love with my mother. He just thought that it'd be better for me. To have a female figure." She got lost in thought for awhile, then she looked up. "Do you mind taking me Penguin park? I love that park so much. I want to go there before everything gets all hectic."

"Sure. Why not. I'll take you there."

"Thanks."

Hito came back with the card and Tyler followed. "How was everything?"

"It was good." They both said, standing up.

"Um, Syaoran?" Tyler looked at him.

"Yeah?"

"What are my roses doing on the floor?"

Syaoran laughed nervously, picking them up and putting them on the table. "Sorry Tyler. They were in my way. We couldn't see each other."

"Well, it isn't a problem, we'll just get smaller ones." He shook hands with Syaoran and moved aside as the two left.

Going back to the parking lot, Sakura noticed that the people that were right in front of her when they first came were just about to go in. 'good thing we have good connections. Or rather Syaoran. My feet would be killing me.'

They got into the car and drove to the park. Sakura took in a deep breath. She knew it was time. She knew she could trust him. She just didn't want him to worry about her. 'Come on, Sakura. This is easy. All you have to do is tell him. Let him know.'

They stopped at the park and got out. Walking slowly around it, Sakura breathed in the fresh air. Syaoran's hands were dug deep inside his pockets. Sakura stopped and turned to him. "Syaoran?"

He stopped and looked at her, taking his hands out of his pocket. "What's up?"

"I………I want to tell you something. But you need to promise you won't tell anybody. Not your mom, not Eriol, not Blaze, not anyone."

"This gotta be big. I promise, but if it means that you'll end up in danger, then I will tell someone. If we need to save you or anything." He said, not thinking that the secret really had to do with her being hurt.

"I understand that much." She said and he stared.

'She's finally going to tell me.' He knew.

She took his hands in hers, which couldn't cover his. She brought them up and looked deep into his eyes.

"What's been going on with me. You want to know what my problem with Kyoko is, right?"

"Yes." He answered, looking at her with worried eyes. He gripped her hands, they were holding onto each other.

"When my mother died, I was only three. I don't really remember her. Seven years went by, and Touya was in his last year in collage. He and Tiffany got married that year. They were living with us for about a year. Dad had met Kyoko, and everything was okay. I liked her in the beginning, she was nice to me. Touya and Tiffany didn't like her, I don't know why, but they didn't. Then, I found out why. It was the first month I was left alone with her. Dad went on a business trip, and Touya left to England."

She took in a deep breath and closed her eyes. Opening it once again, she looked at him, her eyes watering. "I came home at eight from Tomoyo's. I was 11 now, and that was my curfew. Kyoko got mad. She had been drinking that night. She beat me. Really bad. She told me that if I told anyone that my dad would be sad again. That he would get rid of her for me, but he would be really sad. She said that I would be selfish. I ended up going to the hospital; I was so badly beaten up. My dad couldn't make it, but Touya did. I had a feeling he knew what was wrong, but I didn't tell him. I stayed in the hospital for 9 days; healing. Kyoko abuses me, Syaoran. My life isn't perfect. Everyone thinks that of me, but no one knows!" She felt the tears fall.

Syaoran hugged her, rubbing her back gently. He had let go of her arms, and she quickly wrapped them around his torso.

"All those bruises. They were all from her. I've never fell down the stairs." She said and he kissed her forehead.

"Tomoyo knows, ne?"

"Yes, Tomoyo knows everything. Well, not everything."

He pulled slightly away from her. "What do you mean?" He asked, looking into her glassy emerald pools.

"My father………he told me who shot him. I know." She said, crying more. "He told me."

"Kyoko………" Syaoran hissed and she nodded.

"Kyoko murdered my father. She thought that she would have inherited everything. She didn't know that he had a will." He pulled her close again and hugged her. She cried on his chest. "I feel like everything is my fault. My dad never loved her, he told me. I should have said something. Dad would have never been shot, because she would have been behind bars."

"Don't blame yourself for things like this." He said, hushing her. "It's alright now. Why don't you say anything now?"

"I'm still scared to, Syaoran. I'm scared she'll go after Touya and Tiffany, and the baby two."

"And what about you? Sakura, she might try and kill you. We need to tell someone."

"No. Not yet. Wait till after the funeral. Please?" She asked, looking at him.

"Yeah. Alright. After the funeral. But the next day we go straight to the police station."

She nodded. He sighed and looked down at her. "Sakura. You want to know why I was always mean to you? Since we're all in this confessions and stuff zone." He said, looking at her.

"I would like to know." She answered. "What did I ever do wrong?"

"Nothing." He looked into her orbs. "I was jealous. So jealous of you Sakura. And I didn't even realize it. Blaze did, he's the one that helped me notice this. I thought you had the perfect family, I mean I knew of your mom, but you had a dad, and a brother. And they were so nice to you. They didn't expect things from you. I never knew that your dad was never home, I never knew that. I never knew that Kyoko was beating on you. I use to think I had the most horrible life. My sisters would always hit me, and my mother would always yell at me. Calling me a disgrace. I hurt them so much because I was a replica of my father. And when I hurt them, they hurt me. In the end, when I left, I realized how much they meant to me, and how much I mean to them. But I never gave in. I kept getting swallowed up in my self pity. Then I realized another thing. Why was I not jealous of Eriol, or Tomoyo. Or anyone else?" He looked at her. "It was because in truth, I liked you. More then anyone else. But I guess I thought you were out of my range. I don't know why, so that was even more to hate you. Again, being pushed into my own self pity, I didn't stop to think. I was selfish."

He looked at her and she did the same. Their eyes meeting. Amber and Emerald.

"I like you, Sakura. I really do. I just wish I realized that more before. Because I never, ever want to put that kind of stress and pain on you again." He looked at her with sorrowful eyes, and wiped the tear that was rolling down her cheek. "Don't cry, it makes me wanna cry too. I like you more then a friend. Let's see if this takes us somewhere." He whispered as he bent down slowly.

His lips brushed against hers and it tickled slightly, but she didn't laugh, didn't smile. Her eyes were still opened, watching him. Then, slowly, they closed. He kissed her. Pulling slightly back, he went in for a deeper kiss, a more passionate kiss. And she let him. It felt like the best thing in the world for her. She loved it. Slowly, her hands moved around his neck, as they parted and then went back for another one. His arms found its way around her waist and he brought her closer, still kissing. Kissing her senseless as if this was the only opportunity he would be given.

After what seemed forever for the two, they parted. Sakura leaned her head on his chest. "So, what do you say? Will we try?" He asked.

She smiled. "We have to. I hope you weren't playing. I wouldn't want my first kiss to be a joke."

He had to think back for a minute. Wasn't she not a virgin? Oh yeah, that's right. Eriol was just joking about that. He rested his chin on her head, and moved his hands up and down her back in a comforting way.

"We'll try this. I really like it." He said and she nodded, closing her eyes.

"You're warm." She smiled.

"I'm glad."

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Syaoran and Sakura walked into the house. They walked up the stairs and to her room. She turned to look at him.

"Do I get a good night kiss?" He asked, giving puppy dog eyes.

"Yes, of course you do." She answered and tip-toed to kiss him soundly on the lips. He smiled and returned it. Moving away, she smiled at him. "Thank-you, Syaoran. Good night."

"Night." he watched the door shut and left to his room. Walking in, he started to get things ready for a quick shower. He couldn't help but feel pity for her. She had a horrible life, and he had made it worst. But everything was turning out good now.

Maybe even love one day. He liked her, he wouldn't mind. She was perfect. In every way. It just needed to take time. He smiled at Sakura's words.

"Just look in the future, just let everything pass, hold your hand out to all the good, and hold your head high. It all just takes a matter of time."

Just a matter of time.

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Wow, I didn't realize how long this chapter got. I was just typing, got kind of carried away. It's exactly 15 pages, I've seen longer, but I usually type 10. I went to count how much pages this was and I was like "wow, I didn't expect that." I wanted to bring in Touya and the Li sisters, along with Yelan as well. I was planing everything out. Oh well, that's next chapter. My fingers are soar; because I was non stop typing. I hope you enjoyed it. Wasn't it sweet? How they connected and everything? I was really impressed with the kiss seen, I really liked it! Please Review! I'll start on the next chapter ASAP.